Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Confused.. now and there..

HI blog.. early in the morning i blogged.. really very weird.. i dont know why.. i unable to fall asleep.. my mind was thinking here and there.. alot alot of stuffs went through my head.. oh ya.. haven state the reason what triggered all that.. well.. my ex-leader joseph called me suddenly.. asked me go out for dinner.. just after the post i did previously.. isnt Fate making fun of me.. i just said wanna disappear.. it actually made a chance for me to reappear.. thats indeed funny.. its really hilarious dont you think? in past making me like fool.. what i want.. keep dont give.. now what i dont want it to happen.. keep happened.. i really just a toy for it to play after all.. but maybe.. i really thinking too much.. i dont know why i suddenly like this say.. my colleague.. janine.. just said i think too much.. should put down all things and continue living.. and not care about others view.. all this sentences.. so familiar.. so deep.. i suddenly.. dont know what to say.. and i agreed on it.. i dont know why... a person with abilities to play with words.. and alot of reasoning.. actually dont know what to say.. suddenly.. i think.. maybe is my heart changed mind.. and now i posting.. i suddenly.. have this thinking of why escaped? but in another minutes.. i think why i must face those people which triggered my bad memories.. alot of thoughts run again while i typing... i indeed a fool.. a fool which always know how to care for others but dont willing to care for just myself.. ya i am a fool.. just think of others.. and so.. i know how to face this now.. why dont i just face it.. why let others waste time on me just to pull me out of this stupid thinking.. just move out yourself.. okay.. i just felt much better.. funny isnt it.. others never success in persuading me.. but i always manage to persuad myself.. really very funny.. but at least.. i made my first step again.. my brave first step.. indeed.. i already wasted 1 of my colleague time.. so i never allow that happened again.. i promised.. and thank you......

Ended the storytelling at -->4:51 AM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam