Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Stress.... Neglected problems..

Hi blog.. so tired now.. i slept for 16 hours for today.. because was really tired.. the moments when my eyes are open.. lots of things go throught my minds.. lots and lots of problems.. i cant always think.. so sleep really can let me rest my mind at least.. but no matter what.. i shouldnt like this.. because.. the problems still there.. and i need to solve it after all.. and now.. the real and serious problem occurs.. why should i always did the wrong and realized it late....

Today only sleep for long.. and play for long.. friends called me go play basketball.. and yet i dont want.. very tired.. but i keep reject due to some reasons.. yet i know.. speak the truth and not.. still the same.. so rather i lie a better reason.. some reasons arent meant for others to know..

My mom back.. she back with a letter.. From tp.. a letter of school fee.. what i scare.. came.. and yet my mom dont allow me work.. and now expect me to do something for the fees... why what i said.. my mom dont think about it.. just listen to relatives.. what the use.. okay.. to be truth.. people should just use its intelligence.. and not just follow principles.. according to our situation.. still.. tell me call my dad.. i could use a financial aids.. but mom dont want.. i could have a bank loan.. mom dont want.. i want go work.. mom dont let.. i always respect her choices.. but this time.. i really think its hard.. dammit.. i really need to think about this.. yet.. time is up soon.. for the Term test to come.. i am so stress that i dont know how liao..

Will time heal or even solve my problems? good question.. NO.. yet i waiting like a fool.. for what? i dont know.. i only know now i have stopped track again.. okay worse of it is i no school.. yet i know thats surely not what i want and mom wanted it.. so how.. i still dont know.. yet i living like nothing.. no.. to be exact.. i acting like nothing brain and heart worked till death for these.. nobody know.. because nobody care about it.. so what i waiting for? dont know.. is my answer... Fan Signing off.....

Ended the storytelling at -->11:40 PM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam