Suffering the fate which i dont know why i need to...
Hi blog... its been awhile.. sorry.. have alot of stuffs happened.. and not even 1 things i could want it considered good.. well.. maybe thats what i should had in my life.. and i never should try escape in my life.. haiz.. depressed again.. well.. lets see what happened during my disappearance on blogger..
Wednesday 9th May
Its a long long day as usual.. since its wednesday.. and got to suffer the long break.. which i said previously.. and well.. the rest went quite okay.. then but.. lecture He cheng abandoned me.. left me alone in the lecture.. haiz.. feel all dull again.. thats why i hate alone.. then when dismissed.. i saw someone.. again.. i avoided.. well.. still escaping.. thats what i mean.. anyway go home alone.. and the journey so unbearable.. cant sleep again.. reach home.. realized my mouse spoilt.. so 1 things after another comes.. i got feeling this gonna be waves again.....
Thursday 10th May
Nothing much that day in school.. except sleep in lectures.. blah blah blah... bought a mouse at a school stall which set up and since its last day and sure gonna be cheap.. so i bought it.. but well.. i guessed it so.. the waves.. the mouse actualy cant be used.. and i was so frustrated.. and i keep try to find out what is the problem.. haiz.. and i plug it to my big bro laptop.. and its worked!! on his laptop.. i cant believe that sight.. well.. i guess.. since my big bro de mouse also spoilt.. guess i go buy 1 more too.. haiz.. damn sad for that day.. and i knew.. the waves wont be stopped..
Friday 11th May
A very short day.. since i gonna dismissed at 11am.. but well.. not considered.. 1.30pm got a course manager talk.. so no choice.. stayed at school.. use laptop.. and found siangyee.. well.. we both got same characteristic.. love quiet and remoted places.. and 5th floor is always our 2 favourite spot.. i always find him there or vice versa.. anyway he go off first since he got 1 more tutorial.. and what i did was nothing.. since i am pathetic only got touchpad to use..
Okay.. we been faked.. the CM talk had no attendence.. and we waited so long to join that talk.. haiz.. what he said just wanna tell us he work hard for us to earn those benefits we enjoying now.. haiz.. i appreciated.. so dont worry.. but 1 things he said make me angry.. he said be rational adult.. what a class change can cause? he said because we are compressed.. so we need to separated.. and okay.. fine with that.. but why not all classes separated.. but partially.. he never think of us at all.. first.. how can we be rational when we are not informed about this.. and all we been informed is work hard so wont be separated.. and we are the best class among the 7.. cause clever people are in my class.. but why we separated? of course.. we cant take it at first.. okay second.. if he separated all together.. then at least wont be isolation to 1 groups.. people are used to usual group.. and when we separated.. those minority group of course being isolated.. ya he said the new lass should welcome us.. but that must see what type of class they are.. for example my class.. i dont know that will happened anot.. so please dont say us to be rational when you all these adults never think much than me on this matters.. haiz.....
Okay.. after that talk.. i and siangyee went to cheers in TP buy the mouse.. and great.. the mouse doesnt work too.. we tried in school.. and i can confirmed.. its really my laptop problem.. i really got no choice and dont know what to do.. but i need to make a decision.. and so... i decided reformat.. okay.. really not even 1 things could make me happy.. so i asked yeu to play basketball.. with yong quan and ching hong.. well.. long time never see them.. so hope we had fun.. but again.. all ruined.. due to trying to repair the laptop.. we late.. but the main reason is.. 1 of the people on my side.. actually persuaded the majority go back the usual court and play.. and caused me great trouble.. they all agreed with yeu.. and they pang seh them.. they never though of his feeling at all.. and all people never though of people like me who tried to make this basketball happened.. you know what? i gonna take all responsible without you all knowing right? people on both sides blamed me.. its damn unfair.. i really wanna think are they really know what i going through all the times.. i guess.. no.. haiz.....
Saturday 12 May
Today.. woke up early.. and start to reformat my laptop.. after that.. being called to go for lunch.. KFC again.. suggested by huat.. dont know why he like fast food.. anyway.. gonna spend much again... and then.. they come my house make a ruckus again.. and i was online doing their apologising to yeu.. haiz.. never mind already.. should know they wont care that much.. of course.. also kanna yeu scolding.. but lucky in the end.. he understand.. well.. at least 1 big stress relieved.. and now.. stil continue repairing the laptop.. and they at outside make so much noise.. crazy.. lol.. anyway they went for basketball again at night.. i didnt go.. because my skin abit not good.. so no choice.. didnt told them so i know they scold me again.. haiz.....
The End
So understand? thats the fate i meant.. and why? haiz.. who know.. people dont understand me.. life that fate make its damn hard for me.. and surrounding which making me more frustrated or stressed.. and work which i not used at all.. sooner or later.. i really going berserk.. is there someone again can accompany me.. for a silent trip.. to anywhere also can.. at long i could let the silence take over all my problem.. thats my believes.. silent.. is something that could actually covered my mind and problems.. but this might be a dreams.. which i dont know will it happened... so why i always hoped for something which only me cant get it.....
By the way.. the answer for last last post. if not wrong.. its 2.. chat with people.. because.. 1st.. i got nothing to play without friends.. 3rd i always loss sleep.. and only place i could sleep well.. is school.. so do you think i want that easy? so means i am a girl? no.. i just like the feeling of chatting.. no matter is cyber or real life.. of course.. cyber me.. is a really noisy and aggressive people.. unlike the real life me.. even chatting i might stop the conversation.. so thats the difference.. but.. i still will choose 2.. of course.. i will do choice 1.. if someone invited me for games.. chances only appeared at night... thats all.. have a nice day.....
Ended the storytelling at -->8:45 PM
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com
Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me
What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D
What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.
I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...
What i want...
*Be happy forever
*Have the N91 phone
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*A laptop
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*Friends that really care
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam
