Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Push into grave by myself...

Hi blog.. my break is over.. i thought through alot.. and when my thoughts is and about to blog it out.. i realized the scolding appeared at my tagboard.. and i actually not angry that they humilated me.. actually.. was happy.. i mean.. i was wrong.. we are wrong.. why? we are not frank enough.. arent friends need trust to goes on to better relationship?

As they said.. i keep find excuses.. well.. half is true its just they dont believe.. most is i really find it.. okay.. by now they already know my skin condition.. yet you couldnt expect me say "my skin".. next day "my skin".. and then they sure say my skins the next time they speak with me.. i kind of hate it.. in school.. i already hide my condition from classmates.. cause i just hate people said about my skins.. so thats my explanation for the excuses.. and hereby i apologise...

And about why they never dont want call me out that day... i guess also my fault.. cause i humilated lyesia in the a game.. i guess thats what i did which made the big problem now.. and so.. i wanna apologise for that too.. cause whenever people make me suffer.. its kind of thought must be fair.. and so i will humilate him back.. and i really need to say i am sorry lyesia.. so no matter what you all say.. i take it for this week.. since its my fault..

But to be frank now.. i really hate being centre of the joke.. so please be kind about my thoughts...

Anyway both parties are wrong because we arent true to each other.. and for that i wasnt suppose to just blog my feeling and anger out that day... "Sorry."

Little Thoughts..
Actually, best friends made from the source trust after all.. yet i always failed to discover.. and cause of my 'everything keep to myself' characteristic.. i always failed to make friends understand me.. and i dont want to act the a 'self' to them anymore.. i wanna really be myself.. no more talk back.. no more tolerate.. if i really unhappy.. i try to say out.. instead of type it secretly.. i will try my best.. but need time.. no that i dont need help.. i wanna be the 1 i used to be.. and no need to act.. yet dont want people dont understand me... will you help me?

For now i really need the forgiving from lyesia and choon huat.. i wonder they will anot.. they now should be playing basketball.. and of course i wasnt invited.. but dont know when they back.. will they come my blog to see all this? i will stop blogging till they forgive me too... till then.. Fan Logging off.....

Ended the storytelling at -->8:25 PM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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[==_ Siti _==]

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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam