I hate to be alone.. But thats the end..
Hi blog,
Slowly, I managed to get used to be alone. Although its the first day, I at least tried to avoid going out with those girls. I cannot be the bad guy, but at least I can avoid getting hopes from them now.
Anyone around me have been a disappointment. I want to think is my expectation too high, but the way I seeing. Its just me the one who lowering my abilities to satisfy them.
These recently I been finding it annoying how people around me works or behave. I just wanna be alone now, where nobody know me or know anyone. I think I getting to high up now.
Thought of closing this blog now. In past I blog, one of the factor is to let others know more about me. Its not just in blog, in real life I been trying my best to show my side.
But to them, its like the memory entered the RAM, once they sleep it will be gone. Again they will do what I don't like. Even more worse, self-assumption of my characteristic.
"I won't get offended by comments, but I will get offended if you say something about me but not letting me know."
"I won't get angry about critcises but don't keep repeat the same thing over and over again."
Haiz.. Say so much for what, even if they know they will still do it isn't it?
Suddenly I come to realize people who understand me the most might only be 2 people. Dennis and Derick. They at least know, like Derick know whats my weakness while knowing what stupid ideas I thinking from time to time. Dennis know my strength and he know what I don't like. This is at least better than any friends I have.
Now its not important whether people understand me anot, I have already stopped pinning hopes on them. Also on the purpose of this blog. I will stop blogging soon I guess, but not the habit. Maybe keep a diary at least to frustrate out what I am thinking..
Slowly, I will be a loner soon. Then maybe refresh again? I wonder.... Now still a mess...
Fan Signing Off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:08 PM
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com
Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me
What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D
What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.
I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...
What i want...
*Be happy forever
*Have the N91 phone
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*A laptop
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*Friends that really care
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam