Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

can't just let me have smooth days?

I really just too unlucky.. today auto cads test.. and suddenly new problem happened again -.-.. why always auto cads which i have the most confident of all subject and i can get real high mark just cant? always got stuffs happened which i cant solve.. why doesnt it happened during normal period.. at least i can ask.. haiz.. i just really can perform during normal days? unlucky just wont leave? i doomed for the rest of the life? scared.. really scared.. now want to use the computer do some research and cant at all.. blogging is already barely.. this comp just like to spoilt at bad times.. and just really know how to choose dates.. oh mine.. how am i got to do.. i need a laptop!! when can i get it?!

I these few days really stressed out.. i dont know how to settle stuffs which keep happened recently.. i just not myself these recently.. argh.. exam coming.. and i dying..oh great.. want to appeal now.. after reeve told me about the course.. which i interested.. i dont know why he talked about these give me such an impact.. i guess temasek poly didnt really give me good memories.. bads things just keep going.. its look like i been abandoned.. even my mind think so too.. if not i wont been affected.. life really terrible now.. i dont know want to appeal to other poly anot.. my mind in a whirl..how am i gonna do about it.. should i find my care person? argh.. mind dying.. i gonna go crazy sooner or later.. i better put off these stuff first.. solve the important ones first.. i guess everything gonna work out itself right? i just bluffing myself.. thats not gonna happened on me.. now so late.. think sleep.. tomorrow still need to wake up at 6+.. go school free access lab do powerpoint.. just too bad.. i lost mine.. haiz.. if not i not going to spent so much time.. oh man.. Jolin asked me to go bowling.. i asked dennis.. but then suddenly comp problem again.. and i lost contact.. haiz.. lazy to call.. guess tomorrow ask again ba.. i got to relax my mind.. i gonna go bonker.. haha.. ok thats all.....

Ended the storytelling at -->1:24 AM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam