Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Am i fated to have only bad things happening on me?

why a happily stuff always turn out to bad things.. is it i a jinx? i really dont know.. even though the stuffs wasnt the worst.. it still a nightmares i want to wake up as soon as possible.. as my mom and my cousin was shareholder.. she was 1 of the boss.. actually we all planned out that if she do this.. in 4 years we will able to clear the house montly insallment fee, support me whatever i need.. and support me to graduation.. and i was able to work there to earn more allowance.. so everything so fine but just for 1 month.. things happening(is family affair which i wanted to keep it as secret) so everything we worked for all went down to drain.. and i finally quited.. as my scheldues was cut to supreme short which i think it a waste of time work.. as something happened.. my cousin hired 2 more workers now no more my space.. i was though working with family have flaxible time.. whenever i can go i go.. but instead.. i was keep told not to come when i was free... on when they in trouble.. they need me i am busy!!. its not fair and i was blamed for that.. i dont know how many time said let me work.. and they only allowed me work few days a week.. but still ok as i still can buyt what i want as mom still earning.. but now.. not anymore.. we resume to financial crisis again... and my dreams were shattered..i was really devastated.. so i decided to quit when my scheldules became fixed.. it pointless.. so tomorrow it my last day working there.. as i was so troubled.. reeve know about it.. insisted on taking a stroll with me..i was very grateful.. as i hate home.. i rather sleep at friends house than sleeping on my own beds.. i cant have a wink at all for most of the time.. now i gonna have to save alot to buy at least a laptop for me.. i also start jogging everyday with siangyee in the morning.. thats the reason for late cause of no time... as jog finished already 7+ i reach school at least needed 1hour and 15-30mins.. its so horrible.. and when jog finish got to prepare which also takes time.. which means its a confirm i will late.. really hope there is a extend to the grace of late of 30 mins instead 15.. or at least 20-25.. i will be grateful.. so my days wasnt going to smooth unless i dead?i realy scare of it... really hope i can really have my smooth plan everytime.. really hope so.....

Life time

Do you ever have dreams which really happened in near future? To me i have.. and its more like a prediction rather than dreams because its happened exactly! Actually 100% almost 92% i have dreamless sleep and its true.. i got count it.. and 5% or more is a damn short nightmares about falling.. then i will wake up.. like falling down step of stairs and wake up.. sometime scary sometime not.. and the rest of the 3% or less? its my so called 'prediction" dreams.. all is true.. for example whe i was sec 1 i actually dreamt about celerbarting my birthday with jonathon and chen wei them.. even though i dont know them at that time! and its really happened at sec 2 when i dropped to normal academic.. i was shocked when they said wanna have birthday party for me.. as actually remembered their face during the dream.. if you want another example.. this 1 more spooky to me.. i actually dreamt about my poly classmates!! i dreamt about having lunch with stranger during my sec 5 days.. and i realize the scenery when its happened and realized my 'prediction' came true again.. fully the same..!!.. isnt that spooky.. i still got alot small small stuffs which keep happening and i dreamt about its.. but i still have inaccurate time.. which i was relieved instead.. why? dont you think know future is a spooky things? if 1 day you dreamt how you dead what going to be happened.. the % of its came true is near 95% you know!! who will happy!! if i got choice i rather dont want.. it way too scary.. i dont mind share this as i want to know who still got this problem.. at least of common 'trait'.. haha.. i recently dreamt a girl which i fall in love in first sight during primary school till sec 2 which i was rejected and give up on relationship that on.. i dreamt seeing her in the bus which i sit infront of the card reader which she got trouble tapping i helped her and she remembered me.. and i awoke.. do you think i should hope its appear or not.. i a freak you know.. girls avoiding me.. if its true maybe run away? i will be more sad you know? anyway its a mystery... its my first time dreamt about girl i fall in love.. so its not very accurate for now.. so leave it to my 'prediction'.. haha

Ended the storytelling at -->2:07 AM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam