Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Things just not going to be smooth!
HAiz.. why just things not going in my way.. i just really want to know.. today the interview ruined by me.. due to my honestly... actually this job pays is damn good.. but well.. ruined by me.. as we should bluff them by saying 2 month.. cause working 1 month not many people want to hire you.. but then.. i accidentally said 1 month plus.. well.. and they say wait for my calls.. well. thats mean no hope.. as others they said tomorrow please come for orientation.. i really hate myself being the 'black cat' while i just keep bringing people bad luck! Oh god..is it funny to tortured me with the life you force me to take? and now a more worse scenerio.. as we said just wait for a that call.. i at home doing nothing a call of job opporutnity came.. and while i already waiting call!! oh man.. its not the first time.. last week also reject a job due to i promised a friend to help him cant go for interview.. now another 1.. i just cant go! if i accept it i cant wait for the job we want!.. oh man.. i really hate myself.. no.. i really hate my life! i just want to work and why must it be so tough.. i guess is shouldnt go with my friend.. isnt it dramatic? well nobody believe.. only me know myself.. haiz.. now doing nothing continue staring at screen... hope someone just call me out to play or do anything thats fun.. even chit chat i also happy... haiz.. those things like fairy tales.. never appear.. so a normal life i also cant get.. then what the point being alive when a ordinary boy cant get what ordinary things i want.. haiz.....
Ended the storytelling at -->4:27 PM
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com
Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me
What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D
What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.
I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...
What i want...
*Be happy forever
*Have the N91 phone
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*A laptop
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*Friends that really care
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam