Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Fated to be..

I guess.. In my lifetime.. I gonna lived in tough way.. way tough... why were everything related to me must happened in unexpected way.. and most be tedious to solve it.. i just cant believe that.. its true not everything goes your way.. but doesn’t applied to me!! Mine is everything wont goes my way.. not even 1 is what i expected.. So. the older I am.. The tougher its gonna reach is it? Then I rather remain young! I cant take it anymore... just cant take it.. I really gonna go mad.. Sooner or later..... Today early in the morning go school.. reach school about 7am.. then study my IWD which i didn’t studied at all.. then when test come... my brain actually malfunctioned again!! i cant remembered what i just read.. after i submit the paper.. then.. recalled.. great.. and that’s the time i received the worse message i will never expect.. my psychology teammate sick again!! its just the impossible of the impossible!! how come my teammate one after another keep got things happened!! its the fifth time!! i really cant take that blow anymore.. my brain was.. hay wired.. then i blur blur walk till library.. didn’t join Dennis them and walk away quietly.. absolutely no appetite at all.. go library.. Settled down.. try to settle the psychology stuffs.. but my heart just cant calmed down... then i did my math revision to keep me away from those stuffs first.. then math quiz... finished within 10 minutes.. check and check... then pass up.. Teacher unbelievable.. and tell me double check.. but i just wasn’t listening... really very stressed out.. when i stepped out.. then realize my mistake.. as my math was did way too fast because not only i write fast.. also the step were all 1-2 steps.. so if wrong whole answer wrong!! i walk out the class then realized.. what could i do? my mind wasn’t there.. no 1 else to blame fate.. why fate hate me so much i really pondered about it.. am i so detestable? is that my retribution? i always take all these as my training for future.. so remained optimistic view... but way too optimistic that now realized its actually endless.. like a bottomless hole which i cant fill it up.. and still i hope that 1 day i will free from all these.. but turnout opposite.. i was in total.. argh.. really feel helpless.. they said Sunday.. then video will be edited on that day send me at night...they really thought i superman.. video edited such a rush can be a good 1? and they think i had all the time for the PowerPoint? PSPS also.. how come only our group asked for demonstration... all weird things just never end!! and more to come.. i definitely know it.. as its just expected.. ya.. that’s the only things i expected and never went wrong.. i was really tired.. really really tired.. please.. let me just rest for eternal life for the goodness sake.. never mind the last sentence.. death wont solve everything anyway.. but i do deserved a break from everything i did for others and passing all the tough works set by fate? just hope i could retrieve that.....

Ended the storytelling at -->10:08 PM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam