Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Is it right for me to be too kind?

Hi blog.. i dont know why i could said as the title i written.. lets talk about today what i have done.. wake up at 2pm.. use laptop till 5 pm.. go eat by myself at 888 plaza at 5 plus.. and play game till now.. thats what i did basically.. so back to the topic...

Why am i saying that? its actually to my small brother.. but basically.. also to many people.. its like.. well.. people out there should know.. there a psychology illness which actually caused people to be uneasy or desperate to be online when cant use the comp.. those are people who always used the comp and do nothing else.. well.. obviously i am a gamer.. but luckily i dont have.. but my brother do.. as i can see from today.. first.. people talk to him.. need to repeat so he could hear what you saying. not he deaf.. but he is unconcern about what happening when using comp.. then for today.. he actually every 20 minutes come in asked for the cable.. normally i was in wireless.. but i needed to download something fast.. i could used cable for to download somethings and he wasnt around.. so when he back.. i been disturbed for hours.. when i go out eat.. i told him not to use my laptop.. i will give back the cable to router when i done.. but the minutes i back.. i realized he is using.. and what more worse? he actually left the tv on all the while plus the fans at living rooms.. isnt that crazy.. i could see his face changed when i come back.. and again.. for the next few hours.. i been disturbed.. for everytime the tv programme in advertisement.. and he actually could scold me.. hey.. he been using for hours and hours for everyday.. and of course.. included my laptop.. and i dote him so much for nothing.. buy meal for him.. he buy meal just for himself.. thats what i also angry of.. tell him go out eat together.. he rather use the laptop and starve till death also dont want go out eat.. i guess.. its truly he got the mental illness.. and i was so kind hearted that i dont know want to forbid him play again anot.. he improved alot when i didnt let him play for long time.. but now.. he is more worse than last time.. how.. should i let or forbid? i was very confused.. and you could see from his blog.. he got his own problem too.. what should i do.. am i too kind? my big brother also know what actually going on.. but he didnt hesitated.. he said just forbid.. his exam coming on tuesday.. i didnt see him study either.. but at least homework he did.. haiz..

Why i always have to have all the burdens on my shoulder.. and whats worse is i cant put down.. am i fate to suffer all these.. relationships.. family problem.. personal stuffs.. i gonna gone berserk if all these continue.. is there people really understand what i am going through? what i need now is not advice.. its the understandng i need the most, even ears i could be grateful to it... is it going to happened? or its just a dream to me.....

Ended the storytelling at -->2:51 AM
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam