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Sunday, August 19, 2007

Its personal stuffs again!!

Hi blog.. today might not be a really good feeling blog.. haiz.. cause alot of stuffs happening recently.. which make me really scare.. my life could either change drastically or.. unhappy long period.. neither 1 is good.. i just really stress up.. haven stress for exam i am stressing for my own stuffs le.. how am i suppose to do....

Today didnt sleep at all till 8am.. cause studying.. but basically not studying at all.. playing.. then studied abit tired liao.. sianz.. then i go sleep.. after that derick, joseph, choon huat and lyesia came my house to play games.. of course.. leong still struggling with his studies at my room.. while we all playing like crazy.. after that we went for basketball although i strong reject.. cause my leg still haven recovered.. well.. although i played quite well.. i still injured again.. fall down couple of times due to player or environment.. haiz.. really getting a bad fate now... then went for our usual late night chit chat at park.. its lunar 7th.. but really not bothered by that... we finished our final conversation when joe mom called.. its 12am by that time.. so therefore the late post....

back to my life... now again its financial problem again... cause the house loan.. we still under payment and we are accumulating alot.. and i didnt even know that!! and now then my mom stressing me.. forcing me to call my dad.. which basically i cant... i just cant.. i at least want to leave a final impression to my dad i wont call him just for money.. but my mom just cant understand my feelings.. and yet i cant bear to see my mom dejected expression.. its like i being sandwiched.. and i really almost like.. argh... cause i though now the financial should be quite stable.. so i planned to pay a visit to my dad when i free then talk about money matters.. but now.. then know its the opposite.. and my exam are coming.. how am i suppose to do!!!

Ignore this Paragraph
Is money really that important in this world? It's just freak me out, no matter what is it. Anyway, nobody in this world really can experience what i facing. Yet i can know what they facing. Is it a good stuff? Or just a mere torture.... Can I have a friend who at least understand it first before tell me what to do... All these words just appeared in my mind, might not be true to you but its true to me. Please ignore this paragraph cause i am crazy for now.. dont worry i will be back with no failure....

I cared for others.. but who cared for me?? Fan Logging Off.....

Ended the storytelling at -->12:10 AM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam