Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Friday, November 03, 2006

Friends arent meant for me?

Friends.. seem to be a easy job for the rest to have it.. but seem to be a nearly mission impossible for me.. i have tried.. i have wear mask.. i did everyhing needed to get attention of people.. what i get was anguish and despair.. why always i have to suffer all these.. my friends today in the morning all ignored me.. i dont even know what i done wrong.. its like heaven just like to see me suffer.. the bad fate.. really horrible.. i cant bear it.. when my friends go in the lecture room without calling me up.. i decided.. i dont have any friends in school at all.. except siangyee.. i really have nothing.. i just went to library and have a good sleep.. till overslept i missed the lab too.. then i went hospital for blood test and went to causeway bought my earpiece and back home.. see? all alone.. just fate.. now.. after what i seen.. i really dont know what to do in school from today onward.. scare of going school.. how.. cant blame me for emotional.. as i have suffered all these for so many years.. starting from primary school.. which is pri4.. all i had is being bullied.. being abandon.. what else? its lucky i still have just barely few friends who supported me.. but to think of it.. even my small brother also can success in anything.. why the heaven just like to bully me.. even my small brother so evil.. always bully me.. and still i am the 1 who suffered.. am i such a easy target for bully? i just had enough all these.. though poly can change my life.. no.. i didnt.. and its repeat.. maybe i shall give me cooldown period.. make me decide during these 2 days.. glad those who came my blog.. even though just for fun.. they indeed showing concern.. grateful to have you all.. Fan signing off.....

Ended the storytelling at -->10:25 PM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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*_-_MY TRUSTED ONES_-_*

* _ - _ E V G _ - _ *
[==_ Joseph _==]
[==_ IYeu _==]
[==_ Siangyee _==]
[==_ KianWee _==]
[==_ HiuFeng _==]

* _ - _ C o l l e a g u e s _ - _ *
[==_ SiNi _==]
[==_ Justin _==]
[==_ Chariot _==]
[==_ Alan _==]
[==_ Alan2 _==]
[==_ Jack _==]
[==_ Janine _==]
[==_ Umairah _==]

* _ - _ Q i h u a _ - _ *
[==_ LiHui _==]
[==_ Aeris _==]
[==_ Tracy _==]
[==_ Genevieve _==]

* _ - _ T e m a s e k P o l y t e c h n i c _ - _*
[==_ Haikal _==]
[==_ Adriel _==]
[==_ Siti _==]

* _ - _ F a m i l i e s _ - _ *
[==_ MingYi (small bro) _==]
[==_ HweePing (Cousin) _==]
[==_ ShuLing (Cousin) _==]
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam