Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Days are really horrible..

HI blog.. ya.. here to complain again.. my life are getting more and more horrible... while..first is relationship.. second is work.. third is life!!... all crushing... oh my god... ok lets first say school work.. well thought 2 week plus holiday enough for me to relax.. thats not! i got 4 project going on!!.. and its tons of it!!! and of course the group i assigned.. its not the 1 i want!! oh my god.. i was forced to work with someone which i really dont like. his attitude... while if any of my classmate looking sure know i guess.. (but thats near 0%?) well.. but i will strive to make him change.. i must.. people with sort of characteristic. cant blame somene i dislike.. and i not perfect either but if can.. i dont wish to say him.. after all he is my classmate.. considered my friends.. een i know he dont.. i wont mind.. i know myself.. which is the second things i gonna say about.. relationship.. i dont know why.. no matter what i did.. i cant feel any of my existence acknowledge.. i really felt abandoned.. like today aircon lesson.. my group memeber again never come.. really not giving me respect.. ok thats alrigt.. then what? my friends all join other group as they said but i was left alone.. i doesnt mean its their fault.. but i just feel is it i not done enough? am i so bad that nobody like me? all always talk things behind me.. i really cant take it.. when abandoned.. thats a feeling which i just really scare of it.. no fear.. but... anyway nobody understand except me.. as i used to it.. but just cant accept.. i really very tired acting.. act funny also cannot.. dont talk more worse.. act normal being ignored... if they will to choose group memeber.. i surely the only 1 left out.. how.. how... third is life... my family have no money to pay my school fee.. is it a really bad decision to buy this laptop? i dont know at all.. i just very confused.. and i so useless.. cant even give a call to my dad.. it been long since the last met.. he has changed alot.. and i cant feel the kinship anymore.. even he still show abit care.. i hope to go find him but i way too busy.. now with finacial problem.. how... with all this stress. i really in a despaired situation.. really feel like sleep through all things.....

Ended the storytelling at -->8:26 PM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam