Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Not a giving up guy..

Well.. i had alot of consideration during the weekend.. cant sleep.. keep tossing.. and then.. i realized 1 little things.. arent me a not giving up guy? ya.. i do.. i faced such a bad fate and bad fight everyday in 8 years.. why i should give up? i was such a fool.. now then realize.. isnt it stupid? i know sometime see me said give up.. but those arent serious stuffs.. but if for serious things.. i am serious and give up wont be appear in my mind.. i just forgot my determination which brought me throught 8 years!! well.. i made up my mind.. actually its my principle.. never give up!! so why i give up? if i lose to fate.. then what for? for the struggling throughout 8 years.. why dont just end my life? haha.. its true anyway.. but well.. i made it this far.. no way i want to give up and thats at least is a respect to me.. as thats my principle.. the least i should obey already.. so wow.. i feel my heart lighten alot.. feel happy and feel that hope again.. thats what i always told myself.. never lose to fate even for 1 day.. and i almost accidentally lost myself.. but i lost 1.. which i brought myself up.. but totally forgot about my principle.. but thought of it during weekend.. now i ready for any trouble fate and prepared for me!! by the way.. my blog also is about determination.. i actually forgot.. haha.. well.. my true characteristic.. i tried.. and i found out... i really can caht alot do alot during online.. but in real life.. i am a quiet boy that dont willing to talk.. but for accomodation.. i talk to them.. willing to make up a conversation.. actually its so tiring for me.. but i ok with it.. as long i know my existence is in this way.. and i am happy.. at least its good to bring laughter for others.. well.. too consideration.. haha.. feel great now.. but stress too.. well.. tis homework.. tons of homework.. dammit.. well. about the homework i will say about it next time.. well everyone take care.. Fan signing off.....

Ended the storytelling at -->5:31 PM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam