Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Monday, January 01, 2007

Enlightment.. and Happy New Year!!

Well... maybe due to too emotional breakdown... i fall sick.. having fever and serious sore throat.. ya.. think of it.. i just really a fool... i dont know why... maybe i just mad.. or maybe the scenerio triggered my past... make me mad... i just got this same feeling in past.. maybe thats the case.. well.. not here to blame anyone but myself.. but i had really some serious thought well sickness... i really did tried to ignore everythings... but i cant.. dont feel like talking to my brother.. buts how hard i try... i still replied.. i just dont want him to be sad because i ignored him... to dote him i guess.. he my only brother after all even though he dont know me.. hope he grown up to be a real man.. thats all.. and for friends.. i really tried to give up.. but no matter how cold i am.. i act warm and friendly to my other friends.. its seem the importance of these relationship in my heart are way too importance that i cant give up anymore... ya... now i know.. if the world give up on me... as long as i dont give up myself.. then i still got hopes..thats the importance.. ya.. through 3 days then make me realize. ya ya.. really a fool.. i here to apologise to xiao_lusty or who ever is it... shouldnt blame you and shouldnt say you dont understand me. because i am the 1 who forbid people understand me in the first place.. i should be the 1 trigger relationship.. i hide my true emotion maybe because if they know. they wont be so friendly to me.. but actually thats my thinking to them.. people arent what i thinking right? my heart still support my feeling... and i should go along with my heart and soul.. maybe from this moment.. i tried to be my trueself.. acting wont give you the true realtionship as its fake in the first place.. ya really stupid me... its really funny that i down in moment realize in after a few days.. and after so much down and up.. then i now then realize... be brave and do what you want... ya thats the spirit.. saying to myself =X haha.. but 1 things is truth... i really a different person when in cyber world and real life.. thats what i think.. because i saying things which truly came from my heart during in cyber world... joking or anything... well in real life.. i being a joker as i wanted to act.. its not from my heart... so is it really i got 2 personality? while maybe thats make me special... really very sorry to everyone.. i been into so many up and down.. shouldnt be so wilful now... haha... here my apologise... but i cant confirm whether i will be down again and gone mad... i dont know about that.. but please understand.. maybe.. haha.....

Ended the storytelling at -->1:58 PM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam