Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Emotional triggered...

today and yesterday.. i stayed at home.. rust at home.. haha... finished my psychology online quiz.. and so.. thats the end of it.. feel tired struggling with the answer.. i can fall asleep when trying to read that super big sized book.. can show that i at my extend.. but luckily i still managed to get over it.. and rest.. so i rest for the rest of the day.. but suddenly want to online.. after watching "turn left turn right" a chinese romance movie.. its really a nice movie.. and its touched me..

Well can say me so girly or what.. but i am a sensitive emotional guy.. a feeler too.. i could actually feel what others thinking then its actually happened to me and i felt guilty for that.. even thought i shouldnt.. so back to the subject.. the touching story.. its make me felt somethings.. well in case you do not know what this movie about..

its a couple which in their life.. they keep pass their road with each other.. rubbing shoulder.. but still yet not met each other.. but actually they got their love story connected in their early days.. both in love at first sight.. but still lost contact.. when they met.. they lost contact again.. and they never met again since they met after 13 years.. so they tried to find each other.. but they cant.. and so.. what the end? of course.. they met.. after struggling.. tears... and after the earthquake.. they finally found out they actually just live next to each other.. and hugging was the last scene of the story..

Actually this movie was.. i think last year movie... but i didnt catch that but already heard is a nice movie.. so i finally see it.. and to apply that story to me.. did i actually have the same fate as them? having my fate one cross each other without seeing? i dont know and i think i might not have a fantasy like love story since my bad fated life.. but really do hope.. well u may say me inexperience in love.. but actually.. i always listen to my friend love story.. alot.. and actually i came to know what is it.. as i also a victim too.. a love in first sight.. and of course end up strangers relationship when i tried.. so.. but still.. i dont know who attracted me.. because my mind sometime always mixed up friendship and BGR.. which i really dont know which the truth.. who i love.. who i fall in love with.. so weird.. but well.. i told myself to be involved in BGR now.. i just want to concentrate on study.. i have regretted once in my life neglected my study.. this shall not be the 2nd time.. but actually to say.. i a coward.. in love.. i rather be the 1 being courted.. i know.. i am a guy.. but i not a opportunity grabber.. and girls are my archilles heel.. as i said before.. haiz.. maybe in the end i might end up finish my road of destiny alone.....

Ended the storytelling at -->11:46 PM
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam