Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Monday, September 17, 2007

Blogger me...

Hi blog... As usual, cant sleep already and so i blog. Kind of like a habit, good stuffs, bad stuffs, nonsenses, boring so on. But well, its saved me alot, alot of good to be exact. Glad someone created you and someone let me into you.

Actually, really cant sleep, when i am free. I tend to just anyhow think, like.. what should i do next? What should i need to improve? How to let others understand me more? Why i did this and that? etc... Kind of lame, no.. Kind of stupid.

I suddenly remembered when i wanna get friends...

I remembered that in past, when i was really young, i was really quiet, those starting already is my friends, dont know why they will in the first place, but yet i didnt see them anymore after we grow up. Guess when we grow up, they tend to find friends that worth for them unlike me...

Then in secondary school, being bullied, being laughed , the life that let me see how sad its goes on. I healed, with laughter thats not mine. Actually cause i think they dont like me because i too quiet to let them laugh or somethings. So i changed in secondary 3, i laugh, i talk more. Its turned out so good, i really know alot of friends although this tactic doesnt worked on all. Some still dont know why dont befriend me, but well... Didnt think about consequences, i matured earlier than others cause of my life, i start to think more yet others still in growing up in mentality. I start to get hurt, and i start to regret.

Ya ya, stupid isnt it. If I just stay quiet, lonely. A face of "dont talk to me" who will befriend me, i kind of like that way now actually. But i cant change the fact i been living that way for 6 years, its not like i can change now. Now whatever change i try to made, more friend will leave me, and more they think i just doing somethign stupid. haiz... Kind of sad life i living.

Dont worry, not i suddenly realized something or something bad happened. I just a person who just wanna type out what i think now. Hope you dont mind. Again write so many nonsenses, okay stop here. Fan Signing Off.....

Ended the storytelling at -->2:07 AM
I am just a Fool who want to make who I cared to be happy.
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam