Its true that I am not able to bring happiness to everyone but please do not deprive me from trying to make you HAPPY...............................................

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Dad I do concerned about you...

Hi blog,

This post should be posted on yesterday. But I was really too tired by all the bus trips and all the emotional crashes. Well, i met my dad yesterday, after he scolded me for not calling him for concern and visit him.

Its not that i dont want, but the distance and my school really that matters.. Yesterday while i was in study room. I am trying to study hard for today quiz and its obviously i was failed after that phone call. I was very scared at that moment. Its like going crazy, i feel like shouting in the study room but i restrained myself.

At 3 I went for my lecture keep telling myself dont show the sad sad face. But i guess i did it and i treat people abit coldly, cause i seriously cant shake off the fear. After school i dont even know what to do, then finally i decided to called up siangyee and asked him accompany me. Thanks goodness i got him. If not going crazy by all the thinking is sooner or later..

Took a 80 minutes bus trip to Bukit Merah. So tiring after the ride, i went to find him and saw a pale looking dad busy working. I felt hurt. Why he choose this path? I really still dont understand some adult for their way of living even after i become an adult myself. Talked to him and chatted awhile. He gave me some money and include 1.2k of cash for house loan. Good news for mom anyway.. He wanted to eat together with me, but i cant cause its really gonna be late and i still need to go home study. Plus siangyee still waiting for me, i cant just leave him there after all the accompanying.

But dont know why, i just felt a bitterness.. I know dad wanted to eat with me yet i rejected. I almost felt like crying when going back home. I just felt the feeling of my dad. Telepathy? I dont know, maybe just because of my sensitivity for emotion too high i guess. Lucky i didnt cried...

Maybe too emotional for today, i reached i barely read something and i fall asleep.. How about quiz? Please continue reading.....

Today
I felt so terrible, all after the quiz =X Cause didnt study and i did my study when i was playing -.- But well, not really that sad cause think can pass by marginal mark. Haha.. But what worse is when i coming to school, my skin was so terrible. I guess those beside me already discovered some odd movement i having. I am so uneasy that i showing my skin to others that i dont really feel like attending lesson. But no choice got quiz. I just dont know why i am so unlucky. Its was meant to be a study time but i totally disturbed by the irritating itchiness that i gave up. Finally all the itchiness stopped after my quiz -.- Those who see me today, i really want to apologise for having that.. For these few days i confirm cant have sport. Agreed to go badminton on friday cause dont want them to miss their last opportunity.

Please let my skin healed up at friday...

Fan Signing Off.....

Ended the storytelling at -->5:29 PM
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com

Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me

What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D

What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.

I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...

What i want...
*~~Be happy forever~~
*~~Have the N91 phone~~
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*~~A laptop~~
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*~~Friends that really care~~
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam