Haiz.. how long i never blog already? so long sia.. haiz.. reason is simple.. my schedules to use computer clashes to the time my big brother and small brother.. which mean i can use computer if i lucky.. and the worst is my luck is the worse thing i ever have in my life which is bad luck!! so of course i cant blog.. but still got other reason.. i was so busy... alot of thing coming up now.. like quiz.. works and what i scare most Oral Presentation!! oh my god... quiz is around i where got time... and main examination coming how i relax.. everyday so tired.. cant study too... haiz... i such a slacker.. if i was more organised i sure everything okay!! haiz.. too bad for me.. well.. today i just stay at library study till 3+ then go home.. so tired.. and stress.. but i happy that i finally learned my chapter 5 of emath.. haha.. i surely got potential sia.. never listen lecture plus tutorial.. never ask people just sleep.. and learn on myself so easy.. haha.. just joking.. anyway there still long way to go i still cant confirm yet.. but i dont want to study today anymore.. i want to play!! which i didnt play for nearly 1 week.. haha.. i a game freak so thats the reason.. haha.. really hope i got laptop so at least i got the freedom to online at anytime i like! and of course online too much surely make me bored and i will study... thats the main reason of it. of course my homeworks too.. all must be type-written which is the worst things as i cant use computer fast.. but luckily i a type fast.. if not i doom... haha.. well.. go play games.. hope can blog more.. haha.. er.. about the blogskin sorry blog.. i really dont have time to do for you.. i also promised my friends and i cant do it for him due to time constraint.. but i will try my best.. haha.. ok thats all.. sayonara.....
Ended the storytelling at -->5:07 PM
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I broke my highest record..
I broke my highest record!! whoa.. what i broke? i sleep 19 hours a day!! wow.. even though there is people who win me.. but to myself i never though i can sleep at home.. as i said before i can only sleep at school or other place just cant sleep at home.. so 19 hours is a really amazing.. haha.. this happened on saturday after my basketball game.. we played total 6 hours den go home have a shower then go kfc eat.. after that i went back home.. and i feel abit sleepy but i want to study.. but when i reach my bag.. i feel want to lie down.. so i lie down.. though something.. the next thing i know.. i sleep for 19 hours... is just amazing i sleep like a log without want to eat or go toilet..as usual is a dreamless sleep.. but 19 hours without dreaming what i was doing in that time? i dont know.. who knows anyway..
Today start school at 1 and i found out i had sunburn and my skins was peeling terrible.. as due to my skin condition.. my skin peeling was not normal.. is peeling off as bits.. and it so disgusting.. i really dont feel like going to school.. but i dont want to skip lesson(even though i sleep) i still thinking what to wear as to cover all the obvious part.. oh man.. am i that unlucky.. i dont usually have sunburn and its have sunburn in such a strange and disgusting way.. how am i gonna face people.. argh.. must think of a way.. i only have 1 and a half hour to solve it.. time running out.. so rush.. haha... well then.. bye bye.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:19 AM
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A very funny experience in my poly.. first time.. haha
Today is a very funny day..haha.. today i woke up at 6 am but then blur till 7+.. sit there do nothing.. haha so funny.. i always like this.. cant change anything about it.. then i have a quick wash up and went out.. i have try to go 2 hour earlier to reach achool as 969 always have traffic jam which take me at around 1++ near 2 hours to reach school so terrible.. too bad as i stay woodlands.. no choice... so i always the earliest in my class to reach school.. if i never reach earliest.. then is i late.. haha.. only 2 result.. as usual. thing went out of my planning.. i reach school without jamming!! oh my.. dont know should be grateful or what.. whatever.. i just went up.. i realize the light was on so i figured someone inside.. my first though was boon keong as he also 1 of the earliest in my class.... then i though of dennis as he last week came early as he scare cant finish his work.. so i though of this 2 people.. but i went in to see is jolin.. haha.. out of my answer.. as usual too.. haha.. we greeted each other.. she know i very good in this subject.. its like alot people know.. so always this lesson i am the 1 going around.. but today more funny and crazy.. as i settle down and wait.. oh forgot to say this lab all comps is the slowest comp i ever seen..open the auto cad programme just wait long long... haiz.. then dennis came in.. just nice i can start my work already.. he chen came in after a few mins..we started our 3-d work yesterday.. so today i was trying ot make hole for doors.. i actually anyhow do and it seem to be correct.. dennis sit behind me always call me go behind so i always got to turn a big round to reach him.. jolin just sit beside him.. so i keep running here and there.. haha i told him i still not very sure.. and dennis say he dont believe go see mine.. and deleted mine -.-.. wa lao.. treatening me to teach him.. no choice i teach him lor.. then he chen also keep pestering me as she sit just beside me.. what the.. haha.. i running everywhere.. when more poeple.. haiz.. when Mr Roy came in i shouted help me.. then he understood what i mean.. haha.. he a very nice and funny guy.. so i though here came my calm time.. but no... its more crazy as whole class was here.. oh my.. i running here and there!! great la.. my friends all enjoying me running here and there teaching them.. till laugh at me.. as got some occasion i run back already halfway called back again and my reaction was... diao.. and almost fall down.. so get my meaning? haha.. i cant touch my work at all sia.. luckily i still can finish.. quite miracle.. haha.. when i pack up still have to teach people.. so horrible.. when we going out i said to Mr Roy that i can replace him liao( in joking) haha.. then he say good -.- i sure die.. but then he added actually i did all that can have very high class participation or even higher as bonus marks.. i think so.. haha... but even i was being tortured i still very happy since i was prove to be useful.. haha.. even layteng asked me.. haha.. but area of people asking me getting bigger.. as usual is only my area now extending.. lol.. haha..
Here more funny.. when we went out.. we waiting for lift.. dennis jia jun jolin and stella them also waiting..then dennis jia jun and jolin went in..but inside already got people.. so i figured stella them cant went in.. but i want to went in.. but he chen pulled me away!! by draging my bag off my shoulder -.-.. what the.. and say dont go in la... i tried again and she still pull.. and inside all laughing and outside stella them laughing too... what the.. and lift close after dennis them laugh and say cya.. and i was pulled around... what the.. i was being laughed like siao.. haha.. so then i finally give up waiting lift i tell them lets walk down lift.. haha.. so funny.. then i catch up with dennis them and we walk till the staircase.. then i heard jiajun want to go mensa again.. lol.. he keep only suggest that place.. i feel damn hot so i suggest go IT.. then dennis laugh at jiajun by saying "you see mensa? got seat?" then we say business eat, he repeat in the same words except the location, IT and design we also say.. then he say lets go back engineering after we walk out that school haha.. so funny.. then meet stella and yvonne.. i told them what happening..they also laugh haha.. then i notice dennis and jia jun walking to design school... then i puzzled.. lol so i shout to them where they goes.. then they said go design school.. so we go lor.. but stella and yvonne stand there they also going design school.. i saw jolin and hechen going with dennis in same way.. i stand there blur.. dont know go which way as got 2 way to go.. then stella say this way faster.. so i go lor.. they actually going to the jupiter cafe to eat.. so i chat awhile before join dennis them.. haha.. but then the queues was damn long.. i dont know what to eat.. but i queued the chinese cooked food as i dont want to eat western food.. i eat till sick le.. i work as western food cooker lehz.. haha... dennis join me.. then he say what to eat ahz.. i say i eating chinese food lor.. then he say "i all count on you le..when queue finishing call me." what the.. actually we seated separately.. i sit with jolin and hechen.. then jolin and he chen queue with me.. i was called shifu which mean master.. as i teach them cads ma.. haiz.. i not that good as when my test i lousy.. i can only perform during normal lesson.. haha.. but its he chen and jolin call me that only.. so funny.. then dennis join back when queue is halfway.. then here very funny.. as we talking while queueing.. then dennis blamed me i make wrong door for him but i do it correctly ofr myself.. then i explained it as i wasnt that confirm at that time.. haha.. then when his turn he suddenly shouted pork! when he were asked choose his foods.. LOL.. we say why so fierce!! lol.. so funny... the auntie laugh also.. dennis so embarassed but still say he didnt fierce what. haha.. so funny.. dennis tio embarassed again.. so sad for him.. and i still use that as topic to laugh at dennis during the whole day.. haha.. but that joke only i and jolin them know haha..
So today was really a fun day.. haha.. i sure remember this.. oh my god.. i forgot to do my work!! hmm.. i guess got to rush at tomorrow.. haha.. see ya.....
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FUCK UP LA!!! i write finish my post liao.. just wanna type dots on it before post its got error and close down!!! you know how frustrated i am?? i now damn angry that i cant write anything more la.. wa lao.. cant control my emotion now.. am i that unlucky that everything i do sure gose wrong.. even blog???? is that god so unfair to me!!! waaa... self-control!! i not really want to criticise about these things... but its just always like this.. impossible every little thing i do just goes wrong way!! is this just a retribution?? i know i am wrong to say all these.. but i really damn angry now.. i blog so nice and long of course.. but doesnt always have to hanged just when i going to type last letter!!! its always like this.. this trivial matter is ok but its just came in so many.. i really cant take it at all!!! i not a superstitious person but all those things happen to me just force me to.. anything i do go wrong way nobody will understand it.. trivial things also can goes wrong.. i already no mood to express happness anymore!! frustrating already.. why must it like this!?! why????? live in this kind of life already the worse nightmare and i still need to face unlucky!! what i want is to type what happened to me and have it as memories so i can read it again next time and i dont even have the right to do it? my life suck!! way too suck!! nobody will understand it.. believe me.. i was known as black cat or jinx in case you all dont know as all my friends know how pathetic i am..(except poly friends dont know about this)
Never mind.. just ignore my frustration above.. dont give comment on that frustration as its just my personal stuffs.. now really not in the mood to type again the happy stuff.. its all gone!! but i still can make short summary about it just a damn short 1 because no mood already..
I organised a small friends gathering by watching movie together.. 8 people in total cant have large amount watch movie as its pointless as we wont talk so much during movie.. then instead only my friends.. its turn out there still another group of my old sec 1 classmates which derick and chee leong know them.. as we 3 was express class in sec 1 except derick who luckily pass english.. i failed dropped at sec2 and leong who dropped at sec3.. so we were not that close to those friends since i was bullied by them before.. but i still smile at them as i didnt held grudges to them... then i saw my sec 5 friend with them.. xueqi.. the only girl which i didnt expect she will hang out with them maybe her boyfriend is within it and i dont know.. so we went supper later and went home.. but before having supper.. a traffic accident happened at the traffic light which near my house as we going 888 plaza.. quite hard to figure out.. but its was seem 2 car rammed each other both have serious dented and crashed.. so impact was very big.. but what make me more amazed is the traffic light.. the damages was big too.. the light which indicated the green mad and red man dropped of... and its damaged hang on there.. but what's more? the green yellow red light which hanged over the road was damaged too and still hanging.. but the pole doesnt have any damages.. so its was so funny.. so if anyone one know about this accident by news tomorrow please tell me the details.....
Repeat again, ignore the first part of blog as its was my frustration and own personal stuff.. so i wont accept any comment on it. thanks alot.
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NO chance to use computer!!
SO sad.. i dont even have the chance to use computer for a week.. all because of timing.. whenever i went home.. so nice my big bro also and thatscontinue for a week!!.. isnt that amzing.. i didnt touch my project at all!! also no chance for playing game.. wa.. my whole week was just damn bored!! if you want me summarize.. BORED!! lol.. now finally can use.. of course no chance to waste just hope my bro just dont come back now.. after 5 hours le then come back then good.. haha.. actually today got a damn funny stuff happened.. my classmates he forced me to eat!!! LOL... first time.. because i was with dennis, jiajun,jolin,hechen and mok.. mok is my project team leader.. as we found seat.. i said i help them watch over the bags.. then when they back they asked me why dont eat i didnt give reason.. as i got to save.. but then you know mok say what? he tell me to go eat if not he rather dont do the project all get 0 mark!!! waaa!! powerful leader.. no choice got to go eat.. he still want to treat me.. seem like he know.. but of course i reject the offer and use my own money to eat.. even though so sad got to spend money.. but then i grateful that they tried to help me at least.. but still i must save money.. so just hope eat less and save more.. serve as diet too haha.. must everyday dont eat really suffering for me.. but then i sure try.. haha.. gonna watch movie with my ex-classmates as i promised 1 of them that i watch with him.. he wanna to watch and want me to go too.. so no choice i go with them lor.. i watching on this coming thursday.. then so coincidence.. stella sent message to me want me go watch with them.. consist nick and some other people.. i told her the planning.. she told me watch 2 times.. i already got to save money.. watch 2 time i sure faint.. so i reject and said sorry.. but then i feel bad about it.. so i tell them watch with me and my group.. haha she agree to it.. so this thursday we have a big group watch movie together.. haha.. movie is the pirates of the carribeans the dead man chest.. haha.. its a nice movie as i watch the first part.. really like it.. haha.. but i got a worry le.. as i haven told them my real plan actually dont know they willing anot.. but think joseph them is ok with it.. haha.. so thats all for today.. must rush my project now.. haha.. hope tomorrow still can use computer..haha.. so long.....
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Am i fated to have only bad things happening on me?
why a happily stuff always turn out to bad things.. is it i a jinx? i really dont know.. even though the stuffs wasnt the worst.. it still a nightmares i want to wake up as soon as possible.. as my mom and my cousin was shareholder.. she was 1 of the boss.. actually we all planned out that if she do this.. in 4 years we will able to clear the house montly insallment fee, support me whatever i need.. and support me to graduation.. and i was able to work there to earn more allowance.. so everything so fine but just for 1 month.. things happening(is family affair which i wanted to keep it as secret) so everything we worked for all went down to drain.. and i finally quited.. as my scheldues was cut to supreme short which i think it a waste of time work.. as something happened.. my cousin hired 2 more workers now no more my space.. i was though working with family have flaxible time.. whenever i can go i go.. but instead.. i was keep told not to come when i was free... on when they in trouble.. they need me i am busy!!. its not fair and i was blamed for that.. i dont know how many time said let me work.. and they only allowed me work few days a week.. but still ok as i still can buyt what i want as mom still earning.. but now.. not anymore.. we resume to financial crisis again... and my dreams were shattered..i was really devastated.. so i decided to quit when my scheldules became fixed.. it pointless.. so tomorrow it my last day working there.. as i was so troubled.. reeve know about it.. insisted on taking a stroll with me..i was very grateful.. as i hate home.. i rather sleep at friends house than sleeping on my own beds.. i cant have a wink at all for most of the time.. now i gonna have to save alot to buy at least a laptop for me.. i also start jogging everyday with siangyee in the morning.. thats the reason for late cause of no time... as jog finished already 7+ i reach school at least needed 1hour and 15-30mins.. its so horrible.. and when jog finish got to prepare which also takes time.. which means its a confirm i will late.. really hope there is a extend to the grace of late of 30 mins instead 15.. or at least 20-25.. i will be grateful.. so my days wasnt going to smooth unless i dead?i realy scare of it... really hope i can really have my smooth plan everytime.. really hope so.....
Life time
Do you ever have dreams which really happened in near future? To me i have.. and its more like a prediction rather than dreams because its happened exactly! Actually 100% almost 92% i have dreamless sleep and its true.. i got count it.. and 5% or more is a damn short nightmares about falling.. then i will wake up.. like falling down step of stairs and wake up.. sometime scary sometime not.. and the rest of the 3% or less? its my so called 'prediction" dreams.. all is true.. for example whe i was sec 1 i actually dreamt about celerbarting my birthday with jonathon and chen wei them.. even though i dont know them at that time! and its really happened at sec 2 when i dropped to normal academic.. i was shocked when they said wanna have birthday party for me.. as actually remembered their face during the dream.. if you want another example.. this 1 more spooky to me.. i actually dreamt about my poly classmates!! i dreamt about having lunch with stranger during my sec 5 days.. and i realize the scenery when its happened and realized my 'prediction' came true again.. fully the same..!!.. isnt that spooky.. i still got alot small small stuffs which keep happening and i dreamt about its.. but i still have inaccurate time.. which i was relieved instead.. why? dont you think know future is a spooky things? if 1 day you dreamt how you dead what going to be happened.. the % of its came true is near 95% you know!! who will happy!! if i got choice i rather dont want.. it way too scary.. i dont mind share this as i want to know who still got this problem.. at least of common 'trait'.. haha.. i recently dreamt a girl which i fall in love in first sight during primary school till sec 2 which i was rejected and give up on relationship that on.. i dreamt seeing her in the bus which i sit infront of the card reader which she got trouble tapping i helped her and she remembered me.. and i awoke.. do you think i should hope its appear or not.. i a freak you know.. girls avoiding me.. if its true maybe run away? i will be more sad you know? anyway its a mystery... its my first time dreamt about girl i fall in love.. so its not very accurate for now.. so leave it to my 'prediction'.. haha
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Oh man.. i really dont know why sleeping just suddenly came back.. i was sleeping through the whole day!! oh mine..is it because the yesterday incident which cause me having that habit.. really dont want it from happening.. my studies are deteriorated.. its just too sad.. but at least i manage to forgot about the incident in school which might make me depressed.. i happily live as normally at school.. having fun, help my classmates and joke!! haha.. there was 1 craps i talk about is when my BSOM teacher talk to us about the house power socket and circuit stuff.. its about 2 way circuit which you may control the light at different location.. then i said why dont just make clapping to open and close.. but then dennis added if we watch soccer then GOAL!! clap clap clap!! then the light on off like crazily and boom!! haha.. i was actually wanted to say that.. damn funny la.. dennis is really a funny and nice guy.. hope can know more about him and can stick more close friend.. anyway his age and mine are the same.. haha.. but he so tall and have matured face.. so envy.. when will i grow taller and handsome? did i look handsome now? i also dont know.. freak.. who knows? haha.. we still talk about alot but i wouldnt say so much haha.. i was truely awaked by BSOM teacher thats why got those jokes.. after school met siangyee.. wa kao.. its pays to be kind.. help him open his bottled drink never though that he go shake it so hard that the coke just burst out and spilled over me when i managed to open!! wa lao.. i just want to give a helping hand the caps really very tight.. but.. i so embarrassed.. hope no1 see i being played a prank on me.. haha.. saw layteng at the bus stop i go ahead greeted her.. actually i dont dare.. but i really want to test out whether am i a freak? so when i chat with her just awhile.. i try to see for any facial expression.. but i really cant make out she keep smiling.. she quite friendly.. quite funny too.. i not so sure about that i dont know her alot.. haha.. really dont know the rest of the class.. hope can get to know more about them..also another funny is when we alighting from 69.. as its a double decker.. we went up so we got to climb down.. when we climbing down the stairs.. i accidentally stepped on siangyee.. not his shoes.. its his bag!!! haha.. he jammed there awhile and forcefully walk away as i just realized it.. haha.. he didnt like give any emotions or action.. came down liao i just laugh.. damn funny lor.. his turn to be embarrassed lol.. haha.. so funny.. friends are really so good.. they cant bring laughter.. but they also bring distress.. who knows.. especially they dont know the true side of you.. its my own experience.. and i know it.. until now.. i dont even have a buddy.. and not because of my high expectation.. my expectaion for buddy really damn low le.. just wanted it to hav the basic of true friendship like no abandoning... its so simple but until now nobody does it.. i got do it for my friends but will they? its always a predicted move to me.. i understand my friends truely.. but they dont.. not i hide it.. its they never discover.. so i just try everyway to stick with them.. so friendship will remain.. i really scared of that.. especially when during my depressed period.. think you guys know it.. and especially recently.. dont think about it again le.. so just haha.. laugh through it live it well!!^^
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Am i a freak to everyone? to be honest.. i really dont know.. now then i realized that people around most are just a hyprocites.. they friendly in outside but in heart they think different..why bad stuff just happen to me? i change my look.. my characteristic my habit.. so that i can have new life i desired.. and what i get.. if not because dennis and jia jun.. i might be a living zombie in school.. they treat me well.. joke with me and talk with me what i interested.. and thats really true.. what others.. just serve as human staying around me.. so that i feel alive there.. this fact really strike me hard when my old classmate did something to me.. its really let me realize what hyprocites really are in real life.. even though she not the worst.. but its just too.. argh dont really what to say..
As after bid farewell with dennis after i, jiajun and him have our dinner.. 69 came.. when i going to went up.. i saw her.. but as we stand too far apart i cant greet her.. so i sit infront.. inside the bus.. then she aboard.. i wanna greet her.. but she sit the first seat of the bus.. but its vertical.. so i sure she can see me.. i wanted just wave hand.. but she didnt saw me.. first i though its the crowd blocked her.. but when crowd dispersing.. i saw her eyes looking at me le.. but i was studying.. but as my eyesight was quite special.. instead of look far.. i can look in wider area.. thats why i can saw her eyes while i reading my books.. first i though she dunwan to shout across.. so i try to wait bus reach interchange.. and when i want to walk up.. she suddenly alight so fast and walk so fast.. i really shocked.. she DID saw me.. i can confirm.. ok.. but i think again.. she might really never saw me.. ok i try to catch up.. but then a man extra block between me and her.. i wanted to greet her de.. but to what i see? she actually purposely use her hand and block!! oh my god.. ok.. i try to push that off as its her habit while waiting by standing.. okok.. so when she start walking toward the bus as bus arrive.. there a turn.. i can see her when we trun around.. she still covering.. i really astonised.. ok.. i try not to think so much.. so i wait till i aboard the bus.. i saw her stand at a corner of the standing area.. i walking toward her.. she suddenly turn away when i going to near and greet... oh my god... i cant really push that thing away le.. i really very astonised.. she was so friendly and so sudden... oh my god.. ok.. i stand near her.. as she have her back facing me.. i really very sad about her doing that.. when i dropped my book she did look at me.. and turn back quickly due to my wide eyes sight.. i saw it.. ok.. i call ignatius.. its also got her attention.. so after so much confirm.. its already a truth that she purposely.. she so friendly.. and when at secondary school.. she did talk to me when i was alone standing at a staircase that in deep thinking.. and also have sometime helped me.. i dont know why she now.. did she do that just infront of her friends.. or what.. and she got down without even looking and just to avoid.. she really dont know that when i reading books i still can look around.. now grateful of having this abilties.. which make me aware more stuff...
Ok.. after what i changed to get rid weaknesses in the past like.. having dull look.. sleepy face.. keep sleeping, talk aloud and inmatured face.. what i get is this.. juat a few few people actually complimented about the new look.. but what about the rest.. i really hate now.. did i came to the right place.. is hyprocites it what it look.. she still freindly when i chat with her in msn.. just act?
Ok this what i want to tell everyone who seeing my blog.. if you hate me.. just say it.. i really dont like hyprocites and its really make me sick of it now.. just hate me and avoid me.. at least i know.. i can change.. or at least i try to avoid you so that you no need to avoid me so troublesome.. anyway i used to benefit others rather than myself.. i dont want people tired of avoiding me.. i avoid them will helped.. i wont be sad or what.. and for her.. i just hope wont see her forever again so she wont have to act like that..even though i keep hope meet someone for example her in bus so got accompany.. now no need le.. i really wont hope for that anymore.. so just behave normally Ying... so everyone get that? thanks alot.. anyway i just a freak now.....
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Argh.. cant concentrate..
today really tired.. i slept at 5 yesterday.. want know why? my brother went to hongkong.. so i choose to sleep as his room.. got aircon.. sure happy.. haha..and what time i wake up.. near 2pm.. wow.. thats just crazy.. i got alot of things to do and i said i must get it all done.. but what i doing? playing.. still got what.. and a irritating stuff just going round.. like small brother.. emotions... blah blah blah.. so tired already... cant i just have a relax and peaceful day.. not even 1 i had it at home.. as long as my small brother around.. i doom at that day.. for example he just deleted my project for nothing.. i was damn angry he just apologise like its a small matter.. it BIG to me!! i spent so long to do it in many section and all gone.. and i spent whole day to complete.. this just what.. if you had a irritating brother or sister.. i guess mine the worst case.. mind change if you think yours worse than mine? mine is a gangster anyway.. i rather change it.. so doom everyday.. just a joke.. who know he matured suddenly.. so life goes on.. and now am i doing? homework lor.. so stress... i didnt even get organised yet.. so messy.. maybe should set schedules.. way too messy.. anyway.. now struglling.. just hope can finish.. damn.. want to play game liao... argh.. must endure.. haha...
Life Time
Life is so complicated.. why does people say 1 things but do another instead.. is this just human basic characteristic? i a person that say 1 thing do 1 things.. but for things which is personal or just for me.. i just wont success... just dont know the reason.. said want to study.. what i doing? idling and play games.. thats great... just what am i doing.. i can do what i say for others.. by why doesnt it applied to me.. its just so strange.. am i a person who rather help people than helping myself.. i not sure about that.. human just a complicated creature.. we look like we know what we want.. but we actually changed our mind in last mins.. and thats why.. i always cant do decision its seem to be a weakness.. cant make a straight decision and want to think here think that.. its good that i want to make sure the decision is correct.. but i just think too much.. even for small decision.. thats just waste time.. does anyone encounter this? actually this mean we leader type.. if we will being commanded.. we will be more useful.. command people? doomday.. how to curb this problem? train.. thats all.. try to think more faster and make decision faster.. and then it shorten your time of thinking so that its wont happen.. for me its does work sometime.. but... hmm.. training make perfect =X haha
So thats all for today.. got to rush project so bye bye.....
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com
Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me
What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D
What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.
I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...
What i want...
*Be happy forever
*Have the N91 phone
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*A laptop
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*Friends that really care
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam