Hi blog.. this post was meant for yesterday.. but i was too tired to blog.. after basketball.. was totally tired.. dont know why.. so slept early.. and wake up late today.. strange.. anyway.. yesterday was a totally bad day for me...
Yesterday.. as usual.. go school on time.. i mean 1 hour early then the lesson time.. went to canteen improvise on the script.. and then.. the next is 5 hours of lesson.. and break time.. skipped my lunch as i dont feel like eating then went to library get key for the study room.. and i went there slack.. as promised.. i need to help my friends Layteng draw some designs.. which i think i cant do it.. hoping she never come actually.. but she came.. with another classmate Yvonne.. so 3 people in study room. crappy. lol.. and they talk while i draw.. so freak.. when i drawing.. i cant control my flow smoothly.. i mean i cant draw well.. my hand keep out of the line.. haiz.. shouldnt dropped my drawing after all.. i like drawing but time doesnt allowed.. or mood.. well.. but actually i never know they talked to me so much.. i mean i dont really remember talking to them in past.. i mean awhile only.. wont be chatting.. and they arent that close to me either.. so actually hard to believe that we in the same small room chatting and laughing.. i didnt finished the drawing.. but they said i draw well.. which basically was 1 of the worst i drawing i made.. but since they say nice.. at least i know my standard arent that low yet.. guess i know what to do with the next blogskin.. draw it out myself.. not sure can do it anot..
when they leave.. left me alone again.. and the 1 hour i was practising the script.. its was the first time i did without powerpoint.. so actually i scared.. my friends all say i can do it.. but i think i can.. maybe.. but its new environment.. i mean jap class.. only 1 familiar face.. other are new.. and when time up.. i went to there.. awhile then my turn.. i didnt believed.. so fast.. and i wasnt that mind prepared.. and i really make a mess of it.. its turned out to be the worse presentation i made.. i mean others.. you can see how well or bad.. just by looking.. i think i made the worst presentor of all.. hand was shaking badly.. reading from paper and messed up the order.. i was so freak!! i really made a fool out there.. and i was totally depressed... because i disappointed myself.. just no powerpoint i cant do it already.. how i gonna be. when i grow up.. haiz..
Of course depressed when going home too.. though when in japanese lecture.. got the he cheng joke around.. actually lighten up my day.. but when i alone again.. the memories of me presenting badly appeared again.. i was totally shaken up again.. and what made more worse is my earpieces spoilt so suddenly.. i cant even listen music peacefully.. my mind was in total chaos.. finally i struggle back to causeway.. went to buy the earpiece.. saw the brand i always buy.. but i no money now.. then i saw another 1.. retractable too of course.. but i wanted those that can retract totally ones.. so i asked the person.. he not sure -.-.. then i look at the box.. he say maybe.. then i bought it.. and its not -.-.. but oh well.. since i bought it.. those know me sure know i wont go back and change.. cause i hate troublesome stuffs.. so never mind.. just hope this can last long too.. haiz.. so sad now.. money gone.. impression to others suck.. anyway totally bad day..
Phone rang after i went out of the shop.. this was before i been fake about the information of the earpiece.. as i just bought the earpiece.. haven even look how its like.. and i holding laptop.. so i was in total hand full scenario.. so its took me awhile then pick up.. lol.. basketball.. is what i heard.. because my small brother went for birthday party.. so no one at home.. tell me to go home give them ball.. and tell me join them.. so i joined them.. but the clothes i wearing actually dragged down my performance.. suck again of course.. but snatching balls and assist is what i did well.. so basically okay for me.. and i went home for my pathetic dinner.. and sleep....
Today.. as i said.. wake up late.. then my small brother Yi.. haven come back.. then my big brother decided to call macdonald delivery.. Notes.. remember to check what they give you.. as they never give us fries.. lol.. my brother got once.. so he asked me got check anot.. i never.. then really tio "scammed".. lol... i really bad luck lol.. never mind la.. just call them again lor.. haha.. then took quite awhile they came back to give us hot fries.. well.. its good.. at least not soggy at all.. so now here i blogging.. gonna study now.. actually today planned to go Woodlands Regional Library.. but i wake up late.. so i never tell siangyee.. lol.. so gonna study now.. hope will be success.. as home for me not a study place after all.. okay.. long post again.. thats all.. Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->6:32 PM
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Hi blog.. today was a slack day after all.. except the last lesson.. said during the previous post.. haiz.. what teacher teach.. totally dont understand.. yet i read on my own.. understood.. haiz.. never mind.. i get back my quiz.. Full Mark!! lol.. so even a person like me never attend lectures.. cant get full mark.. others that attend.. never get.. means what? the standard of the teaching =D.. lol.. okay thats over.. haha.. no la of course.. i mean what i typed.. the mark i get is what i earned.. for being clever okay? not the teacher's fault that others cant get full mark.. its just i got abit lucky only.. haha.. anyway. copying the answer on the board damn tired.. so long never copy so long liao.. haiz.. the type of handwriting style i used was unique.. yet was so painful.. hope to change. but well.. a style used since 4.. hard to change.. well.. got to learn how to relax when writing.. maybe..
After the lesson go free access lab.. print things with siangyee.. lol.. why we do so? cause of him lor.. in the morning we came school early.. then we went to printing shop print notes.. then he so rush and inpatient.. keep press and press... in the end the machine spoilt.. then aunties said we input too much commands.. lol.. then he press.. he go print 49 pages -.-.. its should be 6 slides per page.. he go make 1 slide per page.. dots.. lol.. then still got alot extra.. in the end.. we got lots of useless paper.. so we decided to use it.. the other side is empty.. so we go free access lab print the notes we haven print yet.. in the end we make a mess.. stupid printer.. keep jam on me.. i use other lab de dont have problem wor.. still can help qiaofeng.. haiz.. then inks on our fingers.. lol..
Anyway after alot of things.. we finally finish our printing.. and we left for dinner.. and i dont know what came over me.. i ordered food till $4!! a huge mountain.. lol.. uncles all dont believe i can eat finish.. of course i also thought i siao liao.. why go order so many.. then keep regret.. but of course finish it.. also drink the "Whatever".. basically.. its suck.. lol.. taste like 1 drink which i dont know how to say.. yet the colour totally different.. then taste abit weird too.. lol.. heard the "Anything" also not good either.. i wonder who create the drink.. its stupid.. though the commercial made a scenes in town.. alot people talking about.. but the products i think cant make it.. sooner or later guess will drop de.. maybe.. need to drink 1 more time to confirm =D..
The trip back home.. first by 69.. there are 2 girls ahz.. dont know why sia.. when trying to board the bus.. keep push me de -.-.. i not really comfortable with contacts with girls yet.. so i keep trying to move faster.. then when in bus.. after few stops.. got seats.. 2 seats actually separated.. wanted siangyee to sit and i sit de.. then his hearing ahz.. haiz.. no comments.. those who close with him should know.. anyway.. then i saw 1 guy.. looking at the seat i wanted to take.. then i think.. he wanted the seat.. so i let him.. since his girlfriend infront.. lol.. good man wor me.. then another seat.. which siangyee missed.. i wanted to take.. then the girl i mentioned above.. she moved in.. then i thought she wanted.. as i actually just want to reduce space.. so take seat.. but she did otherwise.. she dont sit down.. and she stand.. beside the chair.. guarding -.-.. i beside her.. okay.. she look pretty.. but doesnt mean she can do this ma.. aiyo.. more worse.. she think i can be pass through is it.. keep have a her head almost knocked onto me.. keep bend her back.. dont know why sia.. i need to keep the space between me and her that i also need to bend.. -.-.. poor me.. luckily.. the trip in 969 nothing much.. we thought no seats.. then i grabbed the first seats of the bus.. hehe.. lol.. reach home liao.. been slacking till now then start blog de...
Actually.. was wondering.. whether i always help people.. does i did the help.. or just increase the burden.. i also dont know.. like now.. a classmate wanted me help her on her drawing.. okay.. first my drawing is not bad.. but not for fashion yet.. and second.. i so long never touch drawing pencils.. i mean i wanna draw.. but no time.. or maybe no mood.. haiz.. i like drawing.. but hate art.. so i was wondering.. i promised her i try help her.. but can i? i scare i make people disappointed again...
Mingfan.. have confidence.. your art is 1 of your hidden potential or sides.. so show others what you can do.. yup.. should have this kind of thinking.. haha.. anyway just tell me.. am i always right to help people? dont know about that.. okay.. this post is way too long for just 1 day story.. sorry for the viewers.. if you managed to read it here.. please say.. i will really thanks you for so supportive.. thank you!! Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->11:49 PM
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Hi blog.. dont know how to describe today.. since its almost the same.. unless something special.. so well.. of course.. sleep long again.. but quite early wake up.. i guess.. at 1pm.. =X lol.. considered early for me.. haha.. anyway.. was trying to do my work.. but was totally distracted all the way.. dont know how to settle down.. then i go cook lunch for my brother.. lol.. then eat liao come back do my presentation.. still in distraction.. haiz.. totally cant concentrate... keep walk around.. go out see what my brother play, listen music, write liao erase.. etc.. haiz.. finished it around 9.. dont know what i dont know what i doing sia.. a work which took me 1 hour can took me 8 hours to finish.. haiz.. why am i such a time wasting boy..
After the assignment.. i updated my photo blog.. go visit too!! at my links there.. haha.. was boring.. tomorrow start school again.. haiz.. gonna be a boring day again.. with the EAUD lab served as last lesson.. sickening teachers dont know how to teach.. yet blame us for not being a good student.. i know.. for the class i in now.. the attitude really bad.. yet.. we arent stupid.. at least even for me.. sleeping king.. i still learnt.. they got listen they also cant understand.. i also cant.. can show how the teacher standards.. because i cant understand!! i was a quick learner (not said by me, but by teachers) and a intelligent student (which result shows the opposite).. so if a quick learner cant understand.. needless to say other people.. so not my fault for saying the EAUD teachers.. haiz...
I wanna ask.. is there anyone having troubles to tag on my tagboard? my tagboard having problems.. its need to be refresh then will appear.. so not i dont have... but actually.. dont know is got people visit my blog or not.. unlike others.. i dont know why my blogs are so unpopular.. yet i keep visit other people blogs.. poor me.. anyway thats not the main motive for me to blog.. so no matter what you will still see me posting.. thanks for coming.. if you are reading.. Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->12:23 AM
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Hi blog.. today well.. sleep long.. and play long.. haha.. well.. the most exciting thing i did today is basketball.. haha.. well.. long time never play indeed.. my stamina dropping.. skill dropping.. but yet.. i still play well.. so congrat me.. haha.. well.. not really good now.. 1 night playing.. 2 days suffering.. i mean my skin.. haiz..
i am bornt with this.. and i used to it.. yet.. i still dont like it.. i mean.. i wasnt born to be fat.. i am kind of restrained and turn to fat.. cant blame me if i wasnt allowed to exercise due to health.. i am a weak person after all.. in heart or in body.. so who else to blame? guess that just my luck.. right? well.. i never really let myself be fat after all.. i still exercise.. i stil play... i still sweat.. cause i never want to be controlled by Fate when i can control it.. but well.. consequences is there.. i ready to face it.. so.. well.. a weird boy after all.. lol...
Well.. now keep play.. later then study.. dont know i will remember anot... was scared history repeat.. like sleeping in exam.. slack in study.. thought i keep pass.. but not with what i can do.. is only the minimum effort i put in.. i just barely scrap through using my intelligence.. and luck.. but i hope i could change all those. so i gonna.. well.. chiong.. so hope i will do it.. wish me luck.. haha.. okay stop here.. Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->1:29 AM
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Hi blog.. today.. another long sleep again.. i guess i really know the reason why i been called the sleeping king when i always sleep so less... because i sleep most of the time when shouldnt be the sleeping time.. lol.. so thats the reason.. but when mind, body tired.. really only sleeping can let you reenergised and chiong again.. lol.. i mean charge.. haha anyway.. yup.. i am back to chiong the problem again.. first deal with the priority first.. the Term Test.. after that.. money problem.. which i gonna work like hell and study like shit.. of course.. play will be there.. anyway i must have the deteremination to start work.. haiz... just hope this time the deteremination is for good.. and not for temporary.. yup.. need helps from you all too.. assists me not with money.. but hope to have your understanding.. help me whatever you can i already very appreciated.. like show concern.. Tag on my tagboard!! somethings like that.. haha.. thanks alot for visiting.. Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->5:41 PM
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Stress.... Neglected problems..
Hi blog.. so tired now.. i slept for 16 hours for today.. because was really tired.. the moments when my eyes are open.. lots of things go throught my minds.. lots and lots of problems.. i cant always think.. so sleep really can let me rest my mind at least.. but no matter what.. i shouldnt like this.. because.. the problems still there.. and i need to solve it after all.. and now.. the real and serious problem occurs.. why should i always did the wrong and realized it late....
Today only sleep for long.. and play for long.. friends called me go play basketball.. and yet i dont want.. very tired.. but i keep reject due to some reasons.. yet i know.. speak the truth and not.. still the same.. so rather i lie a better reason.. some reasons arent meant for others to know..
My mom back.. she back with a letter.. From tp.. a letter of school fee.. what i scare.. came.. and yet my mom dont allow me work.. and now expect me to do something for the fees... why what i said.. my mom dont think about it.. just listen to relatives.. what the use.. okay.. to be truth.. people should just use its intelligence.. and not just follow principles.. according to our situation.. still.. tell me call my dad.. i could use a financial aids.. but mom dont want.. i could have a bank loan.. mom dont want.. i want go work.. mom dont let.. i always respect her choices.. but this time.. i really think its hard.. dammit.. i really need to think about this.. yet.. time is up soon.. for the Term test to come.. i am so stress that i dont know how liao..
Will time heal or even solve my problems? good question.. NO.. yet i waiting like a fool.. for what? i dont know.. i only know now i have stopped track again.. okay worse of it is i no school.. yet i know thats surely not what i want and mom wanted it.. so how.. i still dont know.. yet i living like nothing.. no.. to be exact.. i acting like nothing brain and heart worked till death for these.. nobody know.. because nobody care about it.. so what i waiting for? dont know.. is my answer... Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->11:40 PM
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Hi blog.. today is a fine and great day.. well.. what i mean by fine is.. i have all things under my control.. except 1.. and why great because i enjoyed myself plus accomplished what i wanted.. so lets list them out slowly by chronological orders.. lol..
Hmm.. lets see.. start from.. the quiz.. haha.. well.. i did some study on it.. as i didnt even know what going on.. not a genius which know everything.. so decided to study.. and yup.. scored it.. not full mark i guess.. but well done.. lol.. get little help from my friends.. so thanks them..
Next is.. the movie.. haiz.. the 1 things went wrong.. is.. kian hui late for no reasons.. and he didnt bought the tickets earlier.. in the end.. should be the latest reach Causeway point.. turn out to be us.. reach earliest.. with derick the NYP student.. haha.. damn weird lor.. all release early than us.. later than us.. cant be sia.. lucky i reach.. but its too late.. the seats left was first 2 row.. so no choice.. neck spraining >.< haha... but well.. got first time experience.. lol.. so used to it.. haha..
Eat dinner at burger king.. no choice.. no other places got seats having more than 7.. lol.. anyway also wait for those who late.. haiz.. eat finish le.. smuggle time.. lol.. damn funny.. all buy drinks and stuffed into mine and i yeu bags.. lol.. bulky bags.. haha.. hope can avoid supicious.. but well.. causway point Cathay never catch de.. oh well.. good for us.. haha..
Pirates of Carribean the World end.. is what we watched.. basically.. a nice movie.. worth the ticket definetly.. but might be lower than what you expected.. but sure worth the ticket.. haha.. been long never watch movie in large group.. 7 peoples.. so happy.. of course.. no happy time is infinite.. time to disperse and we dispersed damn quick.. haiz.. but although short moment.. i enjoyed alot.. thanks for letting me have a great and smooth day..
Tomorrow graded lab.. but i learned.. due to he cheng forced me to teach her.. so no choice.. in the end i learned.. dont know right or wrong.. but based on what i learnt.. should be right.. i quite good at computers after all.. haha.. so hope another fine day ahead..
This recently.. you might noticed i been more talkative.. or maybe way over... haha.. well.. its a sight of injury recovering i guess.. i am happier now.. more relaxed.. more steady!! haha.. but think sooner or later i will be back to real me again.. but thats the real me.. for now.. let me be the Wild Fan.. after that.. i turned back to whatever Fan you could think of.. which i dont know what i am in you all eyes.. lol.. just hope is a good "Fan" can le.. hehe.. okay le.. thats all.. long post.. well.. served as make up for the neglected days.. Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->1:28 AM
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Hi blog.. as the title said.. early in the morning.. i blogged.. haha.. came to school early as usual.. but this time i really tired.. do project till never sleep.. so tired.. but also actually i slack.. thats why.. haha drag the project till so late.. amazing me.. normally can finish damn fast according to my speed in past.. lol.. anyway.. so tired now... nobody around.. so i blog.. haha.. hungry too.. but cant move around with that bulky laptop.. haha.. hmm... nothing much to blog le.. except the tennis and the study at afternoon.. hope all went smooth.. oh.. not smooth le.. i forgot to bring my EAUD book -.-.. so sad.. lucky got laptop.. haha.. okay.. stopped here now.. Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->7:33 AM
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Hi blog.. today was a really tiring day.. not that alot of lessons.. just lack of sleep.. and my gastric acting up again.. which make me feel agony.. how sad would that be... haiz.. well.. nothing much happened in school.. what happened is typed out.. oh.. 1 more.. lol.. sleep like log in bus.. so long never like this le.. guess really that tired.. anyway.. now trying to do my project.. but something wrong with the program.. oh great.. hope nothing much will happen... haiz.. okay le.. stop here.. short post again.. since its a tired day.. not much energy to observe what happening.. just hope the coming quiz i could pass? okay.. thats all.. Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->8:09 PM
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Hi blog.. sorry.. long time never update you.. well.. kinda busy.. in school.. in home.. by project.. by games.. haha.. actually also nothing for me to blog.. cant tell me write craps.. thought not many people visit.. but i still appreciate those who willing to visit.. and those promised to visit which visited..
Actually i quite funny.. i visited dont know how many numbers of blog.. no matter is on my Links.. or related to others.. i keep visit.. yet nobody does that for me.. so am i the only fool.. believe in loyal.. or just fate allowed me to have that.. but well.. doesnt really hurt now.. used to it..
Lets talk about these few days.. hmm.. on saturday.. i went for haircut with derick.. and then derick and josseph invited to causeway point play arcade by huat.. well.. you know i and his relationship this recently not good.. but i thinking.. not my fault why i avoid.. so i go.. and luckily.. we still can chat friendly.. well.. friends back again.. haha.. happy.. basketball afterward.. lots of funny things.. i am a fool.. lol.. why? because 1 of my quotes i keep use.. is "anything".. and i accidentally allowed them come my house eat dinner. -.- of course is bought the foods come my house.. long john silver.. ya.. in the end i got to keep all the mess.. then finish eating go basketball..
Yesterday.. nothing happened.. been stayed at home play PS2.. guess really boring.. and today.. basically the same things.. haha.. and so here i now blogging.. of course... i will start my regular daily blogging and visits.. so dont worry.. MingFan is a very supportive person and daily bloggers.. and thanks to you guys.. i had all these things.. haha.. okay.. stopped here.. My brother sicked.. haiz.. taking care while playing game =X.. so got to busy.. Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->7:34 PM
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Hi blog.. back from hospital.. today really my worst day le.. all sort of stuffs just poured in.. i now really stressed up.. and i really dont know how to deal with it.. okay.. first talk about 1 of my friend..
Today.. he asked me wanna play basketball.. at first.. i see my skin.. think after the doctor appointment.. sure can.. but he said at NYP.. i cant.. as i need to carry medicine, laptop and my bag.. all the way.. is surely damn heavy.. and i dont want to carry medicine around.. so no choice.. i rejected the offer.. expected.. he will angry.. well all my friends get used to it.. especially me.. so let him say say to let him loose his anger.. but he really over the line.. that really make me angry till scold him.. he really the only 1 can make me angry.. and i dont know why i want to have him as my friend.. you know what he said? he say i have no friends!! so i will be alone go watch the movie Pirate of Carribean.. oh my god.. he really like that said.. and in the end.. i said him till like he really no face to reply anymore.. and he blocked me in msn.. and you know what he did? he actually told derick them not to watch with me.. i really cant believe.. he the 1 alone wanna cause me the 1 alone.. i cant believe i had that kind of friend.. he really do that!! i cant forgive him anymore.. i always apologise first.. but not for this time anymore.. okay guys.. if you dont believe what i said.. i can paste out the conversation he spoke with me.. and you never believe there such kind of person that actually is my friend.. okay.. i over the line too now.. grr. stopped mentioning him...
Next.. is my health.. its appear my skin has worsen without recovering.. no wonder i keep feel damn weird why still in such a state.. and i was referred to National Skin Centre.. okay normally.. i wont mind.. but for this time.. i have no money to afford all those medication and doctor consultation fees now.. so what should i do.. should i start find work? if not i really will be doomed.. i cant believe my skin will be like this.. its like.. i not lazy anymore.. i keep take my medication.. by why like this... i keep think.. why all these so suddenly.. and i dont know how to react.. and i was in bad shape.. everythings bad.. how i can smile out now.. waiting at the pharmacy was like hell.. my mind keep twirling.. all bad stuffs keep come in.. and let me think of these..
Okay.. so this really my fate.. and why am i suffering all these.. its like.. i was the only one shouldnt borned out.. sometime i really just wanna closed my eyes forever.. but think of mother raised me so hard.. i cant bear to leave.. but how.. all these keep happened.. i will really staying at IMH!!(mental hospital) so is there no way i could do to change my fate? i am like tied up waiting for death.. i really need someone to let me chat.. let me happy for long period of time.. at least.. i could cooldown and rethink it.. not only Money stuffs.. and also the friendship.. should i keep or let go now.. all these.. someone really should give me help now.. i really want help now.. i wont be rejecting helps now.. i need help now.. no more solo.. i reached my limits already.....
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Hi blog.. now having 3 hours break.. no not 3 hours break.. is waiting for 3 hours to pass.. while.. got doctor appointment today as i said.. and so boring.. siangyee promised me accompany me.. but unfortunately.. he tio booked after i booked him. he need to go for project discussion.. since its school matters.. i cant say cannot.. so let him ba.. hope he finished before 2.. haha.. anyway bored now.. dont know what to do.. no books to study.. no stuffs interested me.. haiz.. siangyee come find me le!! lol... okay le.. got something to do le at least.. haha.. blog at night.. Fan logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->11:21 AM
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Hi blog.. today was a bad start.. haiz.. fall sicked badly.. flu, sore throat and dizzy.. seriously cant listen to the lesson.. and keep sleeping.. what a good thing is.. the comprog teacher very good.. he knew i sick tell me go home.. he took my attendence liao.. thats what he said.. but i dont wanna go home.. because need mc for the rest of the lessons.. its cost.. so no choice.. i continue stay on.. struggling.. even typing also shaking badly.. lucky i still can catch up the lesson damn fast.. haha.. talented in comp stuffs sia.. haha.. anyway.. finally struggled through.. still got 1 lecture.. barely listening.. haiz.. then followed by 3 hours break..
Wanted to lend the Microsoft Office cd de.. in the end library banned that rule.. dont know for what reason.. i was damn shocked.. haiz.. then i asked around in MSN using my laptop.. happened to ask sini.. and she actually invited me to her studio now.. lol.. design school internal i first time go in.. then she brought me in.. saw WanTing my red cross junior.. lol.. oh mentioned that.. this year 1 got 2 more red cross junior.. Lydia and Betty.. both in Design school.. wa.. evg gonna conquered Design school of tp? haha... joking.. See sini do the design.. she so funny sia.. keep panicking.. this type of stuffs no need rush de ma.. even if you are last 1 to pass up.. haha.. but maybe i never experience before.. because i always either first few or never pass up.. lol.. then she keep ask me for opinion.. she asked wrong people le.. i dont even know what she trying to do.. how to advice.. so i just give something that make it look nice.. anyway its turned out to be good.. haha.. then time to leave.. so sad... but since KFC.. i dont know how long never met her liao.. no.. should be said how long never chat more than 3 mins.. hope to meet up more of my friends.. at least will allow me change the fact of friends leaving me.. haiz.. tutorial lesson as expected.. cut short.. and leave early..
Chat with siangyee all the while till 8pm.. 2 hours that long.. so good to have a buddy to chat.. althought not what i always think of from heart.. but its happy stuffs we will speaking of.. that allow me to feel happy.. at least have someone allow me to chat for so long.. haha.. okay le.. stop here for now.. feel tired le.. haha.. sianz.. study getting harder now.. should start study now!! hard... Fan signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:31 PM
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Hi blog.. sorry.. neglected you for 1 day.. well.. busy playing game.. but luckily.. able to wake up early in the morning.. and dont know why i so lucky today.. just go down.. the bus came.. and i just took a small nap.. i reached tampines.. really fast.. just a few sec in my dream.. well.. dreamless dream.. should know i got this problem too.. haha.. anyway so long never been so smooth in anything i do.. so quite happy.. reached school at 7.. eat breakfast.. study abit.. slack abit.. 1 hours up.. haha.. quiz in the morning.. easy to me.. if i got the other 2 sets.. got 3 different sets of quiz.. just to prevent copying.. but useless.. i still tell them the answer.. but mine harder than the other 2 sets.. so sad.. hope got full mark =X lol.. anyway.. lab test also okay okay.. nothing serious happened.. all smoothly.. really amazed i got such a day..
1 funny things.. i actually remembered the wrong timing of my japanese cds tutorial timing.. its at 4.. but i thought at 3.. lol.. i wanna sleep.. so sleep.. and wake up nicely at 2.50pm.. what i wanted.. so good.. then go the class... felt weird why no people.. then realized.. wrong timing -.- lol.. went back to library and slack with qiao feng this time.. haha.. wanted to ask janine for dinner de.. but too bad her mother birthday.. because dinner eat alone really very EMO for me.. i hate alone.. so to prevent get EMO.. i called her.. lol.. haha.. today really a nice. day.. not only those good stuffs i mentioned above... i still make a closer progress in friendship with my teammates in japanese class.. start to joke around liao.. and this type of team is surely better than i ever expected.. haha..anyway really lucky.. met Janine outside the LT i going in soon.. chat awhile then leave le.. just dont know why today my day.. must remember.. haha.. alone go home.. but didnt get EMO.. because i fall asleep.. thought kanna nudged up by my handphone.. lol.. a message.. then half sleep half reply message le.. even through messaging... i dont feel lonely.. maybe.. hope some1 willing to be my sms chat partner.. lol.. okay le.. stop those hard to have type dreams.. wa.. i so happily type that just awhile my post is so long le.. okay okay.. stop here now.. Fan logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:54 PM
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Hi blog.. today was a very tired day.. well.. as i said.. went to checkup at kk hospital.. and its was so boring since its alone.. anyway.. i today wake up at the time i want.. and i rest awhile decided to take bus to go there.. of course.. i need go at a earlier time.. so went off at 2pm instead of 3pm.. of course.. there are reasons i want to take bus.. first... can study.. second.. can rest.. and third.. got seats.. haha.. anyway.. journey there was short in mind.. because i was fully focused on making notes of my subject..
Reached there in time.. so i slowly scroll to there.. then realized alot of chances had been made.. which mean.. very troublesome now.. need to go down take blood test then come up.. in the end.. miscalculation.. 4.06 then finished the blood test plus report.. which i wanted before 4 finish it.. since my appointment time is 4pm.. then well.. wait and wait and wait.. i dont know why i need to wait so long to see the doctor.. i wasnt that late.. haiz.. and i was so boring that i go out the garden and took some photo.. will be uploaded at the photos blog.. so go see later.. craps ones.. haha.. haiz.. all the waiting really make me sick.. i cant listen to music due to low battery, cant study due to no table.. cant rest due to the noisy environment made by children.. anyway.. its torturing.. and finally i got to see the doctor..
After checking.. i made 1 more miscalculation.. i never predicted that the amount of medication i need to bring home was so much.. and 1 more big empty bottle for me to do something.. super big.. thats the miscalculation i saying.. haiz.. having great trouble bring home...
Anyway i reached home now.. okay.. need to study.. and research.. haiz.. should have buck up.. never mind.. stop saying.. lets do it.. hehe.. see ya guys... Fan logging off.....
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Hi blog.. so late already i still online to blog.. well.. cant sleep.. thats bascially why.. and actually.. i came here.. i dont know what to blog.. i dont know what to type at all.. i been depressed for long.. back to normal.. but yet.. not 100%.. i am easily depressed sooner or later.. i know why.. the bad luck wave again.. ya.. still very scare of it.. everytime this type of wave come.. all type of tortures came.. no matter its physical, emotional or even spirit.. thats me and thats my life i going through.. life which nobody will know it forever.. ya.. sad isnt it? but well.. life still gonna go through.. and hope i will continue living at least.. no regret.. haha.. okay short post for now.. tomorrow gonna have check up.. and gonna need blood test.. oh freak... i hate needles.. been poked for years.. but i just hate it.. okay.. wish me good luck.. Fan signing off.....
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Suffering the fate which i dont know why i need to...
Hi blog... its been awhile.. sorry.. have alot of stuffs happened.. and not even 1 things i could want it considered good.. well.. maybe thats what i should had in my life.. and i never should try escape in my life.. haiz.. depressed again.. well.. lets see what happened during my disappearance on blogger..
Wednesday 9th May
Its a long long day as usual.. since its wednesday.. and got to suffer the long break.. which i said previously.. and well.. the rest went quite okay.. then but.. lecture He cheng abandoned me.. left me alone in the lecture.. haiz.. feel all dull again.. thats why i hate alone.. then when dismissed.. i saw someone.. again.. i avoided.. well.. still escaping.. thats what i mean.. anyway go home alone.. and the journey so unbearable.. cant sleep again.. reach home.. realized my mouse spoilt.. so 1 things after another comes.. i got feeling this gonna be waves again.....
Thursday 10th May
Nothing much that day in school.. except sleep in lectures.. blah blah blah... bought a mouse at a school stall which set up and since its last day and sure gonna be cheap.. so i bought it.. but well.. i guessed it so.. the waves.. the mouse actualy cant be used.. and i was so frustrated.. and i keep try to find out what is the problem.. haiz.. and i plug it to my big bro laptop.. and its worked!! on his laptop.. i cant believe that sight.. well.. i guess.. since my big bro de mouse also spoilt.. guess i go buy 1 more too.. haiz.. damn sad for that day.. and i knew.. the waves wont be stopped..
Friday 11th May
A very short day.. since i gonna dismissed at 11am.. but well.. not considered.. 1.30pm got a course manager talk.. so no choice.. stayed at school.. use laptop.. and found siangyee.. well.. we both got same characteristic.. love quiet and remoted places.. and 5th floor is always our 2 favourite spot.. i always find him there or vice versa.. anyway he go off first since he got 1 more tutorial.. and what i did was nothing.. since i am pathetic only got touchpad to use..
Okay.. we been faked.. the CM talk had no attendence.. and we waited so long to join that talk.. haiz.. what he said just wanna tell us he work hard for us to earn those benefits we enjoying now.. haiz.. i appreciated.. so dont worry.. but 1 things he said make me angry.. he said be rational adult.. what a class change can cause? he said because we are compressed.. so we need to separated.. and okay.. fine with that.. but why not all classes separated.. but partially.. he never think of us at all.. first.. how can we be rational when we are not informed about this.. and all we been informed is work hard so wont be separated.. and we are the best class among the 7.. cause clever people are in my class.. but why we separated? of course.. we cant take it at first.. okay second.. if he separated all together.. then at least wont be isolation to 1 groups.. people are used to usual group.. and when we separated.. those minority group of course being isolated.. ya he said the new lass should welcome us.. but that must see what type of class they are.. for example my class.. i dont know that will happened anot.. so please dont say us to be rational when you all these adults never think much than me on this matters.. haiz.....
Okay.. after that talk.. i and siangyee went to cheers in TP buy the mouse.. and great.. the mouse doesnt work too.. we tried in school.. and i can confirmed.. its really my laptop problem.. i really got no choice and dont know what to do.. but i need to make a decision.. and so... i decided reformat.. okay.. really not even 1 things could make me happy.. so i asked yeu to play basketball.. with yong quan and ching hong.. well.. long time never see them.. so hope we had fun.. but again.. all ruined.. due to trying to repair the laptop.. we late.. but the main reason is.. 1 of the people on my side.. actually persuaded the majority go back the usual court and play.. and caused me great trouble.. they all agreed with yeu.. and they pang seh them.. they never though of his feeling at all.. and all people never though of people like me who tried to make this basketball happened.. you know what? i gonna take all responsible without you all knowing right? people on both sides blamed me.. its damn unfair.. i really wanna think are they really know what i going through all the times.. i guess.. no.. haiz.....
Saturday 12 May
Today.. woke up early.. and start to reformat my laptop.. after that.. being called to go for lunch.. KFC again.. suggested by huat.. dont know why he like fast food.. anyway.. gonna spend much again... and then.. they come my house make a ruckus again.. and i was online doing their apologising to yeu.. haiz.. never mind already.. should know they wont care that much.. of course.. also kanna yeu scolding.. but lucky in the end.. he understand.. well.. at least 1 big stress relieved.. and now.. stil continue repairing the laptop.. and they at outside make so much noise.. crazy.. lol.. anyway they went for basketball again at night.. i didnt go.. because my skin abit not good.. so no choice.. didnt told them so i know they scold me again.. haiz.....
The End
So understand? thats the fate i meant.. and why? haiz.. who know.. people dont understand me.. life that fate make its damn hard for me.. and surrounding which making me more frustrated or stressed.. and work which i not used at all.. sooner or later.. i really going berserk.. is there someone again can accompany me.. for a silent trip.. to anywhere also can.. at long i could let the silence take over all my problem.. thats my believes.. silent.. is something that could actually covered my mind and problems.. but this might be a dreams.. which i dont know will it happened... so why i always hoped for something which only me cant get it.....
By the way.. the answer for last last post. if not wrong.. its 2.. chat with people.. because.. 1st.. i got nothing to play without friends.. 3rd i always loss sleep.. and only place i could sleep well.. is school.. so do you think i want that easy? so means i am a girl? no.. i just like the feeling of chatting.. no matter is cyber or real life.. of course.. cyber me.. is a really noisy and aggressive people.. unlike the real life me.. even chatting i might stop the conversation.. so thats the difference.. but.. i still will choose 2.. of course.. i will do choice 1.. if someone invited me for games.. chances only appeared at night... thats all.. have a nice day.....
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Hi blog.. now currently in school.. "enjoying" my 3 hours break now.. so took the chance to blog.. but still i feed very sad for today.. i late for the same lab i missed last week.. which mean i got to recieve warning letter.. and also.. i cant be late for that lesson again... its all my fault.. i woke up already.. all prepared then go take a small nap.. and that does it.. 7 then start going.. and of course.. jammed.. lucky got siangyee.. if not i really were frustrated.. met him in the bus stop.. while hoping for bus to come.. he came to me.. haiz.. this semester might be the worse of all.. how am i gonna do.. today all lecture i sleep.. thats mean i didnt learned anything.. haiz.. if this continues.. i gonna be dead... so hope that i could really start settled myself with my messy life..
No activities going on recently in my lifes this recently.. why? normally would go out with polytechnic friends.. but since all separated.. its useless.. haiz.. only 1 lesson we could be together... which is the apel.. a lesson for only that batch we in.. G607.. the honored and best class of all!! this what i really think.. even my friends also think so.. suited me well too. quiet.. clever.. probably the most clever class of all.. with average high score.. haiz.. why should we separated!! i cant believe.. i just start to get close with them.. and its gonna end soon.. haiz.. nope.. i wont let it end this time.. i wont let history repeats..
I actually hate to make new friends.. because i made new friends.. its ends fast too.. not by my effort.. but by their coldness... but the polytechnic friends really good to me.. totally different type of friends compared to secondary school.. not saying secondary school friends bad... but just.. different type.. means different me.. then how about those new friends? colleagues.. or somethings.. nah.. surely will end soon.. thats what i think.. except alan and jack.. they keep talk to me.. the rest.. sooner or later will end.. i believe thats always my fate.. but well.. since get used to it.. okay.. shouldnt said that much about that anymore.. my lesson start at 4.. i still got 1 hour.. and i dont know what to do.. is there someone can accompany me? i look like girl.. but maybe this what i always lacked.. warmth and closeness and understanding.. real understanding... okay.. really should stop.. my mood is bad.. but no my blog.. japanese lesson soon.. so JaNai.....
Just For Fun
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What should i do if i am bored.. Please Give answer..
Hi blog.. again.. reversed living.. see what time i am blogging? "buddy.. i got to go school.. can you go sleep now?" i hope i will do what i said.. but i cant.. haiz.. life is so strange.. but well.. at least today i did something i find it great.. housekeeping. haha.. finally cleared the most dirtiest part in my room. but of course.. halfway through only.. haiz.. just hope my lazy bum small brother would just give a hand.. i am busying in the room he was playing at the living room.. haiz.. told him do the cleaning.. his face would changed.. is it so hard to be a good boy?? haiz.. so tired.. never mind.. this cleaning will be done by this week.. as i got alot of time.. haha.. but well.. also should start doing some studies too.. if not cant catch up.. been slacking all the way.. but that will stop.. i must get a GPA 3.5 above.. its not that its cant be done.. its just i keep sleeping or slacking.. and all these can be changed if i got the determination.. haiz.. so this semester.. i must cultivate that determination... but first.. start with my living place.. then start with me living habits and blah blah blah.. haha... hope this determination i having now could really last till the end of the process.. and what i need i result.. haha..
By the way.. lets do some thinking.. if you are a teenager.. what you could do if you are bored at home.. of course nobody wanna go out.. and you dont feel like going out alone.. (1)open your computer play game (2)chat with someone either online or phone or (3)sleep.. well.. probably most of the guys.. choose 1. girls choose 2.. but lazy people choose 3.. so which i belonged to? 1,2 or 3? haha.. please do some thinking and tell me the answer.. those who know me well.. should know what i really will do.. answer shall be posted next post.. or maybe more later =D Ja Mata.....
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Hi blog.. my timing of sleeping.. eating.. playing.. all reversed since the start of school.. why? slack lor.. too much time on hand now.. yet not treasuring it.. haiz.. i still haven organised yet.. of course didnt setled down too.. mind still playing.. not even study.. i already got projects on my hand.. haiz.. lets talk about what happened today.. and you will know what i mean reversed..
Today wake up at 6.. hmm too early? its 6pm -.- oh great.. eat lunch become eat dinner.. then was called to go play basketball.. cant play.. need to settle some stuffs.. and then play game at night till now... haven sleep yet and cant sleep.. tomorrow no school and i happened to make a mistake.. my check up at next week.. i actually though tomorrow 14 may.. haha.. blur me liao.. so now what am i suppose to do to let me fall asleep and tomorrow wake up in day to get back my normal schedule? dont know.. haiz.. but well.. still living happily thats imortant.. just hope all goes smooth.. well this should already be my usual hope.. haha.. okay le.. stopped here for now.. Ja Nai.....
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Play.. play.. and play...
Hi blog.. haha.. sorry so late then update you.. kind of "play while you can" mood.. and keep playing.. lol.. dont know why.. haha.. today nothing much happened.. just played awhile basketball at a no light court.. dont know why.. think power supply down.. no lights... also i cant play.. injury.. haiz.. deep and big wound at my elbow cause me cant shoot well.. anyway.. until now was playing online games.. and they wanna sleep.. no choice.. so here i am.. haha.. think going to be a boring days ahead.. monday still got checkup.. at 4pm.. such a late timing.. haiz.. alone at hospital so sianz.. hope its end fast.. no waiting time.. haha.. okay.. thats all.. so long dont have short post le.. haha.. Fan signing off.....
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Happy living.. Mingfan Back!!
Hi blog.. sorry didnt update you for 1 day.. haha so how my lifes... actually after the post i did previously and the days i go through for these 2 day.. i know what the solution.. stop thinking too much.. just live the way you used to be.. and you can get that kind of live you feel happy.. even though acting.. lying.. concerning.. but still its my basic characteristic.. and its the only way i feel comfortable.. haha.. so i am back!! i going to chat more to people that surround me so they wont bored.. ( still in the proccess to chat more) i know people with me always bored.. because i keep dont talk.. well.. i really like silence.. but.. if i dont talk.. please talk to me.. i can assure you of no boredom as long you dont cease the conversation.. haha.. i also need help from you guys.. so sorry about that..
Sianz.. but 1 thing popped out again.. joseph called me.. the leader i mean.. asked me to go meeting tomorrow.. and i got project meeting.. then i cancelled it.. but actually.. i think i wont be going back.. though look like escaping the problem.. but well.. if use logic.. since i cant earn much there yet spend so much time.. why dont change a job.. ya.. just take as reason i guess.. but my mom also dont want me go work this recently.. my mom really very good.. but i cant.. i need to earn a living sooner or later.. after i settled down with my studies for this semester.. i start job hunting.. dont know when.. but must try.. i dont want my mom just took down the whole burden.. haha.. okay stop here.. must congrat me get back wor.. Fan logging off.....
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Hi blog.. yes.. again i cant fall asleep again.. my life always tough.. even resting time.. i cant get it.. is it i lied alot.. thought its white lies.. i always lie to people said i am okay.. but i am not.. i always acting... and actually i not what i showing.. i always accomodate people but actually i can dont do it.. why am i so caring for others.. i really dont know what i really want now.. i am so caring.. for? friends.. yet.. i did those.. is there anyone to show understanding? actually. its my fault they cant understand.. because i lied!! a friend just show concern and actually lend ear to me.. which its basically first time in my life i could talk.. but yet.. i dont know what i talking about.. all i know is.. overall i just wanna avoid speaking the truth.. i really deserve all the toughship after all i did.. yea.. i am stupid if you wanna say.. "be truth to yourself.." yet i cant do it.. so.. lists of questions appeared in my thoughts..
First.. Why you need friends? => Fun? Understanding?
Second.. Is it right to be too caring and ignore what you yourself truly think?
Third.. Will you do all those just to get relationship which might not even worth it.. or not what you want..
First.. I need friends.. because they basically know me more than my family do.. and its like a second area for you to let out your thoughts.. your emotion.. your feelings.. so its the understanding i need most.. which until now.. i cant let anyone get in my area.. i know it myself.. yet i cant convince myself its my fault.. am i stupid?
Second.. I think.. its might be unique characteristic.. but yet u hurt yourself.. but for the pain. if you get back what you pay.. the pain is nothing.. yet.. i didnt get back any.. yet i still giving in.. so again.. am i right to continue? actually in the end.. i might just a fool pinned hopes on impossibles..
Third.. I will.. holding relationship is really what i best at.. yet.. catching it is what i really bad of it.. but even if they are not what you want.. for example understanding.. yet they could actually help you unknowingly.. like.. giving you the fun.. so why not? arent you be happy to be with your friends.. arent you sad when we need to leave each other even though we could meet next time..
So actually still stubborness of me.. nothing much.. yet i still so stupid think so much.. but why i felt great is.. i might really can find a best friend which i wanted to have.. after having the listening ears.. but still.. just a might.. again.. answer is all relied on the heart i having which still pounding now.. i wanna apologise now again.. to the kind person who actually lend ear to a person who still keep stuffs.. i promised... i find the truth of myself.. and till then.. guild me if can.....
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Hi blog.. well.. today was released at 7pm.. its was really late.. last lesson was Japanese lecture.. lucky got he cheng there.. if not i were really bored and lonely.. haiz.. but when we released early.. there was 1 lecture also released early.. and i dont know why.. i so scared.. and i tried my best to avoid of meeting that person.. and its not i want to.. but my mind told me to.. is it scare? its dont want to trigger memories? or because did something not good to that person.. even apologise also not enough and guilty to face that person? guess both.. i become Emotional again.. just hope bus come faster and bring me home..
during the journey in 969.. as you know.. alone.. is really what i hate.. then dont know is fate or what.. there a female student which also taking japanese sitting beside me.. know by looking at the book she holding.. well.. just a mere coincidence but i never though of it.. why fate always arrange such strange stuffs for me.. okay.. i dont know that girl.. and i cant be bothered with her look.. i was just too confused... no.. its panic.. and i dont know what to do.. lucky music is there to accompany me.. and with my finger tapping.. i slowly fall asleep without knowing.. when wake up.. just reach yishun only.. and the girl is almost on my shoulder sleeping.. its just lucky she keep try to avoid.. but look tough to her.. anyway what funny is she tried all type of sleeping pose and she finally get 1 which she wont swing here and there.. well.. with all these funny things for me to see.. i actually forgot what i been troubled.. and look at scene and enjoyed.. back to own self again..
Alighted at admiralty station and go find huat them at basketball court.. not planning to play at all.. but being force to play.. and i injured.. just a scratch.. but why i dont want to play is.. the outfit i having cant run fast.. cant jump high.. cant shoot!! i was damn frustrated.. and after 2 match i go off le.. haiz.. now i blogged.. of course again.. complicated mind.. i just hope i can just go through all these peacefully.. no more mind struggling.. maybe.. forget is the cure.. and time is the process to it.. hope they also like this think.. then its better for 2 parties.. but.. am i right to do that? i am escaping again.. argh.. suddenly i wanted time to move fast.. i am too selfish and a fool.. stop thinking now.. stop here.. just hope all run smooth.....
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Hi blog.. so early i could blog.. lol.. not i late.. i too early reach.. haha.. using laptop now.. lol.. bring laptop as later gonna have long break again.. so i bring just in case i wasted my time on nothing.. anyway.. why i said cold morning.. if you now go out.. really damn cold.. its raining.. i reach the bus stop.. cold wind hitting my face.. messing my hair.. but well.. its feel cool and nice.. even thought its cold that i hope the bus come earlier.. haha.. after get used then nice. le.. then bus came late.. inside.. more cold -.- but its obvious.. haha.. anyway reach school le.. still cold.. and nobody around.. now outside the lab with me alone.. with its the usual class.. maybe already got someone with me.. haiz.. this class is so what.. hope this semester faster end.. lol.. selfish thoughts.. anyway.. hope all things run smooth for today.. haha.. Fan logging off.....
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Hi blog.. today as i said earlier.. going down to play basketball.. haha.. because my schedule the slackest.. seem to be alot of time on my hand to play basketball.. haha.. unlike last time.. totally no chance or half half.. anyway.. its so fun.. i starting to gain back my shooting skill.. but not the confident.. am i always so lack of confident.. actually can score yet i turned it to a miss.. anyway have alot of fun.. played till 10+ we go eat dinner.. or maybe supper.. lol.. at admiralty place.. and buy bubble tea and go home le.. lol..
Dont know why.. i guess i got abit back to the old Mingfan again le.. happy-go-lucky again.. think time and right company really worked.. but hope this not a false hope.. i dont want to drop into emotional world again.. even i am.. haha.. what i mean dull me.. i know i am quiet.. but not dull.. thats what i mean.. i would give a mild smile face and thats me.. haha.. crazy filler yet all-keep-to-itself guy.. hard to please... haha.. okay le.. just hope more fun.. of course more quiet moment too.. the class i in.. really way too noisy.. i really missed my old class now.. really missed it.. thats all.. Fan signing off.....
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Hi blog.. again.. not an emotional blog.. as we today went to catch a movie.. hottest topic for this year.. Spiderman 3.. haha.. went to Sun Plaza watch.. near 12 go buy ticket.. and spent the rest of the time at arcade.. haha.. played shooting game and basketball.. usual stuffs.. sianz.. and i unlucky got the pedal something wrong.. cause me died so early.. anyway.. basketball shooting.. wa seh.. i cant get the first.. joseph get it.. haha.. with score of 147.. i only 130.. second place.. haiz.. but have a very fun day.. after the arcade.. movie time.. okay.. spiderman 3 is nice.. its have more funny stuffs.. more emotional scenes too.. and the graphic of course nice.. basically nice.. haha.. lame me.. only say nice.. then after that.. they all went to huat house and i go home.. as dont want to squeeze with them.. later going to have basketball.. but suddenly dont feel like playing.. lol.. see first ba.. haha..
Got photos.. but dont feel like upload it here.. dont know why.. but.. i made a space specially for that function.. if wanna go see.. if you my friends of my messenger just click on my profile will do.. hehe.. if not.. i will put up a link on my Links.. actually dont know why.. just wanna take photo now and then.. maybe scare i will forget.. or miss the scene.. i have missed alot of stuffs which i thought will never missed.. regrets is what i have now.. but now.. haha.. so lets get going and take a look... hehe.. i know.. not all will go.. so i will appreciate those who go or even take time come my blog.. thanks alot.. okay thats all for today.. tomorrow finally can start school again.. long break i had indeed.. hope tomorrow i wont be late.. haha.. missed the first lesson already very bad.. okay le.. really stop for now.. Blog again next time.....
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com
Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me
What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D
What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.
I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...
What i want...
*Be happy forever
*Have the N91 phone
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*A laptop
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*Friends that really care
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam