Hi blog,
Once brain get enough rest, its work perfectly normally! Haha.. I will not be disturbed by personal thinking now. I want to be back to normal so I could lead them well.
Haha.. Although today we went to a company to ask for advice didn't turned out to be a good thing. But we got 2 idea to work on it. Just hope one of it works..
Haiz.. I hope I could bring them more hope, no.. Should have more motivation, they already think the battle is lost before we even start. I don't want them to think that way. I want each of us to motivate each person. Even if its nothing to do, we should do something beneficial instead of just stay there chatting.
Don't blame me saying these, we are a team after all. Not but saying will die anot but to push each other for better. Must be in high spirited mode every moment. Thats what I think..
Not hard isn't it? Haha.. Anyway, in other words. My perfect ideal team is a team who will helped each other neither in physically nor intelligently. But mentally, moral support is just what I think its most important. Not by saying negative words, but cheering words. We are prepared to win not to lose!!
We can do that isn't it? =D
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I dont want misunderstanding..
Hi blog,
Its really been a nice day, so long never sleep so long with nothing in my mind. How good is that? Haha..
Lets see.. I have slept for 6 hours.. Lol.. If later I could sleep again, another 6 hours. So happy, I think I really like to sleep instead of play. =X Lol.. See how happy I am, its so obvious. Lol..
Sianz.. I knew it sooner or later my post will caused misunderstanding. I just wanna blog out my feelings, doesnt really want to blame my teammates. Although friends around me keep say its not my fault but them.. But also.. Its my fault for not being able to be more straightforward. Haiz.. I dont want misunderstanding, I just want my work to be done correctly. All we need is everyone do its part and just dont run. Thats my expectation for the teams....
Ahh.. I still wanna sleep and I want to sleep right away!! After my shows finished =X
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Hi blog,
Today I early in the morning went to NSC to check up. Its really very tired and plus all the fatigue i suffering. Really took me half of my life to get that. (Exaggerated =X) Anyway, Was hoping the queue time for me is short so I could settled the appointment fast enough to let me go home sleep.
I already decided to ask for leave from my teammates as I really think my body couldn't take it anymore. But in the end, they actually saw my last post which doesnt meant to let others see. =X Cause I posted it early in the morning 2.00am if not wrong then was planned to post this to cover that post. In the end, a failure >.< They forced me to stay at home no matter what. Well, I heed the advice then..
Its my turn to see the doctor, doctor introduced me to a new medicine. Its a medicine which supress the immunity system of mine so can reduce the effect of enzyma. But.. this will have side effect on Liver and Bone marrow, thus need me to take blood test once in 2 weeks. I was like hesitated, but its can supressed my enzyma and thats made me wanna try. Then as I wanted to start today, I need to have my blood test taken which actually costed me $60!! Wa kao.. Getting regrets now.. Hope the next blood test is cheaper, if not i got to quit, (Originally should be taken for half a year) Since I got finacial problem. Haiz.. Really lots of problem.. STRESS!!!!
I rather having a nice sleep now and I mean it!! =D
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Regrettable Decision & Suffering & Its my turn
Hi blog,
24 May 2008
Today I have really did something really silly. Its just an action of my kindness yet I was forced to did something I really don't like, really...
One of my friend asked me to go pray for safety. I didn't really want to care about it in the first place (Was playing basketball at that time), furthermore I hate such stuff.. So I just reject the nice offer. But after that, I think its bad to reject people since that person think of me. Its just offering incenses, I was a Buddhist in the beginning so its okay for me. But the 'nice' offer, turned out to be the 'bad' one..
Everything goes through so fast, before I know it, I was been tricked.. I know its disrespect to say I was been tricked. What I mean is totally opposite of temple stuffs. Its just totally what I hate..
Friends who know me well should know I hate being restricted, I hate being forced to do something which I don't like, I hate following actions which is not from my heart.
Offering incenses is okay with me since I no need to follow any rules and no need others to look over me. Most importantly, my willingness.. But what you know? Its not just that..
What made me angry also when that friend actually used 'forgot' as an answer to my question. I got to forge out $10 for such thing. I was going to save money for my everything yet the start of my saving is to spent on thing I don't even think about it...
I was really angry, yet I got act as fine. Why am I so kind in the first place to agree to accompany that person. I don't want my friend feel so sad being rejected yet I am the one getting hurt over and over again over that friend. Is it paid to be kind? I wondered why..
Not blaming that friend since that person is just want me to be safe, but just that fate always joke around me like that. Forced me to see thing I don't like and do thing I don't like. This happened when I changed my mind for kindness...
If only I learnt how to say no firmly...
25 May
Today was a really tiring day. I guess I might really reached my limits soon. My body was so tore up when I woke up. My brain was the first thing I felt something wrong. Its hurt, don't know its because the heavy training we did from 8.30pm to 1.30am. So tired that I also don't know what to do, whether is to cancel the trip to Sim Lim Square or continue.
After some struggle, I managed to get up from the bed. That's my decision.. After some struggling, I managed to get out of the house. Meet up with siangyee and Reeve, then we board the 960 to Bugis. Totally no appetite, so I just had 1 bowl of Ice Kachang to kill the heat in me. "Where your teammates?" Ya.. I wondered what they doing now when I was out there. Well.. I also don't know how to answer so I laughed it off.
As usual, Reeve will drag us here and there. After some book surfing at a bookstore, we went to Sim Lim Square. After reached there.. My headaches getting into my way. Its really pain whenever I take steps or turn my head around for shops I need. Body was getting my way too when I feel like fainting, which I didn't (All thanks to determination). After some time, my effort goes unpaid. Nothing in return I suggested go Funan to try my luck..
Thanks to Reeve. I further increase the burden of my body by walking great distance from Sim Lim to Funan. Reached that, I already have no strength for items hunting. We stayed at another bookstore read some book. I took the chance to sit down and rest. 7 plus then we went up to see. But I guess its too late, everything closing. Haiz.. In the end, I just spent a day for nothing again..
26 May
Now I am blogging for 3 posts, this last portion. I wanna ask for leave on behalf of my body. I really getting weird. I am dragging my body now and my brain was still pain. But I just hope I can do it. Lets see I got the courage to ask for leave anot. I have a MC with me.. Silly of me to need courage right?
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Hi blog,
Haiz.. Sometimes dont you think life its really just contradicting? Once you want to have good ending, yet you dont willing to give a shot for a good ending?
I having wonderful friends in my life now. Yet wonderful friends I have doesnt serve any helps when I needed it the most. I am the one giving them the happiness which i wonder why is that so? Why am I thinking this questions when I already given up hopes of having the friends I ever wanted in my life..
Wonderful friends I have indeed brought me away from depression from times to times. Yet they might be the one who actually pushed me into the depression everytime in the first place. Of course, I not pushing blames to people. I just want to note it down that..
"If you ever want changes, you need to change it. Everythings that happening around me is because I always keeping it a secret."
If you not happy with something, please say it out.
If you angry, please shout it out.
If you like someone, please say it as that will bring you closer to that person.
If you love someone, please grab the chance to change your life."
Well.. I guess I not that kind of person who did those above.
They always did things I dont like and I act it as I like. "Laugh it off" Yea.. Who dont like to have fun? But I just dont like to play when the time is wrong. To me, have a balance of fun and seriousness is more important. Haiz.. To me I think if they want it, its fine with me. But when its came to work, they dont even willing to do. Thats what make me so angry, and so stress that I keep think and think and think. My request for a good teammates is really very simple, as long they treat their work seriously, I really dont mind teammates depends on my solely. I guess I just doesnt suit to be a leader after all. Dont even say its a friend others want to depend on.
"Perfection doesnt exist.. As once its reached, a newer expectation appeared. Aiming for perfection doesnt end once its reached."
Yea.. Maybe thats applying to me. But.. In my memories, I doesnt remember that I ever felt that I reached any perfection in my life. So hope I could feel one....
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Clearing of rubbish (Stress) & Payback
Hi blog,
17 May
Its the Fund Raiser gathering again!! With the same gang of people just that Janine and Chee Leong is gone but with Jack back with us. Oh well...
Our first stop is go eat. Dont know for what reason, I and kian not hungry at all. So.. We decided to eat something like....
Lol.. Its something Kian noticed it and so we ordered it.. =X (I dont know how to explain the size therefore the picture =D)
After eating, we met up with wei bin and yinghaur by luck. So we went to Lan Shop instead. (Since Alan is not with us yet)
Have some fun playing dota but well, I lost 2 game. (Not fun at all >.<) Lol.. Went to meet up with Alan and we decided to go K-Pool for Pool!!
Wei Bin not happy with me when I win him pool the last time. So he decided to revenge.. >.< Poor me, I know I am going to lose this time cause I know I am not a player which played well in anything at the first try. Oh well, I won in the end (I was anyhow play!!) But not in skill, just luck.. As he hit the black ball to wrong hole. But I know he not happy cause I not focusing. Sorry la, I did tried, but cant. I not that compeititive unless its a showdown with no audience.. Lol..
Whats more amazing? I didnt lose any games afterward.. Oh well, I not that bad.. But not that professional too. So.. Its all luck =D
WeiBin and Yinghaur left after weibin finished the game with us, so he actually didnt withness how lucky I am. Haha.. But.. Not a doubt that he is a very good player. My respects to him. =X
Accompanied Alan to eat his dinner as he didnt had his yet. So our game was quite short. After that, we went to have plenty of photos taking. Its uploaded at my photo blog, take a look there =D
Thats all.....
18 May
Actually very sianz, today should have my last shopping done. But, last minute got 2 friend abandoned. Haiz.. If its 1 still okay, but 2 at the same day telling me not coming for tomorrow. Thats so sianz, no choice got to cancel my trip. Guess not going to pin my hope on them accompany me go buy shoes le. Haiz..
Was planning to sleep my day off but mom's cooking woke me up =X Lol.. Its 11am at that time. After lunch I decided to get back the notes I left it at weibin there accidentally yesterday.
Met him at AMK Hub and went to his house to get my notes. Then I though of payback him the game I owe him. Cause yesterday its obvious he want to win me nicely. So I suggested to play since I have no activities.
We had 5 rounds in total and I lost in the end. Haha.. 2:3 I think I really paid him back as the first game against him, my turn to hit the black ball to the wrong hole. Lol.. The rest was an exciting match. Haha.. But I didnt know I played quite well when its a 9 Feet game since I tried twice in my lifetime only. Luck surely on my side when its pool =X Haha.. But I guess we 2 getting closer now due to such challenge =D 1 new good friend Haha..
Went back home to see leong and Alan. Both at my house because Alan want to use Leong laptop and Leong want to come my house. Such funny chains, so both end up at my house. Accompanied Alan to causeway to have dinner as I also need to give Jack 1 of his notes as he misplaced at my side. Kianhui was there too as he didnt had his dinner yet.
Reached home to realized my dinner was being eaten by my small bro >.< "@#$%&" Lucky still got my mom so had her helped me packed some food for me. The rest of the time no need say, playing dota =X
Haha.. Thats my life.. So boring, thats applied to tomorrow too....
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Hi blog,
There we go again, our project have another U-Turn back to the start again. But.. This time the route its much easier. Well, hope this time no more problems. But you know what? Instead of faster finish our project, we went to K-Box yesterday -.-
Great sia.. But actually, yesterday I was so stress to think up anything. Well.. at some time, destress is important than overcome the stress. Haha..
K-Box have this new offer for student which after the bill, the cost of each person is 14.50. Woot.. Somemore we can enjoy foods like Sotong Ball, Chicken Nugget and Fries also potato chips and drinks. But 1 of the people must be a member then we can enjoy the this offer. No wonder Yvonne crazy about it and dragged us go.
Later going out to have fun again. After this week, I really hope no playing for at least 1 or 2 week. We need to focus after all.
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Am I that damn sickening?
Hi blog,
Today really really.. I cant take it liao, I want to scold and scold and scold!!
Why am I always that unlucky, cant bad thing come in 1? Why always come in a wave!!! WHY??? I lost my precious ring, my precious bag spoilt and my wound cut again.
Haiz.. Why am I a multi-tasker for when I still forgot so many things. I put my ring on the basin, then wash my hands also style my hair and also think about what to do later and tomorrow. Happily leave the toilet and leave the library until reached mensa to find out my ring was not with me. Run back to realized somebody actually took that worthless but precious ring. HOW COULD PEOPLE JUST TOOK AWAY THAT RING!! I cant believe, whats more worse the time past just 5 mins plus. Sianz..
Come out of the lift after rush up to 8th floor, a snap sound occured and my bag dropped on the floor. I was like very angry, frustrated and really sad at the same time. Why 'wave' come back again. I thought its gone but its back again.
I really very sad when such stuffs happened. I dont mind ring got missing, as I will just scold and scold and thats it. But when its related to the 'wave' I really cant take it. Dont tell me its coincidence when its like a frequent visitor in my life already. I cant shake off the mind and the truth that I am bad luck...
I didnt even realized that my wound got cut open again, think really was panicked about my ring that I run to something also dont know. The wound already got infected and now reopened. Its so pain.. Of course now its okay le.
You know how the fate laugh at me? Everything that is bad happened good at that moment. When I waiting for my big bro, I saw alot of 69 pass by, somemore its stick together. Are they trying to tell me that I does not deserved that? When I waited for something, its wont happened. Once I not needed, its happened. Thats how the fate treat me. Once I try to notice those trivial stuffs, I realized all these. I just know it.. I could feel that, the string attached me from logic thinking is getting weaker....
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Hi blog,
I really wanted to blog all my bad stuffs out, but I dont feel like it. Why? Cause I dont want to be just complaining, so I decided to say out the good side of the bad side?
Today was really a bad day. Was so depressed and frustrated on what happening to me. But I am able to get back myself. Which I cant believe I did so. What I thought I will be doing for today was giving attitude? NO way.. I not that bad, just will be very quiet and depressed.. But I cant believe by going out for awhile and cool down for few hours and there I am back to my ownself.
Good stuff isnt it? Ya indeed it is. =X Lol.. But if say never got affected, its obviously I am lying. Of course I am just compressing the emotion. Oh well..
So whats about the shaking? I also dont know how to explain, this recently I realized my hand are shaking randomly. I dont know what the reason, its just shake out of my control. Although its just awhile, but everytime its happened. I just dont like it (Who like it anyway -.-)
My project have a big U-Turn and back to the start again.. 4 weeks just wasted for nothing. I starting to hate myself now...
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Ended the storytelling at -->11:13 PM
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Hi blog,
Today was a waste of time again. This is really so sad, everyone already have started their project and among them we are the first to start and the first to stuck and the first on the slowest list -.- Cool right? Haha..
Today I just sleep off my day, but actually we got a little bit of hope from people we seek help from. I actually seek help from online and then asked few lecturer in the school which 1 actually replied me. I also asked our lab supervisor. All actually shows hope for our project. Just hope tomorrow got more to come and actually can let me start on the project ^^
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Hi blog,
Yesterday is really very random, we actually went to Seoul Garden to eat for fun. @.@ Then a LAN gaming session after lunch which last all the way till the end. =X
Lol.. Today reached school but didn't went for the biometric scanner but the matric card scanner cause my finger was scalded during the 'part time' I had on the last weekend. Funny part is I actually forgot about the bandage until I reached the lab. Oh well, that's me ^^
After few hours of wasting time again. Then I asked Yvonne want to eat what, then she said she don't know then I suddenly just suggested Seoul Garden =X Its just for fun, but didn't expect to trigger Layteng appetite and we dragged Yvonne to go TM. Haha.. 1 funny incident happened about flying thing, but I dont like to blog if people think its embarrassing. Therefore thats it for that =D
Well, the consequences are we all bloated. >.< Haha.. But I ate quite alot, yet not that lot. But still.. I gained alot of fats >.< Haiz.. We have lots of fun there, actually because of these 2 girl made it funny. Lol..
Went back to school then was invited to play LAN game (CS) Lol.. I was playing happily cause even its been long since I touched that game yet the skill still left abit for me to OWN =D Just for joke, lol.. Anyway after that we went to discuss tomorrow tasks. Finally we scheduled something useful and just hope its going to be smooth. NO MORE WASTING TIME!! X<
Haiz.. Now project stucked really made me fed up. My teammates have nothing to do till wanted to go home. When they said that, really make me very sad. Haiz.. Yet such stuffs arent good to say out. I am so hoped I am a really good leader in the first place.. First place....
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Hi blog,
I was actually so tired but yet I cant fall asleep. Thats why I am here blogging. I am really a weird creature, I am always doing things that i dont like and I am always deprived from doing things I like. Why is that so? Even me also dont know the reason.
"Why I cant fall asleep?" Why not you question me back? My answer is I dont know, this been with me for years yet its really kind of random. Losing sleeps is already a stuff happened everyday. although now its better (At least twice a week?) But when its came, I just hate it. (Well, who dont? =X)
You know what? I was complaining tired and want to sleep when I am helping my mom. When I reached home and watching show with Mom, I said I feel like sleeping already. Yet when I lied on my bed, there my sleeping mode goes.. Argh.. Guess thats the reason for always sleep in classes. My mind full of thoughts and I am unable to clear it off. I really hope I got a phone buddy or whatever its is. I just want someone to chat, so I could talk out my thoughts and feelings without restrict.
Of course, I dont have the luxury to have it now since everyone is busy yet why in past I cant have it? If something like that happened in past, I could have always enjoyed the sleep in night instead of day. The later it is, the more thoughts I have and the more thoughts i have.. The harder I get into sleep. This is the time when I need a friend the most. Yet that doesnt happened at all.
Why cant fantasy happened in real life for me? Why cant a drama's scenario worked out for me too? I am so envy the friends in books and show now...
Fan WANT TO SLEEP now.....
Ended the storytelling at -->1:37 AM
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Dead for nothing.. & I am Addicted!! & Not i dont want..
Hi blog,
This post was meant to be on past few days..
Friday 9 May 2008
I am dead!! Lol.. I mean in basketball court. I am now a useless people in court with both arm disabled. Haiz.. 1 new injury and 1 old injury both cause me unable to do anything in court which made me poor perfomance these few days. I hate it so much, when i got the heat back people must extinguish it. After they did it, they blame me for not coming. Haiz..
Right elbow was injured due to a fall which sprained the joint part. Second time is go against a tall guy which i jump so fast to hit away the ball which made me sprained my elbow again. -.- Rested 2 days to recovered.
Left elbow injured because of a guy which i steal the ball from him and he actually fall down for nothing -.- What so bad is when he fall down he crashed my elbow and drag for abit. Cause my left elbow got bruises and a sprain. I am SOOOOOO angry at that moment when my right arm already no strength left for me. Cause me that day a 1-armed baller.
Actually i know my right arm should be able to work, so its mentally problem. I trying to solve the problem and now added with a left arm. Thats great, another few days to rest.. Haiz.....
Saturday 10 May 2008
Well well well, i am addicted to a new stuff!! Woo.. Haha.. I am addicted to singing now!! I cant believe I actually addicted to something like that. How its started? Well...
My 2 'outgoing' teammates actually suggested to go KTV yesterday and dragged me in. But I also want to go see see how they sang too, and to relax actually =X Haha.. So here we go..
In the first place i went for haircut, then went to queenstown to meet layteng as I asked her to accompany me go Anchor Point to buy clothes. Its cheap okay? Branded stuffs all in 50% discount. Watched the 'Thrift King 2' to know got such places. So I bought 3 clothes and 1 lanyard. Lol. Total cost is.. (I forgot!!) $50++ =X Then meet up with yvonne and we go for KTV!!
The place we went to is a place called K-Ster. Quite cheap I guess, $16 per person after the bill. So its good I guess, but the service not good. Haha.. Anyway they crazy in the begginning. I was thinking want to sing anot then tio yvonne scolded -.- So I no choice got to sing too, starting was so badly cause I really dont dare. I keep hate my voice but behind ahz.. I cant believe i sang so well =X (I think only la) Lol.. Then now I am addicted to it liao -.-
I think we sang for 4 hours, so its shiok i guess. All stress gone, now I know why so many people like go KTV now. Lol.. I want to go again now >.<.....
Sunday 11 May 2008
Haiz.. Sometime I also dont know why. When its time for me to do certain stuffs, i always got another stuff came into it to interrupt. Its not I want, but I am helpless against it too.
Guess I am getting you guys to nowhere =X Anyway today I wanted to spent the day sleeping for half a day then go study my visual basic another half of the day. Yet my mom yesterday asked me to go help her out again -.- Not i dont want, but why got helpers yet the helpers keep got problem. Haiz.. Then whats more worst its when I still got problem need to solve in the first place. Cannot say no so I agreed -.-
Haiz.. Going off soon then I blogged this DAMMMMMMM LONG post!! Woot.. Its been long since I did that. Haha.. Okay le la.. Have a nice days to my readers =D Oh ya.. I am uploading photos for past few months. Sorry for such a long time to upload photos I promised will update as soon as i got photos to upload. =D
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Hi blog,
Its thursday now, time passed really passed in a speed which we will never realized. (Thats the reason why we always late for something =X)
Now going to be the end of Week 3, yet i still have nothing to show to the Supervisor. We been wasting our times in.. Playing? Studying? Talking? Actually.. Its everything =X Haha.. Amazing we could so many things when we should be stressing about our project.
Actually, i just got this feeling that in the end we could finish our stuffs. I think thats what pushing me till this happy state =D
Haha.. Today i late for 35 mins, hate the government which choose such timing to construct the expressway. Sianz.. I took total 2hour and 15 mins to reach school. Wai Ting also another victim, even Nurrudin also. Guess those lived at north surely late for today. Sad for them also for me =X
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Hi blog,
Not a very satisfactory day as cant finished what i wanted today make me not happy =X Well.. Haha..
This is the 3rd week since the start of my MP, yet after a fast progress.. We beem stuck on the same place like 2 weeks already. Thats really worried me, but i know our team efficiency going to bring us back to the pace. Hee.. Lol..
My phone this recently have some stupid problems.. Grr.. People send me message but i unable to know who is it. If not because i can roughly guess who is it, i gonna spent alot of time just to check contacts and reply correctly. (I dont remember people's phone =X)
Haiz.. Life getting 'No Life' How sia.. Where my thrills >.<
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Hi blog,
Really a waste of time in school, go school see see, play play.. Really waste of time. Although i am like investing, but its still a risk.
Learning Computer Programming- Visual Basic, for the usage of the project. But we like headless worm as we dont even know whether we doing the right things anot. Yea.. Really taking a risk, we are investing as in learning the right thing but not sure is it really going to be useful. Haiz..
But guess what? I not regret about taking this project wor.. Lol.. Perhaps the mindset i have =D Love to challenge!! Woot.. Lol.. haha.. Crapping here =X Lol..
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Hi blog,
Today was with a big group of friends, ex-classmates and gamers.. Wait.. its all gamers =X Haha.. Was so fun today, we catch a movie, have pool game and had delicious snacks. Of course I didnt missed out having LAN games =D Haha..
Today went out early to buy tickets for IRON MAN!! For the gangs.. Woot.. But i late =X Meet up with kianhui, Joseph, Derick and go to The Cathay. Luckily i remembered how to walk to there, therefore not need for a change of venue.
Wait for the rest of the people.. IYeu, Wei Bin, Ying Haur and zhi hao. Lol.. Big group isnt it? Anyway no need to know so much details just go straight to the highlights. The Iron Man is a must watch movie!! Its really nice!! Haha..
After the movie we go for lunch and we spent long time to decide where should we go. If i was not there, i guess they surely go Lan again.. I suggested for Pool ^^ Hehe.. Was fun playing Pool with me being the big winner =P Of course happy..
After the pool we went for dessert. Its famous for its Tou Hua.. Hmm.. how to translate to english? I dont know haha.. Then they wanted to watch soccer, so me and kianhui sneak to Plaza Singapura while they walking away. Tio I Yeu discovered and whack us lol.. Then we 3 people went for Lan while the rest watch Soccer.
My comeback for DOTA is today ^^ So happy as its a victory for my first game. Lol.. After a long 90mins game we went home and thats the end. Oh ya.. Almost forgot about i with kianhui, i yeu and joseph went to macdonald have our dinner which is already supper.
Ya.. its just all these things happened today. Think was quite tired and due to the stupid hot weather nowadays caused my skin condition not that good. Haiz.. Make my post like in a rush. Lol...
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Hi blog,
Woot.. I finally got back my laptop, yet the first thing i get is to leave it at home and play basketball. For the past few days didnt even use my laptop, just use it at school and bring home collect dust. XD
Anyway these few days wasnt good. Cause was in stress on how to deal with allocating tasks with my teammates. See how my teammates attitudes doesnt really make me happy. Yet I must all take it in. Of course, i am happy cause i with my best friends in the class already.
Not complaining now, just feel stupid that why I should get stressed on nothing for them to do which is not stress on i am unable to do the project now. This really make me so stress.
I was feeling stress on relationship handling instead of school works. I was keep thinking how to allocate tasks to my teammates, how to let them feel better with our jobs, what i shouldnt show to prevent them feel uncomfortable, what i should handle on their emotion to let them feel happy. In the end all forced me to a very stressed state.
Of course i always the nice nice guy that wont get angry but actually i do! But just short while, think really a useless leader. Make me feel really useless, although they didnt say anything, i am sure they sure regret we took this top-notch project. If its a solo project really is nothing, but i cant do solo this time. I need to let them do things yet i hate to see their attitude make me so stress with everything.
But luckily, I seem back to normal again. Quite lucky, cause we starting to have progress on the project allow me to have time to think more on all these.
So now its going smoothly so its not a problem now. Okay le, just finished my basketball with 2 injury. Elbow and lip injury (All because the 'MVP' >.<)
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com
Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me
What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D
What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.
I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...
What i want...
*Be happy forever
*Have the N91 phone
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*A laptop
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*Friends that really care
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam