Hi blog.. was really tired now.. haven slept yet.. and currently at school canteen now.. although got took a nap while doing homework with leong.. but still an abnormal action in a normal live.. and of course will tired.. leong able to finished it.. but i cant.. cause something happened to my laptop.. which really make me frustrated....
Was doing my japanese script writing.. when finished, should be around 5 by that time.. i wanna rest awhile.. then took a comic and read.. while leong still struggling.. then i think i fall asleep while reading.. too tired le after all.. then cant wake up.. lol. keep struggling to get up.. failed and fall asleep again.. till 9pm.. haiz.. wasted 4 hours for nothing.. then wake up.. wanna start work.. yet dont know when i "wake" the laptop up.. the laptop network system malfunction.. totally cannot use. i was like gonna go crazy... until 11 plus.. i finally solved it.. but the motivation gone le.. haiz.. but i still forced myself to finish some part... although i didnt write out the thing i required to do for my part.. but think still okay ba... hope today the meeting could be smooth... did everything by the time of my appointment.. yea its monday again.... Fan Logging off.....
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Hi blog... Been long never blog.. cause sleep early.. and work on my homework till very tired.. although not a rushing stuff.. since i got a late deadline... so actually can slowly do it.. but feel like want to finish it soon so i can concentrate on my studies.. all these while been slack like no tomorrow (Exaggerated 1 of course, quite true) hmm.. lets recount what i done these few day....
27th of july..
Was doing the comprog lab.. first 1 to complete.. but what i happy is i able to do out the program without the book!! woo.. haha.. but cause too fast complete.. made 1 stupid mistake cause me never get full mark.. haiz.. too bad.. but hack care.. since my overall score is way too high le =D.. then do project....
Was like total mess lol.. since we doing at the free access lab.. so the comp was like in a line.. so its noisy.. lol.. then we actually didnt planned what to do.. and so anyhow do... in the end we did not much yet not little kind.. haiz... cause i need to leave at 2pm for my appointment.. forgot actually.. so no choice.. leave after having the lunch with them....
Nothing much.. very smooth.. then went home.. all the while doing the comprog project.. though easy.. yet actually is i think too little of it.. i almost killed all my brain cell.. and i sleep at 3am.. doze off to be exact....
28th of july..
Was whole day continue my comprog till 6pm derick asked me play basketball.. then need to do errand for my brother.. and return something.. so i ride my "long time never touch" bicycle.. and ride all the way till 9 then reach the basketball court.. busy man.. play few match only light close..
was having a long long personal chat with leong till now.. then he need to do project.. yet the environment of his house not good.. so he come my house overnight.. sleep then do.. lol.. he at my house at least better than his house.. thats what he think.. also what i think.. lol.. anyway now abit tired too.. lol.. but think i finish my jap script before i go sleep....
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Thats all what happened this few days.. as the long chatting.. is personal so i wont say out what we chatted.. anyway.. again... if you read till here.. thanks you again.. hehe.. Fan Signing off.....
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Hi blog.. today was a happy school day.. cause today everything is so smooth. which i totally cant believe it.. i even screamed.. lol.. lets see what happened actually....
Today morning went to TP as usual with siangyee... reach quite early.. yet cause i got a comprog test later.. make me quite nervous.. so i keep want to study.. siangyee said want go suft net.. so went to a free access lab.. and i put down my belonging at the class i in and followed him.. but in the end.. i studied nothing.. then times up i parted way with siangyee at the free access lab and went to my comprog lab..
So smoothly.. everything so easy.. except the teacher lame.. or is me lame la.. i bo liao go extend the sentence.. make it more nicer.. and the answer still the same... "decrease by 1" which the original answer is "-1" yet teacher mark me wrong -.- craps la.. even if i bo liao also no need mark me wrong de ma.. full mark like this gone.. why i not happy? because i caused others lose their full mark too.. they believed in me and copied what i written down.. which i already said dont.. but haiz..luckily i helped them alot.. so at least not that guilty.. quiz was easy too.. but if i got studied.. full mark is definetly.. too bad.. who tell me go read the short story siangyee sent me =D lol.. not your fault la siangyee.. haha..
Then the rest of the time i was with dennis.. we really chat very long.. this time just we 2.. and we chatted alot alot of things.. all personal.. so no saying out =D..
Then went to eaud lecture.. cause dennis lesson startrf at 2pm mine at 3pm.. haiz.. really hate this feeling of separating.. lol.. then i slept in the lecture.. when finished.. i was so tired that i also want to pon lesson.. ( Cause layteng, shuhui and victor ponned) then but.. reluctantly.. we went up.. when i and zunzun first went in... we screamed!! 1 male and 1 female screamed.. lol.. no dirty stuffs la.. cause its a excitement scream.. cause.. the tutorial is cancelled!!! just as what i want!! we 2 so happy that we forgot whether got people anot and just scream!! lol.. luckily no people at all.. and we so happily went off.. cause i still need to wait siangyee.. so i go library with zunzun..
chatted alot too.. cause only we 2.. then she told me alot.. i teach her alot of philosophy.. lol.. kanna faked by siangyee.. though should end at 4.. but its turned out to be 5.. the lab test.. in the end i went to the lab to find him.. there struggling.. lol..
Shopping!! lol.. its been long i went for shopping.. and i dont really expert in shopping.. then i walk into Men Master.. lol.. bought a jeans and a t-shirt.. which costed me $92.70 >.<.. haiz.. but its nice.. so worth it.. haha..
was like hoping to see someone.. yet didnt appeared.. think really fate toying with me le.. sad.. just talking craps.. Fan Logging off.....
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Hi blog.. sorry.. was like busy on the stuffs.. then was really very tired.. so yesterday.. slept for 12hours till today 6am.. then went to school at 10am.. but well.. lets say about the feelings i have these few days....
The last post mentioning i as at school.. but yet.. i rush back to the funeral side.. was told the sending start at 2pm.. so i prepared to leave at 12pm plus. then i called my mom.. its said starting soon... its 12pm by that time.. so i no choice i rush.. i keep pray i could reach there on time.. the time i stepped out the Sembawang MRT station.. i recieved a call say its started.. and i run there.. tired.. but actually didnt start.. but.. the atmosphere is really very sad.. my mom was crying.. and i was like want to console her dont cry.. but i think.. let her cry better.. anyway tears are meant to cried out.. just that cried that day.. the next day must start our live happily.. so i didnt console her.. but stand beside her closely and hug her.. i really think i blessed by my uncle.. think he hoped i could be around with my mother.. my small brother and big 1 surely dont know how to handle these stuff.. dont know why.. they too unconcerned? anyway i cant cry that time.. still abit happy i reach there in time..
Sending started.. we walk out to the road.. taken off 1 lane of the road.. everybody.. 7/8 people happily walking, the rest is either crying or sad face.. of course my mom cried again.. i held her closely and walk her slowly on the way.. the cousin i mentioned.. was also crying, and she got her aunts holding her.. can see the sorrow.. reach the place where they wanna burn (Dont know the particular word for that).. its really sad.. heard her cried out "Papa treat me very well!" all these kind of touching yet pierce-heart words.. i really want to cry.. but dont know why cant cry out.. maybe because when sec3 i swear not to cry again? i dont know.. and i dont know how to console the 2 child of that family.. in the end i leave a message for them.. they replied with a thank you... at least i know my effort didnt gone to drain.. all siangyee's help.. if he didnt encourage me.. i also cannot do even the smsing..
Reach home.. then sleep.. all the way till next morning.. but dont want to go for lecture.. really tired.. heart also.. then decided to go school at 10am.. and i was studying the japanese furiously.. even qiaofeng said first time see me so anxious.. ya.. normally if even i studied a bit.. i wont show any anxious expression.. guess i really make a fool.. lol.. anyway the test turned out fine.. i pass!! haha.. then have dinner with qiaofeng and went home....
Actually wanna blog the moment i reach home.. then yi using.. then big bro snatched.. ZzZ.. end up i need to wait till now then can use.. i wanna study de!! haiz.. now need to burn midnight oil le.. so sad.. hope tomorrow the comprog is smooth too.... wish me good luck ^^ Fan Signing off.....
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Hi blog.. today really a way tiring day.. actually at school blogging.. well.. not attending lesson as i got a LOA.. which actually decided just awhile ago.. planned to go for lesson.. but too tired.. so before that what i doing....
Actually stayed overnight at the funeral side.. cause my family is there.. so i as while go there.. so sleep the whole afternoon to make me last for the whole night and the next day school.. obviously i failed.. at there.. i went there with my big brother.. then the time we reach there.. i need to do the praying stuffs with all the relative.. (For the buddhist should know what i saying) then got second round after awhile.. was like idling.. then after finish everything.. included burning..
i was at a corner playing with the poker cards.. then all the cousins surrounded me and suggested play poker.. then we go a corner.. all youngster go there.. lol.. and we played black jack.. and i lose $3 >.<... after whole lots of fun.. we went for supper.. when back.. i go take the shift (To continuously burn the incense paper) then the daughter of the 3rd uncle.. wanted help me cook cup noodles.. i was surprised.. as i didn't dare to console her.. yet she happily wanna help me.. then we sit down have a long chat... then she really tired so i tell her go sleep.. since she have been alot of nights never sleep well..(I guess if i were her also cant sleep)
The rest of the hour i was studying.. yet nothing goes in.. so 7.30 my big brother drive me back home to prepare for school.. then met siangyee.. and he suggested to use the death certificate as a LOA.. so i straight did that.. but i dont feel good let siangyee alone go.. since he waited me.. so i go with him....
Now happily blogging and updating blog stuffs.. so make a big update at the link side.. well.. just telling you all.. anyway really tired.. going have a lunch with siangyee later then i went back home to join the funeral stuff.... thats all.. long post.. haha.. thanks for reading till here... ^^ Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->11:00 AM
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Hi blog.. today really a mixed emotion.. half happy.. half sad.. oh.. still add on with exciting and anxious feelings.. really mixed.. lets start with the dinner with derick and joseph..
Planned to meet them at 6.30pm.. then we meet up and go to eat.. yet my thoughts are far away from their conversation.. i keep think about my 3rd uncle.. even we eat finish i still didnt chat much.. but half is because i wanna talk lesser now.. then when we walk to basketball court.. i realized a very important thing.. my handphone is not with me!!! i was like scolding "NO! no! NOOOOOOO!" i was very anxious.. i dont know where i left it at.. and no choice i sprint.. cause normally i am a very lazy person.. no matter what stuffs.. i wont run that fast.. but that road to find the phone i was like run way too fast.. then i was like very fortunate.. some kind man having dinner at the table we just had helped me kept the phone.. i was thank god thank that person.. at least i know someone still kind there.. and i realized.. i actually start getting lucks.. no more bad lucks this recently.. just hope this continue.. not mean the handphone missing and back.. i will get heart attack.. but the luck.. i think i was way unfocused.. think too much probably.. this is the first time i actually leave something so important on a table.. i always keep is so safetly.. most of the things i lost is because dropped out instead of misplaced.. at least i know when i at outside...
When play basketball.. my left hand injured by alot of factors.. derick super kick.. huat super pass, and players super stab.. all on my left hand.. pain pain.. shooting was badly affected.. all want go in then come out.. very furious.. oh ya.. at least huat played with me.. but can feel the anger la.. hope he will think through it.. haiz..
When at the funeral.. which i rushed home and come out as soon as i reach home.. never bath.. haiz.. actually was so sad.. cause 3rd uncle actually treat us very good.. and i cant imagine he will do such thing.. i dont know how to console.. the son which is same age as me.. and his daughter which i in past keep play with.. i mean we lost touch so long.. yet shouldnt be even 1 word also not said.. i was very lousy is it? haiz.. i see her so sad almost cried.. i wanna go up also cannot.. same to the son.. me the only teenager cant do anything... i promised.. tomorrow must walk up to them... really sad.. and i must more treasured my families..
Actually met my father.. which those who know my family situation.. we chat alot.. all is my stuffs.. he asked alot.. i actually got a urge of hug him.. i mean.. i am a kind of person like to show my love to family.. very sticky.. to my mother and father.. yet my father leave us.. and i dont know how to do that.. chat awhile stop le.. and he leave afterward.. haiz..
So actually today really mixed feelings.. most happy stuff is.. know there is kind person which give me back my handphone.. if i really lose it.. i think i will.. not suicide but somethings near to that... haiz.. stop here.. days will be fine.. Fan Logging off.....
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Hi blog.. today actually wake up quite late.. 3pm =X lol.. cause was like very tired.. didnt sleep for the past 25hrs.. so i grabbed th chance to sleep.. and when wake up.. i actually dont know what to do.. want to work on homework.. yet no mood.. then wanna play.. also dont feel like....
Yesterday actually saw Sportlink hiring people.. i suddenly got the urge to go there work.. yet i cant change the situation i having now.. now is crucial period.. now suddenly add a schedule "work" surely make a chaos out of my life.. so i decided to keep the urge.. faster get over the exam.. and work the hell of my life.. i must earned at least 2 thousands.. after the next sem over.. thats like dont know how many months.. think sure can.. but hope the schedule is like this semester.. damn slack.. well.. just hope so....
Just recieved a call.. from my mom that my 3rd uncle suicide.. which i cant believe if such things happened to my life.. although as i said i not very close to any of my relatives.. yet they always remember me.. already make me ashamed of myself.. cause i dont know why.. they always cared about me.. and yet.. now suddenly 1 of my uncle leave the world.. i didnt feel anythings.. am i bad.. i dont know.. i promised derick them later play basketball.. is that more bad? think i really need to be more matured about these stuffs.. i still dont know why its happened.. hope i know soon.... blog later.. Fan Signing off.....
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Hi blog.. today is seriously a tiring day.. cause i never sleep just to finish a flowchart.. well.. can blame myself for keep not concentrating.. if not finished like 5-6 hours ago.. haiz.. but had a great time chatting with friends i missed.. like Dennis.. haha.. anyway today keep sleep.. then when all lesson ended.. qiaofeng is like dragging a zombie around (zombie is me) lol.. too tired.. but luckily i learnt something i need.. netfund.. lol.. used the free access lab the school opened specially for us..
When 2pm.. i need to go.. well.. NSC again... and amazingly i met a person which i never see for months.. sini!! lol. she so pathetic when she carrying the heavy big board to board the bus.. lol.. and so coincidence we took 518 together.. here the funny parts.. i at first cant recognise her.. as she look more and more pale each time i see her.. but totally i met her in school and outside since KFC period is only 5 times.. lol.. so cant recognise her is like should be de la.. haha.. anyway i pity that girl.. thats what i think.. but when saw the side face.. i feel familiar already.. then board the bus.. i confirmed.. and shouted sini.. lol.. haha its really her lor.. cant imagine we meet up in bus -.-.. so we had alot to chat.. but well.. i need to get off the next stop at novena.. so our total spent time together was just mere 30mins.. haiz.. she poor things.. but well.. at least i know she still able to chat with me.. unlike my other friends.. when never meet for long time.. what they can say is hi.. haiz.. kind of life i having..
actually today really an amazing day... i think.. should be.. i in love with a girl already.. cause.. its fate.. i been meeting her for alot of times.. whether is in school.. or outside.. even took the same bus.. and today when i leaving causeway point.. i meet her again....
But really Fate toying us.. why cant its let me meet her inside the mall.. so we could walk together until i need to go off.. why must when i decided to go off already then meet her.. i dont have any excuse to get close.. and we chat awhile and departed.. so sad.. then i recieved a call.. which allowed me stay at causeway point more longer.. okay.. this how i concluded i in love.. i actually went back to causeway to search for that girl!!! and i was so desperate minded.. cause this is the first time i wanna find someone when and my heart actually skipped when saw her...
I am not 100% confirm whether i in love with her.. yet i am going crazy to search for her.. although really fate let me saw her.. yet is in distance.. times up and i got to go... okay.. i know what is the love feel like.. yet i never felt before.. to be exact.. love cant be describe.. so i actualy dont know.. whether what i am doing....
Little Thoughts
People said "why so lazy all the time.. no matter is in work or life.. should you go find some motivation.."
i asked.. "what is the motivation?"
"GirlFriend?" they said..
is it true? i been having a fate that no girls would want to befriend me.. and i totally dont have fate with girls.. everytime got bad stuffs happened.. or they automatically avoided me.. i mean fate allowed that avoidance... and so i could seem to be more biased when treating a girl and a boy.. cause i been leading such a life.. but i think i am psychologically crazy.. but to be frank..
when you asked me how many buddies.. i could said none.. or maybe just 2.. and when asked me good friends.. i said dozen? but when you ask me.. how many among the friends you have is female.. i could answered that immediately.. less than 30%!! its seem to be so bad.... Mingfan is going crazy.. ya.. really crazy...
Stop thinking so much.. reminded myself.. and thats should stop my writing.. sorry for long post.. and thanks for keep visiting.. people like jack and siangyee.. they actually really keep come to my blog.. whereas those who promised me never come at all.. but dont worry.. i will keep my promise by keep visit your blogs.. remember to pay me back that favour with your tag on my tagboard ^^ Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->8:49 PM
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Hi blog.. today is a very short day.. although got the quiz which having funny stuffs.. lets see.. morning got a ComProg then is a lecture.. which i wasnt listening cause i wanna study the BLDSAA quiz.. cause i never study before.. lol.. so lets study.. thats what i think.. then keep study till the time up..
Time to go for quiz.. but the paper is totally different from what i studied.. dead? no... cause we played cheat.. just a 10 mark paper.. so actually.. stupid.. haha.. but well.. is teacher bo liao.. why must have quiz.. wasting time till now le.. tutorial didnt prepare nicely for us.. still anyhow set stuffs for us.. new subject is new subject.. haiz.. then the next lecture is EAUD.. which i wanted to skip.. but well.. just 1 hour this time.. so dont feel like.. and i end up drawing in the lecture hall.. wow.. the feeling of holding the pencil and draw what i want.. is so cool... also.. thats the drawing i gonna used for my next blogskin.. cause was busy.. so actually didnt even change a single thing on my blog.. those frequent visitor should know.. anyway.. days really short.. tutorial ended really early.. 2 hours lesson ended just 40mins past a hour.. lol.. so went back home...
Now need to do my comprog flowchart.. teacher said it good enough.. so i just make it nice.. cause my handwriting too small that even teacher said need magnifying glass to see... lol.. okay.. stop here.. days still fine.. hope this will continue.... Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:11 PM
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Hi blog.. today was a really tiring day.. first thing to start is already wake up early but leave late cause keep lie on bed.. till 6.30am.. then went down.. of course wont late.. but just dont feel good... Reach the lab together with layteng and qiaofeng.. met layteng on the way there and qiaofeng outside the lift.. lol.. then the lab stuffs very messy.. then got test coming soon.. yet i totally blur blur.. first time computer stuffs i having trouble with it....
Then the lectures i sleep like log.. sleep till just nice the time.. then for japanese tutorial luckily we finished the script in time.. so a burden dropped off.. now what i need to do is try to finish other important stuffs.. and after that slowly complete all the stuffs in the end.. so i got plenty of time to prepare for final exams.. i need to think in this way.. hope i could try out....
Actually this recently.. i been feeling very down.. yet i keep cover myself with laughter and actions which actually cant be made by me.. like making laughing stock, joke with others.. especially today.. its like i am damn noisy.. whats is going wrong with me.. i really dont know.. i need to let myself feel better.. yet i dont know how... hope things turned out to be fine.. soon... I wish to be myself.. really.... Fan Signing off.....
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Hi blog.. today quite a nice day.. well.. to start with is BCMGT cancelled without informing.. but have a nice chat with qiaofeng and layteng.. within that 1 hour.. and the next hour we decided to move off.. since we sure know Donald not coming anyway.. lol.. then i helped layteng and qiaofeng finished the Flowchart for computer Programing..
But that doesnt applied to me.. haiz.. i understand theirs but not mine.. lol.. too hard le.. but well i solved it in the end of the day.. so thats what i happy of.. overall today is such a nice day.. of course main stuffs i been doing in school is sleeping.. lol.. haha.. then took 969 with qiaofeng back to woodlands and that end the day..
Today is Sini 19th birthday, lol.. everyone can celebrate their birthday so early.. i got to wait so long.. althought its the same 1 year.. but i just feel envy =D.. haha anyway Happy 19th birthday!! Fan Signing off.....
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Hi blog.. was tired yesterday and didnt blog.. well.. yesterday is a nice outing with my polytechnic friends.. yet all the mood been destroyed by a person.. damn sickening.. but well.. forget it.. i must learn to be more forgiving and stop think so much...
Yesterday went to watch Harry Potter with my poly friends.. cause its was hard to meet each other.. of course more harder to go out.. so i decided to plan this small outing.. well.. meet them at ang mo kio mrt station and we went to AMK Hub.. buy tickets first.. then went to macdonald eat and then go the pool i always went to with lyesia them.. have alot of fun.. but deproved alot.. haiz.. the movie was nice.. but not nice enough.. can be more better.. why so short this time.. and shouldnt cut off so many part from the book.. but well.. maybe because last few series all been watching 3 hours per series.. now 2 hours.. not used.. haha..
Bad things.. someone called me play basketball.. yet i just rejected 2 times.. he not happy and say i didnt change, attitude.. blah blah blah.. and i just humilated him by words again.. so angry.. just 2 days he not happy already.. he tell me to change.. yet himself still the same.. haiz.. i apologise to him doesnt mean he my boss.. think really my fate to have all bad things happened to me.. no matter how good or bad i did.. i just look like deserved all these..
After give him a scolding.. i still feed sad.. thats so freak la.. but of course.. i could have let him.. then wont have such big argument.. am i right to let him or i should just shoot off.. well.. i did say i must be frank.. yet if i let him.. i really like "what you know" haiz..
Today funny things happened.. as i went to school.. Adrian suddenly said" Do you love ______? " i am what the o.0? what i answered is no.. cause whether is or not.. i always dont know about this things.. but i say no cause is to avoid misunderstanding plus bad reputation for that girl.. and he asked whether she like me anot.. -.- thats why all "no" appeared.. was damn weird he suddenly shoot out all these.. did he expect me say yes infront of layteng and yvvone? haiz..
stop all the craps now.. i want GF, yet i am a shy boy and so fate is what i seeing now.. say i stupid say i fool.. all i am.. even treating friends.. they bad or good.. i still treat them as.. haiz.. foolish am i.. please got someone teach me.. what should i do.. whether in friendship or in personal life.. i gonna gone bonker!!! Fan Logging off.....
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Hi blog.. today very happy.. first time experience cycling in night with around 60-70 people.. too shiok... also quite tired.. since i didnt sleep the previous night.. plus this night.. i totally go up the line with 2 days never sleep.. but yet.. i still 1 of the fastest.. woot.. haha.. actually is i lucky got a good bike.. but that bike compared to my bike.. is world apart.. maybe is my bike good.. lol.. not used to it.. lol.. but while.. i still have fun.. since this a long post.. consists 2 post.. so please dont mind its long.. read it for curious.. if not just tag my board i happy le =D
So actually went for my check up at Novena.. then meet i yeu at causeway at 5 if not wrong.. xiaojun appeared to be with yeu at that time.. so we chat along the way in 913 then.. then when reach home we played 1 match of dota before went to NeeAnn polytechnic.. sianz.. since yeu is the organiser.. means i was left alone there play his psp.. -.- for 2 hours!! haiz... luckily.. joseph came after that 2 hours.. wee... his friends most of it i know de.. from battlenet... haha.. so we happily chatting.. lol.. actually alot of stuffs happened when getting the bike.. 1 and joseph plus 1 more guy ying haur almost cannot get bike.. lol.. but luckily we got.. haha.. anyway the journey start at 11....
First part..
Wa.. the first part is the most difficult 1.. cause the slope is way alot.. and damn steep.. everybody tired because of that.. lol.. but also dangerous.. lol.. but the feeling is shiok.. the resting place is west coast park.. the macdonald.. wee...
Second part..
hmm.. more shiok and exciting.. cause we riding through road with cars.. got honked alot.. lol.. but after that quite okay le.. since we go into industrial area.. then the destination is harbour front.. actually i and joseph kanna isolated afterward.. cause joseph tired.. i think.. then he ride very slow.. dont wanna call him ride faster.. so i accompany him.. lol.. but we still ride fast when near the next destination.. Harbour front interchange... was using the big area to try reach the speed we didnt reach just now.. lol.. actually should be resting.. but we 2 cannot rest.. haha.. anyway start after a 20 minutes break...
Third Part..
this seem to be easy already.. we start to ride on the road now.. since almost no cars.. of course.. i and joseph is always the last people.. lol.. haha cool to ride slow or fast.. just depend we want anot.. its just pure fun.. haha.. so the destination is Lao Pat Sar.. but things go wild when we almost reach.. since the desintation is at city hall area.. even time like 3am still got cars.. got honked way alot.. lol.. but well.. things still okay.. haha.. reached.. lol.. 50 mins break.. was abit long.. but well. cause got people need to eat.. so no choice.. we went to 7-eleven to buy drink.. cause the serious problem we got is thirst... then.. break over.. lets go....
Fourth Part..
wei bin sad case.. cause he got to ride a double seater bike alone.. cause somebody go off.. so no choice.. and at that moment.. we address him as president... and we act as bodyguard.. got 6 rider total.. so just nice.. the pattern.. lol.. very shiok for this last part.. cause the road are damn long and no cars.. but i and joseph as usual slack.. until we forgot to "protect" the president.. he is gone.. i mean all our friends gone.. lol.. so i and joseph decided to rush.. max speed!!! lol.. damn fast that we past all riders.. but still cant find them.. then we reach a short break area..(its often we got a short break) then we saw them.. we still very fast.. but we just didnt realize that we actually quite close to them already.. but well.. after that short break.. we goes on.. this time we stick to them already.. they fast we fast.. haha.. anyway finally.. we reach east coast park.. final destination.. i and joseph plus i yeu dont wanna return bike.. the rest returned their bikes.. we 3 chiong the max speed.. woot i the fastest.. since my bike is abit better compared to them.. lol.. anyway have tons of fun.. we had breakfast at macdonald and we went home by bus..
Been sleeping from morning 10plus till 8pm.. cause too tired.. since i 2 day never sleep.. but why i wake up is because huat called me to play basketball but i rejected.. then from that time onward.. i awake... lol.. haha.. okay long post.. those who read till here.. please must say at tagboard.. cause i really happy got people like me who always read other people long post till end.. haha.. but most important is.. i know you are my friends.. thank you!! =D Fan Signing off.....
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Hi blog... sorry.. again neglected.. well.. i been sleeping seriously in class.. like i was learning how to sleep.. haiz.. any kind of lessons also can sleep.. damn great i am.. whether its in past or now.. haiz.. anyway today nothing much happened....
Go school early as usual.. but siangyee just wake up.. then i still need to wake for him.. like about 20mins.. the time he arrived.. caused me need to run -.-.. cause when he arrived.. didnt even say good morning.. what he said is 969!! and he ran off.. ZzZ.. anyway very tired when the lesson start.. and fall asleep soon.. which i say i shouldnt.. this time is teacher wake me up.. but he didnt like say too much, just a "good morning, didnt sleep is it?" like this only... unlike when he treat others.. so what a relieved.. maybe thats the result having good performance in class..
Anyway then when break came.. i went to cyber centre to fix my laptop problem.. the problem is what i know and i tried to fix but cant.. how come he can sia.. but well.. at least i know what the problem.. getting better at computers... haha... then went to library meet back dennis them.. which dennis grab my laptop and take songs... lol.. didnt use much.. then BLDSAA time.. just listen presentation.. oh.. good news is.. our team is the last team to present.. haha.. this time not by lucky draw.. but booking.. lol.. haha.. so really got plenty of time now..
Dismissed.. bought dinner for yi and myself, and until now i was slacking.. and then.. i remembered about my discussion about school life now with qiaofeng.. as now we really damn slack.. damn free... but yet actually we got things to do.. all these make us more lazy.. we need to buck up now.. if not its too late.. yet i just dont have the feeling.. and i seriously lacked the motivation.. haiz... when can someone motivate me.... Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:02 PM
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Hi blog.. today is a nice day.. haha.. what i mean.. got a hair cut.. great improvement in my shooting skill in basketball.. and.. have fun... haha.. so today as usual its Monday..
So i got to go NSC.. haiz.. actually wanna take bus to there.. lazy to walk the far distance from novena station to NSC.. took me 13 mins.. but well.. cant get up.. lol.. wake up in time yet fall asleep again.. so in the end i just wake up for the time which i able to reach in time by MRT and walking.. haiz.. Nothing much except the payment time damn funny.. cause the clinic is busy.. tell me go another clinic in NSC to pay.. then i wait damn long. i thought finally i can go home early this time.. all because the waiting.. haiz.. then finally my turn but i don't know is mine.. cause the Indian nurse dont know how to pronounce my name.. totally not my name.. then i don't care.. but when missed.. i waited like 10 minutes more, she call another Malay nurse to read for me.. pronunciation is correct.. and then i know just now the Indian woman are trying to call me.. what the heck... and she like not happy i didnt react... kao.. forget it.. then i leave after paying...
Nothing much when going back by bus unlike last time.. lol.. then i meet chee leong at causeway to go aunty winnie house cut hair.. then yeu come to find me ask for money for night cycling stuffs.. and then go joseph house which is 3rd floor of the same block as where we cut our hair..
Then basketball time.. i just love it.. lol.. i like getting back the past shooter skills.. totally very good for me today.. lol.. and then usual break.. go buy drink and go to lyesia's block 1 of the table slack and chit chat..
so thats all for today.. haha.. tomorrow.. going to be late go home.. cause i need to discuss the japanese script thingy.. haiz.. tiring.. okay.. Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->12:41 AM
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Hi blog.. today is a sad day.. not me being the most upset.. but the 1 i supported.. alan.. haiz.. actually was quite an amazing day ended with a disappointment fullstop.. so sad... lets talk about what happened in morning...
As i said.. not going to sleep.. going to support fully without going to be late due to overslept.. so i reach.. leong actually didnt late.. but caile the 1 late.. lol.. thats actually amazing.. cause knew leong for 7 years.. didnt even remember he got so punctual before.. and then when i ask him why such changes.. he say must see situation.. so a friend like me not important when i knew him 7 years.. oh great -.-.. anyway we though we late.. but we reached in time.. at zhenghua CC at segar LRT station there..
Being tricked.. as i already know alan need singer to support.. but i never expect he actually aimed us.. lol.. been tricked.. and we no choice.. i was like.. "i didnt even sang before!! how am i suppose to sing infront of others!!" i was keep thinking.. but well.. as a friend, i must do my best to let him win.. so no choice.. let my first singing honored him.. lol..
Okay.. he got to sing 2 songs.. 1 is a chinese song.. Can Fei.. another 1 must be a national song which is.. hmm... stepfanie sun sang it at 2002.. should be 'will i get there' anyway 1 is individual, 2nd is we need to go up.. and only we three go up.. others dont want.. haiz.. so little people.. i died.. more worse.. i cant even remember the lyric.. okay.. after the first song sang.. we went up.. we like blur blur de.. take mic also give here and there.. then i just hold that mic and cai le hold 1.. of course main singer is alan.. cai le think die le.. all dont know how to sing.. but turn out.. i go and sing with no nervous.. and i was truly enjoyed.. cai le also dont believe.. keep say i fake her say i dont know how to sing.. lol.. but.. i think the judge dont want the supporter sound lor.. the mic totally no sound.. and they say perfectly alright.. freako.. dont say need supporter next time la.. anyway woot.. i like the feeling when i singing to the mic.. i cant believe that... lol.. perfectly great..
But the result.. was like.. damn biased.. i think la.. cause in 14 singers.. alan result is obviously the best.. cause alot people agreed his singing is nice!! but then the result turned out to be 2 girl win.. and 1 of the girl obviously lose him alot.. oh great.. sad alan.. he very sad i tried to cheer him up.. dont know its work anot.. but he bought a hat at causeway point.. so i dont know he masked up his feeling or he really put down.. anyway....
"Alan, if you reading. Hope you really able to put down this failure, as its not totally your fault to lose and dont let the emotion overrun you. Next time you will win!! Okay? Take this as a lesson, a lesson that you should actually win your current self next time. Emerged victorious. Always supported by me!!"
Okay.. now at home.. still very stressed.. cause my team member for japanese class wasnt cooperative.. i keep ask them they keep ignore.. finally 2 has cooperate... just hope other 2 can also do that.. i just hate to be leader.. its way too stress....
Honestly.. i still like the feeling of singing just now.. didnt know when i sing i never even get stage fright like when presentation.. its like "wow" but i think maybe the motivation of helping alan pushed me.. maybe i will never open my mouth and sing into the microphone again.. thats me... Shy Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->7:13 PM
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Hi blog.. very early to blog.. for this time.. cause previously kianhui was at my house staying till 5.45 before went home.. reason for staying is because he missed the last train to go home.. thats why.. so what goes on yesterday?
Went to play pool.. with lyesia, joseph choon huat and kianhui.. the same group of people just added dion and kaisia which 1 is cousin and 1 is brother of lyesia.. so they went there at 8.. i reach by 9.. cause my mom was late.. and so i was late.. cause i need to money to go out.. mom didnt leave any behind.. so no choice i need to wait.. anyway.. had fun.. the next is went back admiratly have our dinner which the time is 12.10am.. haha.. anyway after that they decided to go huat house overnight, then change to my house.. after that cancelled.. lol.. in the end only kian hui came to my house and play game till just now then leave..
so later going out to support alan on the singing compeition.. with leong and caile.. this 2 are the only 2 i know.. hmm.. hope all would be fine and alan would have his enjoyment and of course.. his victory.. haha.. so all the best alan... stop here now.. Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->6:03 AM
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Hi blog.. back from a break and also been forgiven.. though huat still look like angry with me.. but i think he willing to call me go play basketball and let me play yesterday make me realized.. he just dont want to show the "forgive you" face.. well.. i was glad.. of course lyesia forgive me liao.. as he joke with me again.. happy... so i now can say.. this blog is back to alive!! please come back and i promise i will strive to change to a better person. anyway in life we will keep change for better.. i will strive for that...
So as i said.. yesterday i was playing basketball.. then very tired after playing game so went to sleep.. today 5am wake up to go school... then having serious flu.. haiz.. then the aircon was again blowing hard cold at me.. i was like in cold country.. if not because the flu.. i think i surely will like the condition.. since i also wear a jacket for that... haha.. but too bad.. flu caused me totally freezed.. haiz.. totally brain freezed so = totally blur.. then i actually fall asleep in the lab.. lucky teacher never discovered.. but how i waken up? teacher called my name to ask me question.. lol.. i was like "oh my god.. whats the question? how i gonna answer?" lol.. lucky qiaofeng helped me.. tell me the question.. so i know how to answer... haha... anyway today whole day sleeping.. then about 2pm then take 518 to NSC..
Anyway on the way home alot of things happened.. well.. can say is funny.. or just fated.. lol.. as i want to go novena mrt station by bus.. cause i wanna learn so that monday from woodlands to there i know how to go.. but well.. never expect that the buses outside all never go there.. the first bus suggested me take 21.. and so i take it.. but the bus stop is like 2km away from the mrt station.. i am like "what the heck" but i happy when i saw i bus coming when i wanna walk there.. 851.. yishun.. haha.. so i took it.. like fated sia.. want to take MRT become take bus..
I alight at khatib mrt station.. since i can take 969,965,858 back to woodlands.. then really fated.. the bus came is 969.. always 969 when i was at yishun.. lol. anyway when i want to board the bus.. i dropped my wallet on the floor.. and when i want pick up.. just nice 1 girl was behind me.. and she accidentally stepped on my hand.. lol.. its wasnt hurt.. but she keep say sorry.. then we boarded the bus together.. cute i could say that girl.. but i wasnt wearing spec.. so wasnt really wasnt super clear.. then she stand beside me.. okay.. she keep looking at me.. i think she was guilty.. and then when reach yishun station.. then got alot of empty seats.. i already anticipated that.. since i took 969 like 1 and a 1/2 year.. haha.. then she also know it.. she took the seats behind me.. then when i sit down.. i was wondering really that fated mehz.. i haven even think the next thing.. suddenly a scratch attack from behind to my neck.. again its that girl.. and that girl laugh and say sorry sorry.. lol.. i was like.. "Fated.." but now actually if you ask me how its look.. the look is blurry in my memory..
Anyway after that funny incidents.. nothing much.. then i reach home le.. early right? for me to blog at this time.. ya.. long post.. since so long never blog.. always have a habit to 1 time typed alot.. so please dont mind.. anyway... really happy got so many good things happened after bad stuffs... and i glad to have my days back... okay.. time to stop.. i will be back again tomorrow.. probably.. Fan Signing off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->6:12 PM
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Push into grave by myself...
Hi blog.. my break is over.. i thought through alot.. and when my thoughts is and about to blog it out.. i realized the scolding appeared at my tagboard.. and i actually not angry that they humilated me.. actually.. was happy.. i mean.. i was wrong.. we are wrong.. why? we are not frank enough.. arent friends need trust to goes on to better relationship?
As they said.. i keep find excuses.. well.. half is true its just they dont believe.. most is i really find it.. okay.. by now they already know my skin condition.. yet you couldnt expect me say "my skin".. next day "my skin".. and then they sure say my skins the next time they speak with me.. i kind of hate it.. in school.. i already hide my condition from classmates.. cause i just hate people said about my skins.. so thats my explanation for the excuses.. and hereby i apologise...
And about why they never dont want call me out that day... i guess also my fault.. cause i humilated lyesia in the a game.. i guess thats what i did which made the big problem now.. and so.. i wanna apologise for that too.. cause whenever people make me suffer.. its kind of thought must be fair.. and so i will humilate him back.. and i really need to say i am sorry lyesia.. so no matter what you all say.. i take it for this week.. since its my fault..
But to be frank now.. i really hate being centre of the joke.. so please be kind about my thoughts...
Anyway both parties are wrong because we arent true to each other.. and for that i wasnt suppose to just blog my feeling and anger out that day... "Sorry."
Little Thoughts..
Actually, best friends made from the source trust after all.. yet i always failed to discover.. and cause of my 'everything keep to myself' characteristic.. i always failed to make friends understand me.. and i dont want to act the a 'self' to them anymore.. i wanna really be myself.. no more talk back.. no more tolerate.. if i really unhappy.. i try to say out.. instead of type it secretly.. i will try my best.. but need time.. no that i dont need help.. i wanna be the 1 i used to be.. and no need to act.. yet dont want people dont understand me... will you help me?
For now i really need the forgiving from lyesia and choon huat.. i wonder they will anot.. they now should be playing basketball.. and of course i wasnt invited.. but dont know when they back.. will they come my blog to see all this? i will stop blogging till they forgive me too... till then.. Fan Logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->8:25 PM
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Hi blog.. i today officially know that i wasnt acknowledged as a friend when talking about the best friend group of all.. i suddenly realized their childish acts.. and their ignorant.. its was so serious.. they actually disregard me as friends.. i mean.. people like huat, lyesia.. this kind of people.. what they think of me? surely is like a no need friends at all.. then did they think about what i always did for them? accompany, playing.. even lend help when they in trouble.. please.. (thats applied to all)..
What is abandon.. they just did it.. they say dont want call me out.. though is a joke.. and they really did when i did nothing at all.. and this make me think.. am i worthy to have friends? its doesnt hurt actually now.. i dont know why.. immuned? i suddenly think.. the friendship are decreasing instead of closing the gaps.. what do i need to do!!?? i already did so much for them.. i need to act talkative when with friends.. i need to do so many things so they wont think i indifferent from them.. and what i get? do i need to sacrifice my life so i could get what i want? i suddenly.. lost the momentum of my life.. i dont wanna to move on to get new friends.. neither do i wanna stay with my current friends.. i do need a rest..
What is friends.. is that something i forbid to have? there is no one actually understand me.. and now more worse.. am i so detestable? i dont wanna do anything for anyone now.. totally not at all.. mingfan is gonna take a break and please dont take him out again to suffer all the torments, thats applied to the blog.....
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Hi blog... guess what time i sleep? lol.. its 9am.. lol.. well.. if you seen yesterday post.. i go out have breakfast with derick and joseph.. the damn early breakfast.. then they suggested go derick house play.. and so i went there to.. sleep.. lol.. so cooling since got aircon.. haha.. they play winning eleven and i just sleep.. lol. i think until 9 then they wake me up and i go back home with joseph.. to continue my sleep.. all tired liao anyway.. when i wake up.. is 7pm.. lol.. actually was nudge up by my small bro.. which is a call finding me.. from huat asked want play pool.. i actually dont want.. but well.. go play for fun... its long time i touch the cue anyway.. lol..
The outing got lyesia, choon huat, joseph and kianhui.. so its 5 man.. lol.. anyway we went to Ang mo kio play.. tio scammed once we stepped out amk hub btw.. not really consider scammed.. but well..
Its a big bunch of adult roaming at amk.. damn alot.. all wearing white office suit.. then 2 approach us.. they said they studying a course... then they were told to left all their belonging at company and come out.. they are required to earn the money by begging and return back to office.. but obviously we tio scammed.. cause just return to office.. no need so much.. they stayed there for so long.. i personally gave them more than 1 dollar.. all because my friend sabo me.. i was hearing music by the way.. then i wanna walked away.. but they aimed the right person.. they stand there keep talk then actually is waiting the obviously most "rich" person.. haiz..
The place we played is at the amk interchange.. maybe to say is the ex-interchange.. just opposite.. its $5.. very cheap.. okay.. the game we played.. cause i long time never touch cue.. so actually was very lousy.. but i just lose 1 match.. lol.. so wasnt the lousiest.. hehe.. huat first time play.. he damn funny sia.. instead of learning the right way.. he played anyhow.. i mean really anyhow.. for example stab the ball instead of aiming.. and he still can score!! talented.. thats to be frank.. cause when we first time play.. probably cant even score properly.. lol.. anyway i had great time over there with them.. oh ya.. got 1 part i smack the ball when playing against huat.. as he start the ball.. then the white ball in the middle of all the balls.. so i did it for fun.. then what happened? alot of balls fly.. lol.. dont aim but smack.. then maybe its too hard.. alot of balls fly.. when all pick up.. we lacked 1 ball.. then i look in at the hole.. black ball actually went in!! lol!! thats really damn funny.. haha.. huat win.. we all congrat him.. haha.. then he say no fun.. he wanna play with me again.. lol.. anyway just had fun with them.. got photos will post it.. at the usual website.. those usual visitor should know... haha.. thats all.. play game time.. =D Fan Signing off.....
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Name -> Hu MingFan
Age -> Going 20 this year
Occupation -> Temasek Polytechnic Student
Birth date -> 19 OCT 1988
E-mail -> humingfan@hotmail.com
Never do that on me!!!
*Being looked down
*Being judged just by few stuffs
*Being criticised by friends
*Friends that never know my existence
*Cant do what i want
*Being forced to do what i dont like
*Friends that only care about themselves
*Friends that abandon me
What i love???
*Being praised on my performance
*Be with my friends
*Play with my friends
*Sports & Games
*Idling away
*Chatting
*Having a smooth day
*Laugh with my friends
*Blog Hopping =D
What am i truely???
Okay above listed were just my basic characteristic trait. But i dont think you could know me well from there.
Well, what i typed out now, is surely opposite of what you all think of me.
I am a quiet boy, true enough. But to avoid for friends to feel bored and embarrassed, i start conversation but the likelyhood is low. Force me chat with a topic. I will never say no to a chat.
Too helpful, considered a weakness to me but not to you all, right? Mostly what you all asked i will do it, as long i can. Of course i stil got some unwillingness sometimes.
Still a thrill seeker, you can make that out, and you will see my hyperactive side.
My talkative side? I am a cyber chatterbox.
A very negative boy and no compeition mindset. Motivate me, if not, you can win me as easy as 1.2.3. % being motivated is 20% unless u make me unhappy with u.
Look like blur boy, but can actually know how you feel, sensitive to emotions. Anything stirred, i can feel it.
A very secretive boy, say anything to me i will just keep it. Even my stuffs. I will never say out, dont try to make me say out, cause probably will hurt me afterward or you.
Too easy to satisfied, due to my lives, everythings hard to come by, so i will treasured every little things u gave me. Thanks.
Am i stupid? Thats up to you, but to be frank. I always a lazy person to start off, so no efforts and so, no result. Unless needed if not i wont show out what i know. The most wrong things to do is.. look down on me.
To be honest, i quite an good actor, cause you never know the true side of me, so just know it and deal with me. Thats a friend i really want...
What i want...
*Be happy forever
*Have the N91 phone
*Grow taller
*Slim down
*A laptop
*A own room
*s+uDy r00m
*Friends that really care
*Family that understand me
*Having a healthy lifestyle
*Get serious on my studies
*Study really hard for my exam