Wednesday, February 28, 2007
How could i let it happen again..
hi.. today is really a bad day for me.. not bad luck.. not bad fate.. its bad doings.. so what did i did? which i shouldnt did it again.. fall asleep.. isnt it a good things to fall asleep.. but think again if you are in exam.. yes.. happened again.. since O level.. and now again.. i cant believe that.. how could i fall asleep when i was energetic all the while.. even though i didnt sleep again.. but at least before that i slept 12 hours.. i really cant believe.. so what? i might failed.. not again... i just throw away my As again!! its not like i dont have the abilities.. its just.. all my fault.. thats the only sentence appear in my mind.. its seem that my university dream just ended too.. i have no one else to blame but myself.. i so hate myself cant do what i could do.. Esfac i didnt fall asleep.. i also didnt sleep at all.. Emaths too.. why.. so its really true... the more easy the paper.. the higher chance i fall asleep? is that what my brain telling me? i cant believe this things.. argh.. dont think anymore.. i still got IWD to go on.. currently at study room of tp library.. alone.. siangyee got urgent stuff.. so.. alone again... i called my friend to join me.. they said they will. but until now.. no news.. so.. loner indeed.. except siangyee.. there is no others i could stay very close... friends are indeed far.. but no matter what.. i will reach there with all my mights.....
Ended the storytelling at -->12:54 PM
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Friday, February 23, 2007
wonder why i gone for few days.. while.. laptop spoilt.. okay.. that just my luck.. on that day in school.. gonna use it while revising.. and what? spoilt unusually.. okay... it unusually u know? its so weird.. dont know is virus or what.. and the problem is the day before that i still using it.. and the minute i open in the morning.. in school.. kao.. and i spent the whole day repairing but no effort success.. and of course.. i didnt study.. my mood was badly affected... and yesterday.. i manage to study abit.. included today.. i didnt study well!!.. because the midnight i finally fixed it.. but i didnt sleep.. and so.. today study till fall asleep.. and only study for 2 more hours and go for exam.. haiz.. well.. didnt failed.. but there goes my As.. haiz.. but still okay la.. didnt feel very sad.. because all is my fault.. who tell me fall asleep.. haha.. but still very grateful that my laptop okay now.. haha.. stop here for now.. blog when i am free again... bye.....
Ended the storytelling at -->8:41 PM
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
Happy chinese new year to anyone who visit my blog.. well.. means they got heart.. still remember me.. haha.. actually i not that kind la.. no matter anot.. villain or good mans.. everyone must enjoy their traditional day.. as long they are chinese haha... lol.. today is really a tired day.. but actually dont know why so tired.. actually only got to 3 of my relative house.. and all 3 by car. except coming back we got to go back ourselves as big bro got date with his friends.. haiz.. always like this.. but well.. its okay.. quite envy he got appointments.. haha.. actually we very late then go out.. because. we dont know where to go at all.. well this year really dont feel like having chinese new year.. maybe i was too stressed.. who tell TP so gay.. where got study week only 2 days.. they really very gay.. haiz.. i really very happy to be in Tp for its great facility.. but just outside.. inside.. 1 comment.. the worst of all school... haiz.. so all day cant feel any festival mood.. so sad.. now at home playing with the dog.. well.. not mine.. but my brother.. its always appear when chinese new year.. haha.. this dog very noisy and hyperactive. but still like it.. and i like dog.. thats why i guess.. haha.. okay.. dont want to spoilt the mood with my naggy post.. haha.. happy chinese new year!!!
Ended the storytelling at -->11:16 PM
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Haiz.. today again a bad day.. no money to buy what i want.. and more worse in the end cant even buy the handphone too.. such a miserable state i in.. today as promised accompany chee leong go buy belt.. but i saw my belt at the price which normally affordable.. but i cant buy it.. so sad.. was waiting my brother to call me so could go down to the singtel shop at basement... but never expected.. my brother fall asleep when i went home.. which is now.. no wonder no reply.. the singtel shop already closed at 3.. so.. well.. another disappointment added.. really so sad.. i have wait for this opportunity for 9 months.. finally can.. but need to wait.. and now.. need to wait till end of chinese new year.. really very sad.. but well. can waited for nearly 10 month.. can wait again.. haiz.. now dont know do what.. brother bought a laptop now.. which mean in future got 3 computers at my house le.. never expected... so tired now.. but wish to do some cleaning.. so.. lets stop here.. happy new year to everyone!!
Ended the storytelling at -->5:06 PM
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Friday, February 16, 2007
Shopping spree without cost..
So tired now.. just reach home.. after a big walk from shops to shops.. places to places.. well.. today is a damn short day.. go school for just 1 hour then go home le.. shouldnt go at all.. the hint for the exam is useless.. wasted of my time going there and come back.. and so i asked Siang Yee go with me to evergreen secondary to take back our art pieces.. but.. haiz.. teacher left liao.. cannot take.. so too bad.. then chee leong asked me out to accompany him buy chinese new years clothes.. so thats what i mean shopping spree without costs.. because i didnt spent anything but he got.. haha.. he need comments.. then he got alot of clothes he dont like.. so we had a hard time finding his liking.. then after the long hours finding.. i brought him to yishun's chong pang there buy.. and he found it.. my leg dying liao.. lol.. walk so many places and so long with weights on my legs.. of course dying.. but well.. managed to help him.. so feel great.. haiz.. so sad again.. cant buy the handphone again!! because admiralty singtel shop dont have n91!! what the... freaking sia.. so sad.. then he need to go out.. so changed to tomorrow.. haiz.. postponed again... really do hope tomorrow can!! haha.. so tired now.. think go sleep le.. so good night.....
Ended the storytelling at -->11:18 PM
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Hi.. new blog skin i made.. as usual.. triggered by somethings then created according to that.. well.. guess should know what i being triggered.. past memories... but well.. why rake up that past.. lets move forward.. haha. so.. today.. well full day lesson.. didnt realized.. so tired.. and of course.. things always not in my way.. wanted to play basketball.. and out of the sudden.. the basketball court was in renovation.. great.. didnt do it earlier and so nice did it when i want to use it.. haiz.. no choice go library sleep.. haha.. but jolin want me teach her.. so i go ahead with my sleepyhead.. lol.. then had the interview.. stupid sia.. feel damn useless.. and make me more pressure.. more stress than a job interview.. but amazingly i did well on it.. finish within 20 seconds.. haha.. then go causeway.. and again.. unexpected.. actually today expected to have a new phone.. but turn out my brother suddenly need to work.. and so cant.. well.. used to that fate.. but luckily 1 thing never change.. the movie.. haha. watched ghost rider with derick, joseph and kian hui.. the movie i personally think is cool and nice.. haha.. then of course not much activity since its 9.40.. so we went home. but actually we didnt.. we went to a void deck and chat till 11++.. haha.. talk about our red cross life to joseph which is the non-red cross member.. so much memory.. missed it.. now the life so.. haiz.. now i just very excited in getting my final dream things.. handphone!! but hope can get it as soon as possible.. my mp3 dying soon.. haha.. okay.. tired for now.. so stop.. by the way.. i think this blog skin was not well done.. please give comment on it.. thank you.. and thanks for coming.....
Ended the storytelling at -->12:01 AM
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Monday, February 12, 2007
Fate to be continued.. emotional runs..
today at school early in the morning.. as lesson all cancelled except for the lab test.. so what i do in the morning when the test at 3.. while.. play and study.. why got play? well.. lets start the story in the begginning.. i today went to had my first breakfast in school of this year.. haha.. first time.. amazing.. then i received a call from he cheng.. which she seem doesnt know lesson cancelled and was here in school too.. haha.. so to help her kill boredom.. i go find her. then after finish some stuffs at free access lab.. then we went to dfund free access lab.. haha.. then she still bored so she took my laptop watch naruto and i do lab.. but of course seriously distracted.. so did very slow.. then she hungry le.. so went downstair eat.. and jolin come to find us.. i was playing game while he cheng eating.. thats what i mean play and study.. then both of them forced me to teach them dfund which is going to be tested later.. so i tried my best.. but actually didnt helped much since the lab test doesnt test on what i teach earlier.. in the end they still need to ask for help.. so sad.. then when the test beginning.. my breadboard actually mystery disappeared!! its just impossible.. but i really dont know why.. not the first time le... i was totally disguised the fact that i having this kind of life.. whole of the test wasnt really concentrate.. manage to finish my lab.. and think got full mark while helping them.. so haiz.. i think optimistic.. thats help.. i said to myself i need to concentrate and dont let fate win!! well.. its help.. so full mark.. with teacher help since i still abit not concentrate on the test.. but i got back 1 breadboard which not belonged to mine.. felt guilty but i no money to buy another 1.. so very sorry to the person who lost it..
Actually today also a emotional day.. jolin and he cheng.. suddenly related their topic on me again.. love.. argh.. and forced me blurt out everything.. the lost feeling actually came back.. and make me blue and lost.. so in total.. wasnt concentrate on anything at all.. but after the exam.. i picked up some spirit.. so where am i now? in library.. but not going to study.. whole mind already wandered.. so gonna do on my blog skin.. well.. again going on my emotions... haha.. but whether success or not i dont know.. hope so..
Tried chatted with some of my friends again..
Busy..
Is what i heard..
Friendship are gone..
Even i struggle on it..
I can no longer feel that..
Hope is i sensitive..
If not i dont know..
Is i not hardworking enough..
Or fate's works again..
Who know..
Heaven know.....
Ended the storytelling at -->4:24 PM
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Sunday, February 11, 2007
today and yesterday.. i stayed at home.. rust at home.. haha... finished my psychology online quiz.. and so.. thats the end of it.. feel tired struggling with the answer.. i can fall asleep when trying to read that super big sized book.. can show that i at my extend.. but luckily i still managed to get over it.. and rest.. so i rest for the rest of the day.. but suddenly want to online.. after watching "turn left turn right" a chinese romance movie.. its really a nice movie.. and its touched me..
Well can say me so girly or what.. but i am a sensitive emotional guy.. a feeler too.. i could actually feel what others thinking then its actually happened to me and i felt guilty for that.. even thought i shouldnt.. so back to the subject.. the touching story.. its make me felt somethings.. well in case you do not know what this movie about..
its a couple which in their life.. they keep pass their road with each other.. rubbing shoulder.. but still yet not met each other.. but actually they got their love story connected in their early days.. both in love at first sight.. but still lost contact.. when they met.. they lost contact again.. and they never met again since they met after 13 years.. so they tried to find each other.. but they cant.. and so.. what the end? of course.. they met.. after struggling.. tears... and after the earthquake.. they finally found out they actually just live next to each other.. and hugging was the last scene of the story..
Actually this movie was.. i think last year movie... but i didnt catch that but already heard is a nice movie.. so i finally see it.. and to apply that story to me.. did i actually have the same fate as them? having my fate one cross each other without seeing? i dont know and i think i might not have a fantasy like love story since my bad fated life.. but really do hope.. well u may say me inexperience in love.. but actually.. i always listen to my friend love story.. alot.. and actually i came to know what is it.. as i also a victim too.. a love in first sight.. and of course end up strangers relationship when i tried.. so.. but still.. i dont know who attracted me.. because my mind sometime always mixed up friendship and BGR.. which i really dont know which the truth.. who i love.. who i fall in love with.. so weird.. but well.. i told myself to be involved in BGR now.. i just want to concentrate on study.. i have regretted once in my life neglected my study.. this shall not be the 2nd time.. but actually to say.. i a coward.. in love.. i rather be the 1 being courted.. i know.. i am a guy.. but i not a opportunity grabber.. and girls are my archilles heel.. as i said before.. haiz.. maybe in the end i might end up finish my road of destiny alone.....
Ended the storytelling at -->11:46 PM
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Saturday, February 10, 2007
today is a fine and sunny saturday.. which i slept for 12 hours.. haha.. its been so long since i got a chance to sleep 12 hours or at least more than 8 hours.. so happy.. no need to be troubled by homework.. project.. just keep sleep till i shiok.. so good.. but still got 4 online quizzes waiting for me.. haiz.. but no choice.. got to do.. deadline tomorrow.. but still.. very happy.. exam coming le.. after 2 more week.. haiz.. still alot of subject didnt study.. die le.. so got to start study next week.. let me have 2 week to study.. hope my determination can last me that long.. because after that... break!! i need to hypnotise myself to do that.. hope i can.. haha... short blog for today too.. well nothing much happened recently.. anyway people always say my blog nagging.. but hack care.. its my personal blog.. people view it to know me well.. if lazy get out!! lol.. joking.. i welcome anyone with no bad motives... haha.. gonna go study.. so bye.....
Ended the storytelling at -->5:30 PM
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Friday, February 09, 2007
today we had a short period of lesson again.. as its friday again.. but.. didnt go home.. i went to finish up the psps report.. which done it well i guess as i wasnt get any scolding.. my friends all got scolding if not partially redo.. haha.. then go lab to my study... haiz... so tired.. then strip the wires make my finger hurt damn alot.. haiz.. then went home with my classmate as siangyee go do project.. haiz.. really blur blur the whole day.. even though finished all my stuffs.. project.. my feeling still not back.. is it tired till numbness?? haiz... dont know what to do now.. haiz.. i really not a good opportunity graber.. how come i chat with people also cant success.. then call people out also turned out to be a failure.. i just always never see them call them out.. but fate just dont allow.. if success.. i the cause for failure.. and no more 2nd chance.. i just so hate it.. so tired le.. when i can stop struggling for this... argh.. think i am getting more and more depressed.. must go do some happy stuffs.. hope i can call them out again.. lunch also can... hope so... dreaming continue.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:20 PM
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Thursday, February 08, 2007
haiz.. why when come to unlucky.. its must come in waves.. thought the finish of all my project means can concentrate study.. now is physical injured.. played soccer today.. then was injured due to a fingertip saving of a strong ball.. well.. its common to have injury.. but isnt it that unlucky.. fingertips saving why become fingertip saving.. why must hit that only 1 finger.. i always injured such weird way.. haiz.. unlucky streak isnt thats all.. i still sprained my leg during the trip back home.. wa kao.. now need to worried about my body.. money.. argh. why am i such a bad fate... now very pathetic.. haiz.. what should i do for tomorrow.. go study or see doctor? money should be saved anot.. haiz.. very troubled.. haiz.. cant play game.. cant exercise.. all related to hands i must abstrain from it now.. now i damn crave for it.. regret why i stop soccer too.. haiz.. ahhh.. should stop now.. if not more troubles.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:22 PM
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
okay.. the toughest time is finally over.. no more project!!! i really very happy.. done my last project today.. psychology.. haha... but was badly done... haiz.. well.. the advertisment is nice.. think got successfully made it. but the presentation was the opposite.. haiz.. well presentation was last minute work.. as i did the presentation but they last minute then look at it.. so well.. cant blame.. then the question and answering section.. was totally disaster.. because we didnt study.. i also forgot le since the presentation was done long time ago.. so.. in the end.. whole team died at that part.. haiz.. but i felt them refreshed.. now finally can rest.. and play!! also of course study.. thats what i concerned.. been slacking recently.. haiz.. got way alot to catch up... haha... thats all for today.. still got some touch up on the report.. i almost forgot about the last project.. haha.. but just submit only... so go do le... see you tomorrow.....
Ended the storytelling at -->9:21 PM
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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
The funny "photo taking session" day..
Wa.. really damn tired when reach home.. its 9 when i reach home.. long story for so late reach home but going to say it now.. so today we had as usual very short lesson as its tuesday.. then went to library to do project.. hehe.. this time had my member do together with me.. haha.. buts its a fun process.. they keep give funny conversation.. but great idea.. haha.. the presentation i made first time so colourful.. always in more hi-tech look like fancy animation.. haha.. this time more colourfull. but in a girl way i guess.. but still quite nice.. now going to work my life out to do all presentation including psychology..
so what the funny photo session means? haha.. actually can go home early. but well.. but member noticed i got webcam... and play with it.. in the end i also join in playing.. haha.. we took damn alot funny pictures that we in library still laugh like nobody around.. haha.. siao liao..we all in library still like this.. think we got over 20 plus photo.. dont know where to upload this time... haha.. but we just wasted so much time.. hehe.. well got to do project.. felt alot fun today.. haha.. remembered this day in my heart.....
Ended the storytelling at -->10:19 PM
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Sunday, February 04, 2007
Oh great.. the whole week 7 days i keep going to tampinese... oh weekend too? yes it is.. and make it more worse.. all 7 days i go there all is about school work!! i really were die de.. cant even have fun at all.. haiz.. so i today go tampinese for? finally we did on our psychology shooting... i was so stress and troubled by this subject alot that i already affected alot of my stuffs.. of course happy.. but then... actually we haven finished yet.. still got 1 part.. haiz.. dont wish to say more details on it.. haiz.. still need to continue be troubled until next week.. or even next next week.. if not i cant concentrate to study.. haiz.. think my luck or maybe my concentration power depleted by all the tough stuffs.. dying.. haiz... go eat the Taiwan Xiao Chi with 1 of my psychology member.. first time eat with them.. but still conversations are short lol.. can expected.. haha.. then went home.. haiz.. recently got msn virus from siangyee -.- damn sad.. but weilun came to the rescue.. haha.. i am cured.. but dont know still got who affected by me.. haiz.. so whoever affected can find me.. i got the cure for it in case you dont know how to.. haha.. think i rest for now.. cant function my brain now.. logging off.....
Ended the storytelling at -->8:44 PM
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Saturday, February 03, 2007
So well done. i finally struggle through the Exam.. i didnt sleep at all.. but keep dozing off. which mean.. all i studied goes to drain!! as its doesnt get into my brain... oh my god!! so how? think.. die.. haiz.. cant believe that psychology so fast come.. if i can prepared.. think i sure pass.. if not because the projects.. grr.. so many project to do. i 1 person.. how to do... guess really must depend on teammate le.. cant solo anymore.. thought can help damn minus the burden.. but in the end.. i increase their burden especially mine. i increased way too much over my limit.. sometime really doesnt pay off to be consideration.. think people sure say me opportunity grabber.. want to has all the credits.. well up to them.. i just wanna do my stuffs.. i happy on it.. such a fool.. haha.. very tired now.. really hope to go home.. but cant since still got aircon and PSPS... haiz.. yesterday siangyee so good.. he went to his leader house do project.. and then come back find me.. know where the leader house? woodlands!! oh my god.. siangyee.. i really think you are way too good.. i so selfish still call you back.. haiz.. then we have fun capturing photos using our webcam.. lol.. damn funny.. not studying at all.. lol.. haha.. so tired.. ahh.. member come le.. logging off now.. so i will go off now.. later at night blog.....
Ended the storytelling at -->10:26 AM
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Thursday, February 01, 2007
I guess.. In my lifetime.. I gonna lived in tough way.. way tough... why were everything related to me must happened in unexpected way.. and most be tedious to solve it.. i just cant believe that.. its true not everything goes your way.. but doesn’t applied to me!! Mine is everything wont goes my way.. not even 1 is what i expected.. So. the older I am.. The tougher its gonna reach is it? Then I rather remain young! I cant take it anymore... just cant take it.. I really gonna go mad.. Sooner or later..... Today early in the morning go school.. reach school about 7am.. then study my IWD which i didn’t studied at all.. then when test come... my brain actually malfunctioned again!! i cant remembered what i just read.. after i submit the paper.. then.. recalled.. great.. and that’s the time i received the worse message i will never expect.. my psychology teammate sick again!! its just the impossible of the impossible!! how come my teammate one after another keep got things happened!! its the fifth time!! i really cant take that blow anymore.. my brain was.. hay wired.. then i blur blur walk till library.. didn’t join Dennis them and walk away quietly.. absolutely no appetite at all.. go library.. Settled down.. try to settle the psychology stuffs.. but my heart just cant calmed down... then i did my math revision to keep me away from those stuffs first.. then math quiz... finished within 10 minutes.. check and check... then pass up.. Teacher unbelievable.. and tell me double check.. but i just wasn’t listening... really very stressed out.. when i stepped out.. then realize my mistake.. as my math was did way too fast because not only i write fast.. also the step were all 1-2 steps.. so if wrong whole answer wrong!! i walk out the class then realized.. what could i do? my mind wasn’t there.. no 1 else to blame fate.. why fate hate me so much i really pondered about it.. am i so detestable? is that my retribution? i always take all these as my training for future.. so remained optimistic view... but way too optimistic that now realized its actually endless.. like a bottomless hole which i cant fill it up.. and still i hope that 1 day i will free from all these.. but turnout opposite.. i was in total.. argh.. really feel helpless.. they said Sunday.. then video will be edited on that day send me at night...they really thought i superman.. video edited such a rush can be a good 1? and they think i had all the time for the PowerPoint? PSPS also.. how come only our group asked for demonstration... all weird things just never end!! and more to come.. i definitely know it.. as its just expected.. ya.. that’s the only things i expected and never went wrong.. i was really tired.. really really tired.. please.. let me just rest for eternal life for the goodness sake.. never mind the last sentence.. death wont solve everything anyway.. but i do deserved a break from everything i did for others and passing all the tough works set by fate? just hope i could retrieve that.....
Ended the storytelling at -->10:08 PM
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