Hi.. well.. guess should know what is sotong means when describing person.. today the person i describing is me.. well. what i did wrong? today i never go work because of a medical checkup as i said yesterday.. and now? i actually overslept... and what so freaking is my mom actually got wake me up at 12.. and what the heck i doing? feel so stupid.. i changed the appointment.. and its going to be at may 18... so long... but well.. think still be okay... haiz.. just scare my medication run out... who tell me so weak. got so many illness.. come to think of it. i promised to meet them later at office.. but my skin is.. well.. dont know how.. well.. never mind. all later then say.. now play some game to make me feel better... haiz.. stupid me.. wasted a bonus day and what i did is sleeping.. freak.. sayonara.....
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Today.. i did it again.. in where? raffles place!! i cant believe.. i made a 200+ sales today.. and in the place i was been defeated.. and now.. i win it.. i was so happy.. today i with joseph again.. went to tiong bahru.. lol.. just quite okay.. as joseph take 3 very good lanes all the while and i take 2 very bad lanes.. no people and no kind hearted people too.. anyway. i done still okay as i said.. then we went to the plaza to sleep =X.. lol.. then we went to raffles place.. i remembered yeu and alan there.. feel shiok at there.. and i chiong.. promised to defeat the fear.. and i did it!! i was damn happy.. i work a full day and i recieved my result.. haha.. today Risk come in and teach us things... and introduced a new trainee leader.. Janine!! woot.. once my teammate now a leader.. she really very serious in work and have supreme good result.. so proud to be her teammate once.. unlike me.. haiz.. anyway Congratulation Janine for being promoted.. haha.. so sianz... tomorrow i cant work!! last day of the project and i cant work.. BONUS DAY!! ahhh.. my pay damn low diao.. so sad.. just because of a medical checkup which i cant miss.. dammit.. haiz.. my sunday was also forbid going out as needed to be present at my grandmother birthday party.. well.. its not i dont want to.. its just wrong timing.. was going to have basketball with joseph them de.. haiz... so sad now.. well.. stopped here.. i will see what i will do tomorrow.. haha.. good night.. sweet dreams ahead.....
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Hi again... blogged actually because i cant make a decision.. actually.. i dont know whether tomorrow should go work anot.. i dont know i can handle the stress and the social pressure again.. i scare what today happened will happen for tomorrow.. i now very lost... my friends some know about it.. and come console me.. i feel abit happy.. first time i have friends console me.. but well.. its because of my weaknesses.. i got all these.. which normally i wont have.. but.. when will all these last? i dont know.. but now importantly is tomorrow.. i will go anot i dont know.. haiz.. hope my heart can be stronger.. can learn to accept rejection lightly.. haiz.. i now scare alot of things.. like.. who i will be with... where we were be going... and my heart.. all these.. and the people.. friends..
I hate noisy place.. i like quiet... i like to be alone.. actually alone is what i used to be.. actually became a likeness.. i dont know what i will be in future.. and how i change and face towards problems.. so tired now.. hope everyday just sleep... let me rest for few days.. that just what i want.. hope so.. living in reality is much more harder than flying in a dream.....
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Today.. i really make a fool of myself.. no.. i just shame on myself.. being a weakling.. being a useless fellow.. i made my leader disappointed again... and i truly have nothing i could do to apologise.. i have truly make him disappointed again.. after yesterday high sales.. and now? lower than $10.. and i give up went back home halfway.. a day pay gone.. but that doesnt concerned me.. what is.. i really have been a failure all the while.. i have seriously thinking whether i should work or stopped and find another.. i now really very confused.. and very lost.. i dont know what to do now.. if someone out there.. see this.. please teach me.. this time i really cant get up myself.. i dont know how.....
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Who ever read finish this post(Nobody did) i will bow to him.. here come...
3 Day posts!! lol.. haha.. long time never blog.. so actually both 3 day is happening days.. so must blog it out.. thats my characteristic..
25-03-07
Today.. i set my goal.. maintain attitude and chiong for a full day work.. i keep say.. keep hynoptise myself.. and i totally energetic.. but suddenly.. disaster strike.. i followed another team leader.. which what we do is house pitching.. FREAK!! i wanna chiong for ful day and thats what fate wanted it happened? i mean its good to be with them but just the wrong timing.. i cant believe that.. then what make it more worse? sunday.. a good day for outing who the hack will be at home -.-.. and supreme worst case is.. i unlucky... should know.. i knock 10 doors.. 10 doors dont open!! in the end.. i was truly.. nope.. didnt lose attitude.. was enjoying.. what i truly is... bad luck and disappointment.. last again.. but at least a 130 even thought with the bad luck.. as i pitch successfully rate is 90% for that.. so quite happy.. just lack of luck to pass joseph' target for me.. next time^^
26-03-07
Yay.. today with joseph.. my own team leader.. haha.. can chiong.. but... but... unlucky again!! market closed for today.. as its monday for your information.. its a rest day.. freak.. i get just abit of good result.. but died soon after that.. yeu did worst... but can understand. he sick.. so my team.. all died.. oh we went to ang mo kio.. such a sadist place.. haiz.. never mind.. a 155 result.. at least 1 of the better that day.. haha=X
27-03-07
Oh my god.. i finally did it.. haha.. well.. what i mean is.. i reach the target!! haha.. today went to the so called sadist place again.. toa payoh.. actually in the morning already unlucky.. we went to whampoa.. and the market closed down again!! means no people... so.. we went to Toa Payoh.. today was really work a full day.. i chiong like siao.. and in the end.. came back with a result.. which win everyone except the girls and the leader.. woot... 230!! haha.. finally.. haha.. i was so happy today... tomorrow must maintain.. but worried now.. who will i be with tomorrow.. and where we going.. the only place i did well is when all is residential people.. we went to raffles place actually before we went back.. and i stopped having $10 donations.. means.. my weakness area.. haiz.. and tomorrow heard is not with joseph but with other leader which is kian hui and chee leong leader.. he keep said wanted see how i work.. and his area always not what i can do well.. but anyway.. just hope i can chiong and work a full day.. maintain attitude and.. over 200 again!!! hehe..
Okay.. all 3 day posts done.. feel great.. especially today.. so happy.. must take a break.. finally can use laptop.. so use more before doze off =X.. good night and good morning for tomorrow to come.....
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Today as i said yesterday.. outing.. basically was what you know? wake up damn early and stay in blur blur mood.. not playing game.. just stay online.. as i really dont feel like going.. its like very little people i know de will go.. jack is confirm.. the rest like.. haiz.. so first is joseph call me.. he really seriously want me go.. really call my house instead call my handphone.. then i busy calling people le.. haiz.. really look like only me and jack goes.. and i dont know what to do.. joseph so sincerly want me go.. i cant reject.. so.. slowly.. finally... i start prepare which is obviously late.. and to find out at least kian hui and i yeu got go.. plus 1 more girl which new but a very good girl in find raiser.. by the way.. she is pretty.. thats what i heard from others.. which i particularly agree.. so alot of rumors and actions was taking place in company.. which i shall not say more..
So in the end.. we reached.. chee leong suddenly dont want come as got personal stuff bothered him.. i know him the longest there. as he said he dont want come.. nobody can persuad him come. so when i trying.. i knew the result... but suddenly joseph appeared and tried to persuad him.. my bill >.<>.<.. i mean the game.. so sad.. then next is starbuck there.. and the end.. its boring i think of it.. and joseph also like this think.. he said next time surely must interesting.. means going to be another outing next week.. haiz.. do this job spend money instead of earn.. how i going to pay my school fee... die liao.. hope miracle happens..
I see my blog skin.. i feel more lousy. seriously must change liao.. but i dont even have time for game.. how to design.. i must design a nice one.. even though no audience.. but i still want to have a 'sense of proud' in my blog.. lol.. okay la.. stopped here now.. is loving people make you cowardly? i puzzled on that.....
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Here to apologise.. for losing my attitude.. and giving up.. i cant believe after i do this job.. all my weaknesses just.. i dont know what to say.. just total disgrace.. to boys.. to girls.. to anyone.. i today almost cried sia.. lucky i didnt.. actually wasnt being scolded.. but being reprimanded.. as today i went to raffles place again.. with new team.. i feel weird as i always go to same place after 1 another.. dont know why am i so unlucky.. then i hate this tyoe of places.. all business which riding on 'time strap' cant be stopped.. more worse to add on.. its supreme high rejection rate that i give up.. and was reprimanded.. by leaders.. haiz.. i cant believe this job shows out my weaknesses that much.. i here to apologise to anyone i accidentally offended and gave a wrong facial expression.. very sorry.. i think through alot.. still in bad shape now.. dont know how to face on sunday.. ya.. saturday was a off day for this week.. haiz.. i hope i could do what i can.. they said they believe in me.. i cant believe myself anymore.. after today.. so maybe if i cant do it.. i will quit.. i dont want waste their time anymore.. so see about that.. hope my day will come without fate doings.. today i most dispaired is when i wanted to start anew again at other place.. gastric acted up.. its just freaking... i also no words anymore.. didnt tell anyone about that. because people sure thought i lier or weak.. haiz.. i born with that.. cant blame.. and the fate.. i am so... argh.. anyway.. stopped here.. next time blog.. ended typing.. ended day.....
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A 'chiong' day and a 'pride to fight' tomorrow..
Hi blog... very tired right now.. lying on my bed typing.. so can guess the tireness.. actually today i can say well done.. not very good.. but improvement.. 15 more to 200.. i shouldnt have rest.. so wasted.. anyway... well.. its good for me... but didnt achieved the goal thats the sadness... but today i really chiong liao.. actually in the begginning.. i felt like giving up.. first i only slpet for 2 hour.. the tireness is really heavy.. second i really very scare.. third.. i felt useless... but dont know what goes into me.. after 1 hour.. i suddenly all charged up and chiong.. at clementi collected 100+.. but then when we changed to raffles place.. as clementi suddenly dies down.. which if never.. i should already have more than 250.. thats what i think.. haiz.. raffles place.. a place where all people stepped on the time to move.. means what? its impossible to stop them but only slow down.. while.. only dropped 3 more thats all.. very tired liao.. we rested alot.. so thats all for today..
Tomorrow siao liao.. dont know why my leader and another leader which leong and kian under.. suddenly want 4v4.. see who final collection is the most.. what the hack.. sure lose de.. because of me.. make me must work hard now.. so sad.. haiz.. i very stressed now.. just hope tomorrow must be a juicy day.. why juicy.. next time explain.. haha.. okay thats all.. seriously need to sleep.. good night.....
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Wednesday, March 21, 2007
What a day i had today.. my gastric pain remerged.. pain make me feel weak.. and what i can do? ya. 1 things.. rest.. i working.. how to rest.. i was.. argh.. today morning when we start work as usual.. then had breakfast.. but after that breakfast.. i suffered dizzy spell.. freak.. i cant concentrate at all.. then we walk for long time in orchard pitching people (pitch means we ask people for donation) i ordered a large coke and gulp it down.. wee.. feel great.. my leader stunned see me ordered large coke.. asked me am i that thristy.. haha.. i told him the truth.. and he tell me got anything just tell him... well.. my collection was low.. as no mood and strength.. after we start again.. no people willing to donate.. i getting demoralized.. and what more worst? gastric pain.. such a bad day i had indeed.. i dragging them down with my slow movement.. leader say he dont want to be burdened down... tell me go rest.. well.. not hostile or harsh.. its true.. i really burdening him down.. by the way.. not my leader bringing me out.. but other leader.. but still address him as leader.. next time find a better link for description.. anyway.. i actually dont know he felt burdened.. until when i was not around in office.. he told others.. well.. cant blame and say anything.. as i said.. so.. thats all for work...
Oh ya.. another funny stuff.. like i and yeu fight in train.. lol.. and my leader wanted me rest.. but i figured something actually happening.. so funny.. where got people tell others to rest when the people said to be okay.. well.. he forced me to take leave.. and he said got things for me to do.. so.. no choice... but surely is about yeu birthday party tomorrow.. which going to happened at 12am.. which should be said 0000 of 22 march.. instead of 12am of 21.. haha.. yeu birthday at 22th.. so get it? haha.. anyway.. well.. hope he get the lesser pain of birthday bash.. as after the party is our evg classmate help him celebrate.. the birthday bash sure is hell as evg student violent de.. unlike me.. =X lol.. anyway just hope so.. but still weird not going to work.. and whats' more? helping yeu to make party.. aiyo.. tomorrow sure is a weird day.. haha.. okay thats all.. minutes passed and another day come.....
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Hi blog.. i finally buy my final stuff... Hanphone..yay... but well still lots of things happened before that.. lets see.. lets start from 1pm.. as thats the time i and yeu wake up =X hmm.. we 2 blur blur sia.. then my bro ordered mac.. yeu actually no shared.. as i never help him ordered as i forgot.. lol... apologise for that.. but he still got eat.. so dont worry.. haha.. then we 2 slack till near 5 then go causeway.. parted ways as he go guardian i go singtel shop.. okay.. remember from the last incident.. know surely need 1 hour.. so i go window shopping.. but.. never expected.. its goes fast.. i saw it.. so i faster tell my brother rush down.. but still he late.. my turn.. i thought doom.. but lucky the person tell me let the next customer go first.. then when i ready just tell him.. so finally my turn.. yay.. the phone.. N91.. no shoud be called N91-8GB.. 8gb? i thought.. then asked for the price.. he said the same.. 598.. okay.. i agreed.. then after i used it.. he said he made a mistake.. 698.. 100 increased for 4 more GB.. great.. but.. dont wanna waste time.. so just agreed on it.. bye my money.. i proclaimed broke now.. sianz... but well.. never mind.. i just want my phone.. and i get it!! yay.. i bought router too.. haha... but.. lack of 1 more ethernet cable.. sianz... need to wait till tomorrow then both lappy can start online.. haha.. okay stop here now.. tomorrow work again liao.. hope i can do it... i pressured again.. someone teach me how to deal with all these.. day passed once again.....
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Hihi.. back i am.. long time didnt blog.. feel weird.. guess now what time? 5.50AM!! haha.. crazy hor? actually just reach home about 1 hour ago.. been celebrating with my collegues.. eat steam boat.. watch midnight movie.. and of course.. supreme exercise.. Jack 1 of my collegues.. dont know how to go.. then bring us go wrong places after 1 another.. funny hor? watch a midnight movie need to walk 1 hour plus to reach.. dont know what they doing.. haha.. anyway.. very energetic.. i yeu staying my house again.. lol.. now dont know what to do.. blog how i feel about work..
actually.. wasnt having any pleasant days.. i keep depressed in my heart.. even thought i started to improve.. due to some sentence in my mind and i keep to it.. 3rd day $55.. 4th day $130 and today.. $155.. anyway.. still the lousiest.. know why? i think i the only 1 with lots of working experience.. and lots of sales experience.. and how come still.. haiz.. always think i cant do it.. i cant do it.. but luckily 1 think the positive.. then manage.. now my leader want me hit $200 everyday.. no more 1 in front of the 3 digits.. i scare.. while.. no more deproving.. but improving is also not 100%.. i guess.. doom.. haiz... never mind.. try my best.. actually today i gave up.. very unhappy with the singaporeans at toa payoh.. long long story.. dont wish to talk about it.. unless people requested...
Now so energetic.. sunday a day off.. so what my hope for today? please allow me buy N91!!! hope hope alot.. eerrr.. think must force myself go sleep le.. thats all and good night.....
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I so hate myself.. for being anti-social.. why do i hate crowd.. why do i hate rejection... am i suit for the job i doing? i really dont know.. today i done badly.. total collection is the last.. $35 for the whole 9 hours... impossible right? i also cant believe.. i basically alright with speaking.. and i did $30 in 1 hour plus.. so whats wrong? while.. when we were at residential area.. i did fast and brave.. and i able to made $30 in 1 hour.. so amazingly.. but. when my leader.. actually is not mine. as my team got 3.. so today i rotate to other group.. sianz.. both i dont know.. and having age gap with both.. so i was very quiet.. and also.. the place is tampinese.. more sianz.. a place where i go almost everyday of course.. lesser than at woodlands.. back to what i was saying.. they suddenly want go to central.. which is interchange that area.. oh great.. i thought it was okay.. but when i reach... and when i want to approach.. i realized difficulties... not a simple difficulties.. is seriously not guts to approach.. and i know why.. i hate crowds... i dont like being in crowds at all.. so guess thats the reason.. and the whole day.. well can imagine.. $5 dollar added only after the residential areas.. of course.. another reason... my leader was sicked.. and he keep rest.. so actually we rest about 5 hours le.. actually is slack.. but the biggest problem lies on me.. so.. when the time up.. we went back to office.. guess my facial expression betrayed me.. everyone know i got problem.. and keep tell me is okay to hit problem.. and my leader very caring.. keep ask me what happened.. i didnt told them i hate crowds.. i just say i think too much.. oh well.. tomorrow i will be with my own team leader.. he said he believe on me.. as my speaking is well done.. so he cant figured what the problem.. thats why i fake him i think too much.. so nobody know my weakness.. but this lies will stay how long before its break.. so before its does.. i must change... but.. actually.. do i fit into this job.. ya. its true i done promoter.. but thats different.. if i facing a crowds.. i doom.. promoters wont be facing that.. or maybe just a 20 people.. but if here push there push this situation.. i will scare and my brain haywired.. anyway.. guess you all wont understand.. i cant explain anyway.. but hope.. i can do it.. i give myself 1 week.. if not even 1 time $200.. then.. i got to set high.. so i can do it.. hope so... well thats all.. say day for today.. first time i did so badly in a stuff like this.. hope i can go through this.. till then.....
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Today we started our work.. as i said.. working in a company which doing projects.. but.. its not what we expected.. thought no fund raising... but this month they handling fund raising.. so.. we need to do till march 30th.. haiz.. never mind.. first time.. can experience.. anyway.. today i blur king sia.. i wake up at 6 plus.. then i actually forgot what time go out.. then overslept.. haiz.. if kian hui didnt called me.. i surely never go work.. lol.. haiz.. but i missed my breakfast which we promised.. haiz.. still got scolded.. but well.. never totally late for work.. then we reach there just nice.. then we reach there just only we 4.. then we slowly wait.. wait.. wait.. and wait.. 0915 meeting time.. until 10am still haven start.. and finally we started.. haha.. kian and leong was separated from us.. i and yeu followed with another leader.. with a girl.. smaller than us.. and its english educated.. means what? she cant use chinese at all. she can only read.. but her english was marvelous.. haha.. anyway.. the leader and another team plus yeu was keep teasing her.. i just keep quiet and laugh.. lol.. then the leader keep force me talk.. haiz.. i am a quiet person after all.. anyway we will need to do fund raising.. walk around and ask for donation.. $10!! hard seh.. but well.. my first tried 1 get $4.. lol.. at least i able to get.. haha.. the rest cant get.. excpet leaders la.. professional.. lol.. anyway this job is fun anot depend on my mood... and how to face.. anyway.. hard sia.. i sluttered on my words.. haha.. and i still felt nervous... weakling.. haiz.. lol.. anyway lets hope tomorrow a smooth day^^ okay stop here.. bye all.....
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I am just way too bad fated.. really.. people said me i going to led a bad fated life.. nothing will be in my way.. i never been lucky before.. all i have is risk and relief.. when did i led a day with luck instead of bad luck.. go down buy drink shop closed.. go top up ez-link card machine spoilt.. wanna buy concession the counter closed etc.. all these.. i have live with it for 18 years.. i cant believe i such bad fated.. as i sadi yesterday.. today i gonna have my final dream item fulfilled? guess what? of course.. didnt happened.. and its was such.... argh... today my brother finally could bring me to buy.. so we take bus as he said dont want to drive.. and when we reach.. the queue is amazingly long.. but well.. day still early.. of course we can buy.. then when we got our number.. which said its need around 40 mins then our turn.. so we went to eat.. and guess what? we came back.. the number just still halfway and its hour passed.. what more worse? my brother got appointment.. and need to go off.. so what? cancelled.. amazingly bad fated right? i start working at monday.. my brother afternoon shift for next week.. which mean what? its mean.. NEXT WEEK!! oh great.. i wait and wait and wait.. this is what i get.. my patience is already over the limit.. how come the fate want it like this. its not like i taking my mother money buy.. its my own money.. my pitiful sum of money left.. how can they restrict me!!!! i was any religious group thinker.. but why!? i was totally despaired and no mood for today.. i was supreme angered.. i punch here and there.. you may think is a trivial matters.. if you think that way.. i dont think you know me at all and my situation.. totally no mood.. tomorrow working.. but my mood was ruined.. dont know how to face it.. i no longer depend on fate.. i must control it.. this time the last chance.. if not again.. i dont know what i will do.. thats all for today.. sorry for listening my angered words.. day passed once again.....
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Hi.. few days never blogged.. busy.. actually is tired when the time i reach home.. haha.. well.. alot of happened.. lets have short recap.. on Thursday.. i been invited down to my house downstair banquet.. well.. actually is some kind of bidding stuff.. for chinese.. not sure how to pronouce.. so i used banquet.. haha. we eat and drink.. drink beer =X haha.. lyesia was "drunk" lol.. actually not drunk just face super red.. i just teased him.. haha.. then before that evening we will finding job.. with no success.. then friday we went to find again... we got a great job.. after 2 interview.. haha.. at tanjong pagar a event company to be said.. damn funny when we went to there and leave to know boss was out for awhile.. then when kian hui and chee leong wanted to open the "stuck" door which obviously we dont know what was going on.. they thought it a magnetic door.. thats why doesnt budge abit when use force.. so they though the switch on the wall is the button.. which is obviously a light switch.. they go off the light -.-.. we all laugh like hell when the light was off.. then staff knew what was going o.. tell us use more strength... she also laughed at kian and leong actions.. lol.. really was damn funny.. haha.. when we went out.. the boss came back.. as i think he is the boss.. then he walk past us when in the same place we went out.. and i guessed it right.. we will called back again.. then this is a high paid job.. we will so happy.. and of course.. not sure we will be hired anot. but i guess should be.. monday shall have the orientation day.. so lets see..
Today a disapointment day again.. the day i should have my handphone gone again.. i cant believe the fate have this goes... yesterday my big brother very late then come back.. so i figured he sure sleep till damn late then wake up.. so i agreed on going to basketball game.. and i thought my big brother wont be going out.. when i come back.. he is gone.. and he said i too early went out.. how to buy.. i was like dots... haiz.. then he said tomorrow.. haiz.. got to wait again.. how could like this happened? i mean.. i planned so well.. come back in afternoon.. to tell me he need to go out.. i really 'black cat'? i cant believe this.. haiz.. just hope tomorrow.. let me buy this HANDPHONE for goodness sake.. haiz... but well.. can wait.. haha.. now dont know do what.. just hope tomorrow faster come.. and buy my handphone.. and the day after tomorrow.. the orientation day.. woot.. days are packed.. so no more activities.. haha.. well.. time for games again.. so wish me good luck ^^.....
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Haiz.. today stayed at home whole day.. rotting sia.. Today should be the day i go visit the agent with jolin.. but actually i know this could happened.. well.. when at sentosa.. i asked her about this.. she treat it very cold.. i mean not really care about it.. and i felt a relunctant feeling of calling me go.. well.. i am a feeler.. plus i learned psychology.. abit can see through from her eyes vision, actions and the speed of the words she mentioned it out.. well.. not a psychologist.. but i am sensitve with all this.. and is quite accurate to be said.. because i am trained with it with all the emotions and scenerio i been hit in past.. but well.. only her ownself know it.. so i wont say that much. anyway.. i did sms her.. whether tomorrow going.. she said dont know.. and she told me find myself.. so well.. i guessed it correctly after all..
Maybe is just i dumb. how could my poly friend find me go out find job when i very cold in school... well its did.. when dennis called me go out and work.. but now he treated me quite cold recently.. reason i shall not say.. as somethings really just keep to himself will do.. anyway.. even thought i more popular and more acceptable in class... i still shouldnt have false hope.. well.. now i got to find myself.. should have know it... not blaming anyone as i know myself.. but well.. its kind of fun to find myself as no need to care what job my friends want.. just find for myself.. but why when i said this sentence.. i feel so sad.. maybe i really scare alone.. missed the days in KFC.. its the only time i work so happily and crazy.. made alot of friends.. but now all so separated.. is it i the only 1 who always stay to hold a relationship and dont willing to let off while others dont even care about it? i sometime will think about it.. i didnt quarrel that much.. i guess.. the only 1 i quarrelled with is huat.. while he always said something i dont like.. and sometime i will really get angered... but always i am the 1 apologise..
Well.. why i said all these stuff for? i always blog with feeling.. haiz... anyway i must really find a job now.. i really need cash.. just hope this time my fate allowed me to have a normal and richer working life for this holiday.. got to sleep now.. dreamZ.....
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Get wacky crazy and WET!!
Lol.. today is really a damn fun day... i tried alot of new stuff.. haha.. oh ya.. didnt mentioned what i had today.. we had our first outdoor activity held by class.. even though just mere 8 people.. we still take it as a class trip to Sentosa!! haha..
So first what bad happened is.. i overslept by 1 hour... got no time to prepare of course cant bring camera.. haiz.. so sad.. then i rush to there.. late by 10 mins plus.. so sianz.. i so hope would bring camera.. then i in charge of snacks.. so bought alot of tibits.. haha.. then we met up and go take the monorail to sentosa.. haha.. we had some photo taken using Siti camera.. lucky she got bring.. if not no photos at all.. haha.. then finally.. we reached.. and the wonderful.. Beach!! haha... so happy.. we found a spot.. and we played beach volleyball.. while volleyball i didnt really played before.. remember last time is secondary school le.. haiz.. very lousy indeed.. but they say at least i know how to hit and got power.. just wrong angle.. haha.. better than nothing.. then after that.. lunch time.. Siti and haikal prepared foods.. and we start to eat.. after that.. we chat awhile but well.. run out of drinks so adham them go buy drinks.. and haikal go take a stroll.. left me adriel dennis and jolin.. and we played cards.. haha.. very fun.. not gambling of course.. then finally super long time then they come.. then after awhile.. beach volleyball again.. then after awhile got Earthquake sia.. we didnt feel it.. but Hosni felt it and told us.. we didnt take it serious but after i saw the news.. i believed.. anyway we didnt felt anything.. of course didnt do anything about it.. about the comotion is.. haikal being dragged and thrown into the seas.. i expected something like this will happened.. and i predicted i will got it too.. well.. it became true.. lol... i sitting down on the beach there.. enjoy the water.. then suddenly Adham them staring at me.. i felt weird.. and know something admiss.. so i run.. they of course chase.. but i managed to escape but never expect a backstab.. adriel pushed me from behind which i didnt noticed him running toward me from other side.. Wosh... i soaking wet -.- i got wallet everything inside sia.. they like this push.. lucky electronic stuff i taken away liao.. lol.. but well.. i predicted.. so i bought my clothes le.. and stil got shoes.. because my spare outfit is a jeans and button shirt.. then i dont like wear sandals with jeans.. so bought alone shoes.. and well.. a good analyser.. haha.. then what we did nice is Lude.. is a racing stuff which we ride a things and speed down the slope.. woot.. so shiok.. but before start we need to take Skyride.. haha.. a hanged bench on air.. so HIGH.. but i feel great. so abit scare.. haha... first time Hanged on air.. without leg touching the ground.. haha.. then woot.. Lude time.. i got Racing experience so turning all these i learned fast.. can make sharp turn.. but dont dare as too many people.. Haikal speed down and cut through me.. then i dont dare le.. haha.. then when final part.. i saw a gap.. between Adham and a girl.. and i am faster so i wanna cut through.. but never expect Adham go turn.. then i hit on the girl.. oh man.. she shouted and she got onto grass.. i keep say sorry.. but damn embarassed.. haiz.. anyway.. its really fun.. but if not expensive.. i might tried more than 5 times.. $9.. heart pain sia.. well.. happy stuffs. sure got ending.. and the ending seem to be fast to come.. because most of the people leaving early.. thought i could stay late.. well.. never mind.. and so we went home..
so tired now.. more worse got sunburn.. on face >.< because my skin colour is white.. so when sunburn.. its reddish.. and its very red.. so ugly.. but i sure cant turn black.. because my skin.. well those should know.. cant turn black.. sometime even might cause uneven colours.. so ugly.. but well.. enjoyed the fun day.. especially can enjoy with my classmates.. they trick me all these. i felt damn happy... haha.. stop blogging now.. got to go play game le.. gamer am i.. haha.. till the next time.....
Ended the storytelling at -->10:46 PM
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Today.. didnt find job.. as my friend chee leong came too late... haiz.. but we had a basketball game in evening..i was excited as finally i can exercise again.. and playing my favourite sport.. so we went there... and i played well in my first match.. all ball i shoot all scored in.. but after the first match.. my standard suddenly all dropped to very low.. not even 1 ball scored.. i cant believed.. i frustrated.. then after the light close.. i shoot like crazy.. the standard only improved abit.. haiz.. i just hate when i was good in something suddenly turned out to be a burden to others.. hate it.. but well.. i will be back.. i will never stop basketball.. haha.. well a tired day indeed.. because i trained so crazy.. haha.. but well.. next time i must played well.. hehe.. tomorrow going to find jobs with chee leong and kian hui.. but not going to find 1 for myself.. as jolin called me to go find job.. haha.. i agreed.. pang seh my friends.. lol.. anyway.. nothing much except basketball.. so thats all.. my friends calling me go play game le.. so next time.....
Ended the storytelling at -->12:38 AM
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Today a fun day.. as i got asked out for a game of Pool.. haha.. so long never play.. and what? i become a newbie again!! haiz.. so hate being so lousy when i was quite okay last time.. anyway.. not very fun after all as we not enough time as we got next activity.. Lan Game.. haha.. we played dota.. so long never play.. also become a noob.. haha.. but anyway have a fun day..
Anyway.. now very tired le.. so weak.. just being asked wanna find job.. then i tell him come my house tomorrow and i planned all everything to make sure i have a job by tomorrow.. haha... so tomorrow shall be a busy day too.. haha.. yawn.. maybe sleeping soon.. so.. good night and a sweet dream.....
Ended the storytelling at -->12:15 AM
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Kind of let down.. damn sad.. even though i pass my Dfund.. but no As again.. i throw away the As myself.. i said wanna study Dfund.. in the end i spent dont know how long idling.. then still fall asleep.. i dont know why like this.. am i really not suited in slack environment? i really been slacking.. way worse than secondary school... i need to be trained.. seriously need to be.. i must cannot lose to myself anymore.. i promised.. i will do well the next semester.. i must.. and i will.. how i wish this determination can continued last..
Anyway finally exam over.. quite a relieved... but immediately i going to for a job interview.. well think wont applied.. as the pay should be quite low.. i cant work with that salary.. i still need to pay off my school fees.. pathetic ehz.. but no choice.. i just go accompany siangyee will do.. but if the pay higher.. well.. might consider.. haha.. anyway.. now dont know do what.. so tired.. maybe sleep.. so many day never sleep.. only doze off.. haiz.. well.. kind of sad.. but wont last long.. haha.. so see ya next time....
Ended the storytelling at -->3:14 PM
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Knewing my weakness.. yet..
I am just very useless.. i am a i said it and i do it person.. but why that characteristic wont work on me? i have made myself regret and regret.. doing things to late.. i failed my exam today.. my IWD.. i just making exucse on it to slack.. its easy.. yea.. it is.. if u got study.. why i dont wanna study? why i just keep find excuses.. why my body always tired when come to study.. why what i said i cant do it.. i said i wanna start study after.. its okay i cant start immediately or cant do it.. but why slack.. i cant believe that.. i can do it.. i know my abilities well.. but i just keep throwing my As.. i cant believe i doing that.. nw my university dream really gone.. i can no longer see it now.. should i also give up on the last subject too? nope.. i shouldnt... nah.. why give up.. i think still got hope.. i just pass this well this time.. try aim for a Z.. yes. thats gonna do it.. lets rock!! woot.. picked up some spirit to move on..
Lied again today.. my friends asked me to teach them Dfund.. i said i dont know... but actually.. is no courage to face them.. i know i cant teach.. so i shouldnt make them disappointed on me.. i rather act stupid.. but.. its just cowardy acts.. face it mingfan.. you really hyprocritics now... but no matter what.. i shouldnt stop track now.. so lets stop writing.. study now.. haha.. striving for my future.....
Ended the storytelling at -->12:05 PM
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